BETWEEN THE LINES 2
Summer Communication
by Mason-Dixon
Authors’
disclaimer: The Sentinel and all related characters are the property of
Paramount Pictures and Pet Fly Productions.
No
copyright infringement intended.
WARNING:
This story contains non-sexual, disciplinary spanking; it is slash and adult in
nature.
From: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
To: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
May 29, 1999 13:21 PST
Hi
Blair!
Vin
and I had the best day today. LOL We are in London right now, but are leaving
tomorrow to go back home. You did know
that we have a flat in London, didn’t you?
Anyway, we were out walking Hyde Park and it was just a perfect day, the
sky was crystal clear blue and the temperature was about perfect. We bought lunch from one of the little
grocery stores and had a picnic and just sat around and talked. It was really nice, sort of like we were on
holiday. We’ve been getting along
perfectly lately, I haven’t been a brat, and Vin hasn’t been a control jerk LOL
Life is just good right now?
How
are things with your partner and yourself?
Things settled down some since we talked last? You sounded annoyed in your last note about not being able to
work at the police station during finals.
You know, I would be happy about that if I were
you. I remember finals and they were always busy
and I never even took them that seriously.
LOL I can’t imagine how busy you must be with grading and writing and
all that. I almost never side with the
big guys, but I think on this one, Blair, Jim’s
right. Go with it, enjoy not having the added
pressure on yourself. You know, I think
this bothers you so much because this is the first real thing you are having to
do simply because Jim says so. This is
the first real test of how much you want this relationship, with the rules and
the consequences. I think you just have
to trust Jim on this one, and you know that he has your best interest in heart. Just remember, it’s a lot easier sometimes
to just do what they want then to be stubborn about it.
Need
to go, Vin says “hello” – OK, not exactly, but I’m sure that’s what he meant.
LOL
Day
From: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
To: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
May 30, 1999 21:04 PST
Hi
Day,
Ok,
so what did Vin really say?? I swear to
you, Day, you may love him, but he scares the shit out of me. LOL
I’m
glad you guys are getting along by the sound of it. It's going good enough for Jim and me. We are ok, I guess, but I miss working with him. I don’t know how to explain it, man, but I
feel like something is wrong, like I am letting someone down, but
I’m
not sure who. Jim told Captain Banks -
Simon, our boss at the station, that I wouldn’t be coming in until after
finals. God, I really hope that he
didn’t tell Simon that he wasn’t allowing me to come in. That would kill the small bit of respect I
get
around
there. You don’t think he would tell
him about our relationship, do you? I
can’t imagine that he would, but what if he did? I would never be able to look anyone in the face again – knowing
that they know what happens if I’m not a good little boy! Oh my god…
Do many people know about you and Vin?
You
might be right when you said I am fighting this so hard because it is really
the first big thing that Jim is really putting his foot down about. I mean, everything else I’ve gotten in
trouble for has been for doing something.
This, concentrating solely on
finals
and not doing anything else, is different; this is changing something that I
always do. I guess that’s what being in
a discipline relationship is all about.
I know you have told me this before and so has Jim, but it’s just sort
of now sinking in, Jim
has
the ultimate control over my actions, it’s not my choice anymore. But, you know
at the same time it’s sort of making sense to me, another part of me is yelling
for me not to let it, not let myself be controlled by someone else, no matter
who it is. I don’t
know,
I’m confused and scared and I don’t know what I should do.
I
should go, Jim's home and he's watching TV and curling up with him sounds
really good right now.
Thanks
for listening
B
From: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
To: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
June 2, 1999 08:47 PST
Hi
B
I
think Vin’s exact words were, “You better not be picking up any bad habits from
that American brat.” Don’t worry, he
said it in a very affectionate way.
That’s just him.
I
really don’t think you have to worry about Jim telling Simon about your
arrangement. Most people wouldn’t share
that with their boss. As for how many
people know about my type of relationship with Vin – outside of our normal
circle of contacts and most of them know, if not all, some. My banker is under strict order to let Vin
know if I overdraw on my account or don’t pay a bill. I don’t think anyone has come right out and told him, but when
Vin and I first got together we met with him and I think it was implied that I
would be ‘dealt’ with if that happened.
I am pretty sure our housekeeper knows and the guy who takes care of the
gardens. The guy who makes my suits I am sure knows, especially after Vin
basically dragged me out of the store about two years ago, and then took me
back 15 minutes later after we had a discussion of my behavior. I don’t know for sure, but the idea of a
young man needing and getting discipline, spankings, from his partner is not
out of the norm, I mean, I think they still use corporal punishment in
schools. But, in the States, it’s
different. Anyway, the whole point to
the above ramble is to say that I wouldn’t worry about it. LOL ;-) Plus, you have to look at it this way and
take the high road on the whole thing.
Your relationship with Jim is fulfilling a need you have. It is not for anyone else to judge or say
it’s bad. YOU
have
decided that you need for Jim to have some control over your life, you need a
clear set of rules with a clear set of consequences. Don’t be ashamed of that.
Hold your head up, don’t apologize and be proud that you have the
insight to recognize a need in yourself and the courage to go after it.
It
is perfectly normal to be scared. But,
I think deep in your heart, in your soul, you know you are doing the right
thing. This rule about finals is your
first big leap of faith, but you trust Jim enough to know that he is going to
be there, that he is only
looking
out for you and your health and the health of your relationship.
Smile
? it’s going to be ok.
Day
From: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
To: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
June 5, 1999 07:56 PST
Blair,
Forget
all the crap I said about how wonderful Vin is! He is a controlling jerk who is too strict, blows everything out
of proportion and won’t listen to reason!!
