Never did I dream that I would be the mother of 4 with 3 in Heaven. But I am as of January 16, 2002. I am the proud mother of 3 tiny babies safe in the arms of Jesus!
If you haven't already read the stories of Nicholas and Ellery....please do. They are very special people in my heart, and I cannot wait to meet them.
This story begins in December of 2001. I had a feeling in my heart that we were pregnant again...for the 4th time! And sure enough, the pregnancy test was positive. WOW! I was a little nervous because of the tragedy with our last pregnancy....but the thought of miscarriage was the furthest thing from my mind.
Tuesday January 15th was a normal day until that evening. I started spotting, and was instantly scared. I called my doctor and he tried to reasure me that it was sometimes normal and not to be too concerned. I saw him the next morning for an ultrasound. There was my little baby....heartbeat and all. I was so releived! I was able to get pictures of my little baby, a very special treasure. That evening, the spotting got worse and I began cramping. I tried so hard to pass it off. I saw my doctor again Thursday morning for a second ultrasound...........nothing. Not even a little baby without a heartbeat. This baby was gone too.
I was devastated. My husband was too. And once again I had to explain to my daughter that this baby was with Jesus just like Ellery and Nicholas. And she responded, " with Noah too."
This loss cannot in anyway compare in my heart to the loss of Nicholas. But this baby was real to me and our family. He will always be considered my child.
I have chosen the name Parker for this precious baby that was inside of me for 7 short weeks. The ultrasound pictures show the tiny body and a white halo that seems to resemble the letter P, so I chose Parker. I was also hoping that this would be a boy. |
