My Father's Dedication Poem

In loving memory for my father,
James A. Johnson
On July 21st, 1989, he took His own life.
My life has never been the same since.
He will always be missed.

The Day you left this world,
would be a day I will never forget.
That day i lost my best friend, my father.
Even though it was 13 years ago,
I still remember my thoughts
when I found out what happend.
I remember saying to myself,
"What am I going to do?",
"I'll never hear him laugh again!",
and "I'll never see him smile again!"

And now today,
I think to myself about the things I miss the most.
I miss your jokes and of course your laughter.
I miss your sense of humor.
But most of all I miss you just being here.

Life, as I knew it changed for me on that day you left.
The kindest person that anyone could ever known,
But the world was so cruel to you in your life.
your journey in your life was hard.
But, there were joyful times also.

Now, today I regret what actions I took as a child.
Always wanting everything,
and always having to have all the attention
I would given that up,
just to have you in my life longer then I did!

Now that I'm older and much wiser,
everything that I've said and everything that I've done,
in one instant I would just fade away,
if you could be by my side today!

But as time goes by,
how hard I try,
to understand what life had ment to you.
And the more I realize,
the more I understand what you were going through.

Time passes on,
people go on,
we learn to live on
after those who we love passes on.
But we never forget the times we shared with them
and the wisdoom that each of them had given to us.

As time goes by,
we live with our choices and our faults.
Knowing that someday,
someone in our lives that we've caused pain,
shall forgiven us deep inside.
And sometimes how hard we try to hide how we feel inside,
because of all the wrong that we've done we hold inside.
Till one day we no longer can hide
all this anger we have inside.

You shall be missed.
And my life will carry on.
And someday you and I shall meet again.
And then shall be in my father's arms once. again.
And then I can tell you face to face,
as tears fall upon my face.
That I'm sorry for what you went through,
and that I've missed you.