| I wish i had a sleeping pill for everytime i close my eyes and think of you the perfect thing to say or how it would feel to kiss you or what it would be like to be held by u hiding in your arms but i dont and i dream breath and turn over in my sleep and every thought is you maybe im crazy but for once i like someone i dont just want to sleep with u i want more i want to hold ur hand eat ice cream laugh with each other have inside jokes id even let u read this i like u that much but how do i tell u does this help? |
| i stare down the face of death i want to run but i cant the smell of violence lingers and i know im unsafe my shadow, my love you meant everything to me meaningless life had such the source the plain veiw of love unconditinol hate sinking down the depths of this hell this black hole in my heart the way i was so cruel but i loved i was loved my shadow, i will follow u now the life and love of another is faintly remaining the lost identity of a child a lost mother with abondend kids little girls crying black tears this forgotten place this lost city that is my home the only light is that shred of hope the indescrete love you, my shadow i love i'm utterly sorry for taking your life but we are together in this hell of fate |
| i hate my arms i hate my legs i hate every aspect about me even my status age i cant stand my face i hate my hair i dont know why i even care my childish mind my fat body what the fuck is wrong with me i cant stand myself im so unsure i dont know what love is i dont think i will i wish i could escape this and be someone else why, do i hate me why cant i hate you instead |
| empty the feeling of hate my blood frozen to my wrist the frozen lifeless area that covers the white snow scatterd red the drops of my stinging hate the sizzle, the melting of purity the lovelessness drawn out by cries unseen beauty unheard truth dead trees hanging limp with sympathy you, my forest watch me die the water frozen along with my reflection my eye tearing up over this the hate from my damily the hallowness from my father cut the pain out i cut that pain out the ucey breath of deaths doom lingering air of self pity self injury caused no pain no pain, no pain remains your bloody hand reaching but never grasping me my cuts to deep cut the pain out i cut the pain OUT |
| MR. MAN POEM excuse me sir, but your knife is logded in my heart its been there over a year since last january it turns and throbs and reminds me of my sins i'de really like it if you would take it back |
| if i looked you in the eyes and asked you so humbely with a trembeling voice an angelic way in the way only i can "do you love me" what might you say would you lie to me call me beautiful yet knowing of my ugly knowing how utterly insecure this little freak girl really is that ay anwser you might say could crush me like a car crash and shatter the little soul of hope i have what might you say.... if its no, then look away and never look back leave me here beaten and shatterd but if you say yes.... please jsut leave now because if you love me then u must know im not able to love u back |
 |