| In Dedication and Memory To My Son Who Was Viciously Murdered By 25 Bullets, On September 28, 2001, In Bridgeport, CT. U.S.A. Zoli Was Only '24' Years Old. |
| I Love You Zolika: Yesterday, Today, Forever and Always. |
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| I was able to acquire these photographs, that my Son had had taken, at a Modelling Agency in New York City. |
| To My Darling One and Only Child Zolika! I loved you more, than you could possibly ever know. I loved you, before I even knew I was pregnant with you. My pregnancy was pure joy, because the weight that I had gained, could be blamed on my having to eat - for two. I enjoyed every minute. It will be '20' weeks tomorrow, since I received the devastating news, that I would never see your beautiful face again, never hear your voice, never see your smile. The animals that murdered you, and took you from us - forever, are still out there, but the net is tightening around them, and they will be caught, and prosecuted, to the full extent of the law. Your 'friends' who where with you, every day, as well as your girlfriend, know what happened that fateful night, and they all know, who murdered you. But they are all cowards, and will not come forward to assist the police with their investigation.Yet they all stand behind the word 'friend'. My vow to you my son, is that as long as I live, as long as I have breath in me, I will never stop, until these Bastards are caught, and the Maximum Penalty Under Law, is given to them, for they murdered 4 people that day, and my life, and that of your Grandparents, to whom you were everything, has been altered forever. They are out there, enjoying life, as if nothing has happened, but their days are numbered. I saw and held you close, at the Medical Examiner's Office. You looked like you were sleeping, so peaceful. You didn't know that we were there, you didn't know that we had come, you didn't know, that we needed to be with you. This pain is so gutwrenching, like my heart has been torn out. These animals took something, that was so very precious to me. The days are so very hard to endure, and the tears fall so very freely, for this loss, this pain, is so overwhelming. People say, I have to say goodbye. But how can I, I am not ready, and don't honestly think I ever will be. There was so much life in you, so much to say, so much left to do. You cannot be gone. I need you here, I need you now, I need you to come home. I keep thinking that you will telephone, that you will knock on the door, that you will come in and sit for a while. I watched your joy, as a little boy, when you discarded the Pampers - forever. I watched your joy, as you conquered the 3-steps, at your Grandparents place. I watched your joy, as the little squirrel in the park, came and ate out of your hand. I wanted to see my Son walk down the aisle, towards the woman that he loved. I wanted to see your Grandfather give you away. I wanted to see the joy on your face, at the imminent birth of your first child. I wanted to be given the opportunity to say 'See, I told you, you too would do anything to protect your child'. These animals took your hopes and dreams away. Alone, and all by yourself, you were able to open your own Chimney Cleaning Business, and you were to start this, the next day. I don't know if there is a Heaven, but if there is, I hope that that is where you have flown. Where there is no evil, no jealousy, no hatred, just love and peace. This is my wish for you, to be in a place like this, and I hope that there are Chimney's there, that you can clean. But you have to promise me to be very, very careful. A place where the sun always shines, where there is warmth. I miss you so very, very much. I need you, like I never needed anyone before, I need you to be safe, I need you to come and put your arms around me, and tell me everything will be all right. I need you to live. I need you to tell me, that a mistake has been made, that you are alive, that you are really okay. Forever and Always: For My Butterfly - Fly Now Zoli - Forever Anyu (Mom) 02/2002 |
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