Scott 2
	How did I end up doing this again...Hmmm I have no real clue. We ended up online at  the same time one night. We talked it ended with him explaining things about Emi. Well that led to us meeting which rekindled old feelings. I am a logical person and I gave him another chance since the reasons we broke up the first time were not his fault.   Just like all my realtionships things were awsome for a while. Then I moved to a new place. I made the mistake of saying that Scott could bring some stuff over. Before I knew it he moved everything in. This was the biggest mistake of my life. I was definalty into our relationship that strong, but like a moron I let it go. I just told myself it would work. Well eventually it drove me crazy so we broke up.   I have had bad break ups before and even the "I cant live without you" speech, but never has anyone actually tried to kill themselves because of me. Scott was acting real funny when he left for work the day we broke up. I just attributed it to him dealing with the news. He disapeared to go to work. I went to my room to watch tv, and then found "the note". This note said he took a bunch of rat poison and was going somewhere to die. I am not heartless and I cared about him so I called my mom and we went out to serch for him. There were several places he liked to go to think, but he wasnt at any of them. Finally I called his mom. This was when I saw another note, one to his mom. This made things more serius. My mom, his mom, and I drove around for 4 hours looking everywhere for him. Finally I stopped back home to see if maybe he ended up changing his mind and just went back to the apartment. Sure enough he was there. When we found him he was barly breathing. My mom (a CNA) took care of him while I called the ambulance. He was rushed to Meritcare and had his stomach pumped and then for some god awful reason they relaesed him in my care. Yea, Meritcare released Scott to my care so I was on suicide watch for 4 days straight.    I did my job and watched him and then he moved all his stuff out and stopped talking to me. In his mind I was trying to play the victim and get sympaty by helping him. I dont know I think none of it made sence.It is this reason that I have developed a No killing Yourself policy in my presence. I stick by this rule. I will never go through something like that. I will also never date a suicidal person again.