Until You 9

The atmosphere was grim and still as Kunzite’s eyes narrowed, looking at Nephrite. Nephrite looked back defiantly into Kunzite’s silver-gray eyes. Kunzite’s mind was whirling and twisting with dozens of unanswered question. Obviously something serious had happened between Nephrite and Ian after he and the other guardians excluding Jupiter had burned to death. He wanted to know what and he would be damned if he let Nephrite hid those things from him.

“Well, are you going to stare at me forever?” Nephrite said gravely, after taking off his coat and threw it to an armchair that situated closed to him. Kunzite said nothing and he waited until Nephrite took a seat and he sat across him.

“I want to know what had really happened between you and Ian in our past life.” Kunzite began. “I saw the hatred in you eyes and the anger that tightened your jaw and I realized that something had ran deep between you and Ian. A vengeance. Though I don’t whether you wanted that revenge or Ian.” There was an unmistakable authority in Kunzite’s leader tone. Nephrite grew tense because he knew that it would be useless to ignore this tone. He had been trained as one of Prince Endymion-in past life and this life-and ignoring his leader’s order, even if it meant sacrificing his life, was completely forbidden.

“I’d rather not talking nor hear that bastard’s name,” Nephrite bit out. Kunzite’s eyes narrowed. He was right. Nephrite had never shown so much hatred that if Kunzite didn’t know him for more than two milleniums, he would wisely keep quiet. But, he also knew that he could never let Nephrite hide those things because he feared the safety of their prince would be jeopardized.

“Then, I ordered you to tell me, in the name of Earth,” Kunzite hated when he had to say that. Nephrite was his friends and when he had to say that, it made his felt so formal and so selfishly cold but Nephrite was so damn stubborn with an unyielding pride. Kunzite’s words instantly made Nephrite’s blue eyes hardened into shards of ice and Kunzite fought back the urge to stand up and let out another cold order. Instead, Kunzite stared back defiantly.

Nephrite tore the ominous look and leaned his head back against the sofa. Slowly, he let out a tired and long sigh, as if he was sick of everything. “Remember when you was being burned to death?”

Kunzite was relieved that Nephrite seemed willing to tell him. He could never forget the feeling of fire burned his skin as he covered Venus. “I can see that you do remember it.” Nephrite’s remarks brought Kunzite back to reality.

“No one can forget the scene of fire leaping all around you with the sound of your precious beloved cried with pain,” Kunzite said bluntly. Nephrite just shrugged and continued his story.

“Well, I followed your order to get to the Queen Serenity and guarded her safety. But, when Jupiter and I arrived, Queen Metallia was already there together with Ian.” Nephrite’s eyes darkened when he mentioned that name but he continued his story anyway. He told his leader every detail that he recalled clearly, every detail that had made his hatred to Ian undeniably strong until today – the deceive way Ian had killed him.

“So you know why I can’t abide the look of Ian. I despise him-“ Nephrite’s voice turned chill and cold that Kunzite couldn’t even recognize the man in front of him. “I loathe him more than you can ever imagine…” Nephrite stood up, never taking off his ominous stare from Kunzite. “And if I ever saw him again, I swear I’ll make him regret that he ever touch Jupiter!” With that, Nephrite snatched his coat and slammed the thick door behind him, leaving Kunzite stunned.

“God…” Kunzite breathed.

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Lita sat in front of oval mirror that was hanging in her bedroom. She slowly touched her full lips, remembering the vicious way Ian had kissed her. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t forget that scene and that made her more and more guilty. She knew that she had promised to trust Nephrite wholehearted but she also was aware how deep his hatred to Ian. By telling Nephrite that incident, she knew that would drive Nephrite wild with rage and she didn’t plan to see how frightening that side of Nephrite.

Slowly summoning her Emerald Crystal, Lita watched the green stone shone brilliantly. Somehow, instead of being afraid of its power to destroy, she felt comforted each time she hold the precious gem closed to her heart, as if her mother, Queen Clara, was there to support her. Lita wished that she could just make Ian stood in front of her and she released the power of destruction that Emerald Crystal possessed to kill Ian. She couldn’t. Lita knew that how dangerous it could be to use Emerald Crystal’s power without enough practice. She didn’t want Earth to end up like Jupiter Planet.

Guilty continued to gnaw her heart. She had kept the news of her illness and he had found in a worst way; Ian told him. She didn’t want Ian to tell Nephrite about the kiss in the most heart wrenching way. Telling him face to face was the only way to spare Nephrite’s heart and dignity. The fear of his rage was something she had to push aside. She loved Nephrite so much to hurt his feeling again.

Walking away from the mirror, Lita sighed. Life was getting too complicated for her to cope what was happening. First, her life was turning upside down with her uncertain feeling to Nephrite at that time. Then the appearance of her former master had shook her world beyond belief. Now Ian and that brain tumor came to destroy her almost perfect life.

“Damn you, Ian…” Lita whispered brokenly. “Why can’t you leave Nephrite and me alone? Why must you appear?”

