I haven't gone to sleep yet ... it`s  7:56 in the goddamn morning  and I`m tireder than hell right now ;\  I watched  13 ghosts  last  night,  and right after I started building this site of mine.  Eh, I  do think it`s a little  plain, but there's nothing  wrong with that right? I  have to go to sleep soon . . .  my thoughts are becoming disoriented and the sun`s been  up for about 2 hours, and  Erica  should be  here in another three.  Sleep is good  for  you.  But then, of course,  I wouldn't  know! Not from experience, anyway. I`ll write back later... ciao
<33  j a d e                               `  e n d i n  g       8 :  0 3  a m .                       
november 12, 2002                                                                                                      entry # o1
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my guestbook title`s image hasn`t been displaying, and i figured out that i can`t use any hosts other  than bravenet to enter an image. Shit sucks, i guess it`s new or something, but yeah; that`s why it hasn`t been working. i`ll figure out a way though . . . soon enough.

anyway, today started out okay... and right now i`m  trying to figure out where in the hell it went wrong. people just really piss me off sometimes. seriously; i mean the very people who claim to care about you are  the ones who constantly hurt you.  trusting someone is extreme vulnerableness. we act on our emotions... rapidly; unthinking... and as soon as something  goes wrong, every word,  promise, or bond that was held before breaks.  Do you feel me? I doubt it ... I just  don't  understand... and I guess I should quit caring. what makes some  people  act as they do?  i`m tired of games... i thought  we were  over that stage... why can`t you  just be real with me?  why can`t you just say what`s  on your mind and what`s bothering you? just because you`re hurting inside doesn`t give you a reason to hurt me back. no matter what i do...no matter how i hard i fucken try, it`s never enough for you. i`ve had too much bullshit in my life to have to sit here and cry over you, and then pretend  i`m fine at  night.  why don`t  you care anymore? whatever, i ain't giving up yet. ;\

and to my admirer, i hope you`re enjoying this.  seriously, i love being the center  of your pathetic universe.  go ahead, talk shit;  you don`t know the half of it.  you swear you know so much  about  relationships,  and  chicks; and  what makes a good  relationship;  and when  you  feel  the  need  to  assume  and  critcize,  you do it.  Puahaha,  funny  thing  is though,  i don`t see  you with your girlfriend.  hmm, where is she?  look, it`s  not my  fault you`ve gotten screwed over so many times that you have to be this anal, so lay off! bitch!

alrite, enough of that bs. i`m just tired and emotional i guess. i`m like on my rag... except for the fact that i`m not ;x someone make me happy, please? ducks!!!
  - j a d e                               `  e n d i n  g       8 :  4  1   p m .                           
november 13, 2002                                                                                                      entry # o2
i completed my "retinal stimulants" page and i finally got the dead gory princess to work as  my title  image on my  guestbook.  hmm . . .  i don`t really have  much do  on here for awhile, so if you  have any suggestions,  feel free to tell me. joy suggested that i add like a baby page, of all of us as babies or something . . . and some old ass pixes. so yeah, i might do that later.  dennis wants me to make an entire page of his name over and over again with everything dennis. puahaha . . . yeah okay  buddy! mabye for the  background music i`ll play mary had a friggin lil lamb. (  inside joke ;x )  anyway,  i have  class  tonite, not to mention a test. eh, i found out today that i`m failing one of my classes and there`s virtually  nothing  i can  possibly  do about it. heh,  life sucks. i`ll w/b  later or  something
i  l o v e    y o u    d e n n i s   <3         - j a d e           `  e nd i n g   4 :0 5   p m . 
november 14, 2002                                                                                                      entry # o3
it`s kinda boring  right now . . . there`s  not really much to do. my mother  pissed me off when  she got home.  she told me i can`t go  out tomorrow, anywhere, `cause i have to help her dumbass fix my aunt`s house. errr . . . i was planning on going out ;\ i`m sure we`ll be done by nite;  but  i`ll prolly be like too tired to go  anywhere... whatever though; staying   home   is  good  for me.  it  makes  dennis  trust  me more!  aye  aye  captain? anyway, i added background music to the menu page.  i was thinking of adding music to  every page;  however, t hat might just make  people`s  comps lag hella . . .  wouldn't wanna do that. . . alrite that`s all.  i`ve lost all my energy.  so i`ll write back when i find it.
oompa loompa boogedy doo!!!!! [  or something ]     <3   jade              ` ending 4:39pm
november 16, 2002                                                                                                      entry # o5
alrite, so i`ve  had  this site up for not even a week and  already i have a few haters . . . well, hating. not many,  i`ve had like two bad  comments about my site out of everyone who`s seen it;  nonetheless, i`d like to make some things clear for future haters.

first  of   all, i made this site soley  for  my  enjoyment  and  those who  wish to  view it. simply, it was made  out of sheer boredom in less than 24 hours. i made it for myself, not for you, get it through your head. if i wanted to put up what i call "typically cool" (i.e; asian images; cars...WriTinG LiKe DiS; anime, etc), i could have done it. i mean , shit, look at my old site.. so if  you  complain;  then simply,  just  don`t come back anymore. it`s like for that one dude who said i wasn`t attractive but got pissed when i wouldn'`t give him more than one pix. puahaha ;x

another  thing,  my little  crew,  consisting of me, joy,  and erica.  so we  decide to  call ourselves sexy bitches... what does that have to do with you?  call us gay...  conceited, blah blah [ dumb whores ] ...but remember, for every pathetic thing YOU say about us, there`s always 10 other compliments coming our way ;]

last thing, my site wasn`t  made to impress you. i  chose a  plain  layout  because  i've gotten over the whole "more is better" type shit.  i`m into alternative styles,  therefore, i fill my  site with a gory  princess with slashes  in various places.  hate my music?  it`s what i`m into and what i listen to. i`ve never been one to conform, and i`m not starting now. if you really want a 'tyte ass site,' then you`ve come to the wrong goddamn place. i`ve never been one to conform, and i`m not starting now.  hate  on haters . . .
[don't get me wrong-for those of you who like my site...*muah ! to you*  =)     `3:14 pm
november 15, 2002                                                                                                      entry # o4