Daniel
	Daniel is one of the men I get most flack about. The reason for this mostly is because we met on the internet. It was in Jan and my uncle had just died from cancer. He was in remission so it was kinda a shock. This was the second time someone I loved had died and it hit me a little harder than I expected. Just for the hell of it I decided to put a write up about me in Webpersonals. Just to see if I could make a friend or two. I wasnt even looking for anyone really.Well Daniel was also on webpersonals. He found my write up somehow and replied to me. It was insane he wrote me so much the very first time. Immediatly after reading some of what he wrote( mostly just general back ground info) I decided this is definatly someone I want to know better. I emailed him and told him to add me to his buddy list or yahoo ( I dont remember for sure which one). He came on and we talked and talked. He was sweet and understanding and helped me through a lot. Mostly, he just listened to me. This was something that no one really did often and it came as a great shock to me. At this point in my life I was seeing a guy named James.  Me and Daniel talked for what seemed like an eternity. I think it was somewhere past 7 hours. Which to a lot of people seems insane. We talked about everything and had a sheer amazing amount of thoughts, feelings and ideas in common. Our conversations were about anything and everything. This went on for months. Finally in March we decided to meet. ( Yeah I ignored everyone and just went on the whim that he wasnt going to kill me )   Meeting him was great. It showed me that words ment something. We got along great and had a blast all 9 days he was here. Then he went home (NM) and we resumed chatting. By this time our chats got a little shorter and we both got busier. Daniel decided he was going to come to Fargo and go to NDSU so we could really be together. I was all for this at first.    I am not really a person for change. I am getting better now, but at this point change scared the hell out of me. I also had several thoughts that kept going through my mind. I thought he would resent me because he was leaving his friends (his clan) and his family. I also couldnt get rid of the thought that he would be the only man I would ever be with ( yea, I mean sexually). I had a fear that he would smother me when he got here, because I would be all he knew. After tearing myself apart and having massive sleepless nights I told him it was over. I was cold and methodical when he called. I cant show emotion when I am breaking up with someone then it becomes too hard for me. He hated me for a great while, but we eventually got to friend status and it stayed that way for two years...... More on Daniel ..Daniel2