OK
– get this! I went out for a friend’s
birthday last night – it was a party and he was invited but did Lt. Col. Cade,
ret. Want to stoop low enough to mingle with my friends, shit no! He claimed he was tired and I know he
doesn’t really care for them. They are
very involved in the environment and sometimes they can take it a bit too far –
but you can NEVER tell him I said that! So, I wasn’t too surprised or upset
when he begged off. Not a problem. I told him I was going to be late! I mean, come on! It’s a birthday party!
Don’t you think the fact that it was a party for a friend should have
given me some leeway about my curfew?
He, Mr. Control Freak, wants me in by midnight unless I clear it with
him first. That’s usually not a
problem, but last night, I didn’t get home until 12:30 – actually, 12:33 –
according to the official timekeeper of my life. So, I get home and I am trying to be quiet so I don’t wake him up
since it is kind of late and ok, I knew I was way past curfew and I was hoping
that he wouldn’t notice ;-) Anyway, I
walk in and head up tiptoeing into our bedroom and he is awake and waiting for
me. NEVER a
good
sign. To make a long story slightly shorter, I ended up turned over his lap
while we had a long discussion about curfews and calling if I was going to be
late. Not a good scene – have you had the pleasure yet of discussing your
behavior with Jim
after
he has taken down your shorts and you are lying over his knees? When Vin does that, I know I am in deep
trouble. The reason I know exactly how
late I was is that I got 33 swats with my paddle – one for every minute. I think I would have gotten
off
lightly, but I made the mistake of commenting that it wasn’t very long and it
wasn’t much past my curfew. I swear,
Blair, I have been in this relationship for almost 9 years and I still
sometimes can't remember not to say things and to hold my tongue
when
I am in trouble.
I
hope you and your official keeper ;-)
are doing good. Gotten use to
the restriction about no work during finals?
Later, sitting for too long is not the most
comfortable ;-)
Day
From: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
To: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
June 5, 1999 11:13 PST
Hi
Day,
I
can sympathize, boy, can I sympathize.
The last few days have not really been the best in the ‘Blair keeping
out of trouble’ Department either. I
got my own butt spanked a couple of days ago for … well, I really don’t want to
tell you what for, since
I’m
sure you know. Then, Jim was really
cracking down the other night about going to bed and not staying up until all
hours working, that’s why I hadn’t answered your last e-mail. But, now I am totally free – at least for
the next couple of days. LOL
Jim
and Simon, our Captain, went on a fishing trip and I stayed home to grade. So,
I basically get to keep my own schedule for the next few days. This is so nice. The other night Jim made me go to bed and I wasn’t even
tired. How unfair is that? But
now,
he’s gone and I can get my work done.
Speaking of which, I need to run and finish. IF I get everything done, then I can go back to the station. With the crack down on my time that someone
;-) has, I want to get as much done will he’s gone as possible.
Later,
Blair
From: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
To: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
June 9, 1999 22:19 PST
OK
Day –
I’ll
see your control, anal, jerk of a lover and raise you mine! He is totally NOT listening to me. We are involved in a case right now with
this rapist. He strikes on the weekends
and rapes and beats these women who live by themselves – a real asshole if you
ask me. Well, I know who it is. I know who the rapist is and NO ONE is
listening to me! OK, so I’m use to
sometimes getting the brush off from the guys around here, but Jim is doing it,
too, and that’s what making me so MAD.
I swear, he is just blowing me off and is assuming that I am trying to
frame this guy because he gave me a ticket.
He’s a
motorcycle
cop and yes – he gave me a ticket, but I would never stoop so low as to try and
cause problems for someone just because of that! I mean, what kind of person does he think I am? I heard from a
friend of mine that she got a warning from this guy last week or so. I have to tell you, Day, I think she’s going
to be the next victim. I just know it and
Jim is NOT listening to me. I’m going
to spend the weekend with her and try to catch the guy. I bet he tries to break in and if he does I
will be there! I have to show him I’m
right and I do know what I’m doing.
I’ll let you know how the weekend goes.
Blair
From: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
To: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
June 10, 1999 02:34 PST
Blair!
Don’t
even think about following through with your plan, young man! Now see what you are making me do! I swear, you are turning me into Vin! Except he or Jim probably wouldn’t tell you
that, they would just turn you over and impress their opinion
of
this action on your butt! It’s
dangerous to do something like this by yourself and you HAVE to tell Jim what
you’re planning. What is going through
your head?? Are you so caught up in
proving Jim wrong that it’s worth your life or your health? I have to tell you, I can’t help but feel that this isn’t so
much about you being concerned about your friend, which I’m sure you are, but
it’s more about proving Jim wrong about this.
And – if he’s wrong about this, he might be wrong about other things,
like letting you work during finals?
You think that maybe that has something to do with it? I’m telling you to rethink this idea. In a
discipline relationship, my friend, you don’t jump foolishly into situations
just to prove your disciplinarian wrong.
Please tell me you’ve thought about this and decided not to do
this. I promise – this is not what you
want to be doing. It’s
stupid
and dangerous and the wrong way to handle your disagreement over your rules.
Day
From: Blair Sandburg (BJSandburg@home.net)
To: Damien St. Clair
(DaytheSaint@whiltshire.uk.com)
June 10, 1999 20:43 PST
Day,
You
worry too much. And this has NOTHING to
do with me wanting to prove Jim wrong or anything like that. This guy needs to be stopped.
I’ll
talk to you later.
B.
THE
END
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