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The night air was cold as Nephrite waited for Lita because she had asked him to. He easily agreed because he hadn’t the chance to spend the time with Lita and he was actually looking forward to meet her. Suddenly, he heard the rustling sound behind him and there she was, looking so elegant with her snow-colored satin dress that hung below her knee that made Nephrite wondered how could Lita born as a slave when she looked as elegant and aloof as princess.

“Hi.” Lita’s said softly as a smile decorated her exquisite face. Nephrite could spend hours just look at her genteel feature.

“Hey,” Nephrite wrapped his muscular arms around her slender waist, feeling, memorizing her every elegant curve. Lita tipped her head up, watching lovingly his handsome face, suddenly longing to be kissed thoroughly by him.

As if he could read her mind, Nephrite lowered his head to feel the softness of her flesh. He lost his control when her lips softened beneath his gentle assault and her hands ran upward from his hard chest, to his neck and held them firmly at his jaw, encouraging him. Both them were lost in their own universe where nothing else matters, where there was no such person such as Ian, where there was no such illness such as brain tumor. There were only Nephrite and Lita and they were holding each other as if no things in this universe could tear them apart.

It seemed an eternity when Nephrite finally allowed himself to release Lita’s lips. Her breath was ragged, her lips flushed, her cheeks glowed and her eyes was closed as her head leaned at the hollow of his neck. “I miss you.” The whisper was so seductive that Nephrite carefully kept his desire in check but failed. He never wanted a woman more than he wanted Lita and he wanted to kiss her all night long until he forget the existent of Ian or her illness. He wanted to absorb her sweetness and love until he ached for it.

“Is that so?” Nephrite traced the hollow of her ear as he murmured the words. Lita shivered slightly as his hot breath touched her sensitive ear and she held him closer. “Have you missed that much?” Nephrite persuaded gently as he continued his task to make her feel the desire that he was feeling right now.

“More than you could ever feel for me.”

Her words were like magic to him. He kissed her gently and tenderly, then her sweet ardor drove him out of control and he began to kiss her fiercely. He had never felt like this whenever he kissed a woman. He felt so complete and happy and also scared that he would lose her.

Lita was absolutely dazed with his powerful need for her. She was floating and drowning in the waves of desire and love. As his love surrounding her and she was lost in his world, a scene where Ian kissed her and the way she willingly accept his kisses suddenly sprang into her mind. Lita abruptly pushed herself away from Nephrite and felt too guilty to even looked at him.

“Lita?” A question. Not yet an accusation but enough to make her stiff and moved backward. “What’s wrong?”

Lita looked at his face; her heart ached painfully as guilt and love hammered. Her mouth moved slowly but the words kept hovering and never are spoken. She loved him but instead of making him happy, she kept hurting him and her love grew unstoppably because he never hated her for the things that she had done. “I’m sorry…” Her voices were very sorrowful and anguish which brought Nephrite’s brows close in confusion. No knowing what to do, he wrapped his arms around Lita, trying to comfort her.

His loving gesture made Lita guiltier that she violently pushed him away. “Don’t touch me! I’m not worth for your touching!” Lita was very close to tears that she had turned away to hide how her words hurt her. Touch me, please… Forget what I’m saying and just touch me. Her heart cried out and silently begged despite what her mouth said.

“What in the world are you talking about?” Nephrite grasped Lita’s arms, shaking her. Lita’s head snapped to meet his searching gaze. “I…I have to say something,” Lita said softly.

“What?” Nephrite’s curiosity rose.

“I…I told you about last night incident, remember?” Lita spoke hastily. “The one where Ian…”

“I remember it!” Nephrite snapped. Inside his heart was twisting in agony because he knew whatever happened last was more than a visit. He didn’t want to know.

“He grabbed my shoulders and he…he kissed me.” Her confession was no more than a whisper. “But…that’s…that’s not what make me feel guilty…”

Nephrite turned his back from Lita, not knowing whether he was angry with Lita or Ian. “Let’s me guess,” he said acidly. “You let him kiss you.” There was an accusation. The thing that Lita had been feared of ever since she had made the decision to confess.

“I…I don’t what come over me…It happened so fast…” Lita didn’t aware that she was begging him. Begging him to understand; at least to listen to her but Nephrite was so still and reluctant to face her back.

He was fighting her, trying to shut her out. She didn’t blame him. It was all her fault. She used to be angry and unbearably jealous when Nephrite had a relationship with Vanessa that she was accusing him with every foul name that she had ever learn for the past two decades of her life. Now, she knew that Nephrite’s anger was deeper than the jealousy she had felt because she was kissing with Ian. His very worst enemy. The one that was responsible for the destruction of two kingdoms, the one that was responsible for his cheat death and the one that had separated both of them in first place.

Lita was beginning to wonder whether she was making a mistake when she decided to be completely honest with him. He asked her to trust him with all her heart and she had trusted him to be considerably reasonable when she confessed. But no matter how hard she told herself that the whole things wasn’t entirely her fault, but she knew that even she would be furious. She was willingly kissed Nephrite worst enemy, Ian. Nephrite must have no pride at all if he wasn’t angry and unfortunately Nephrite had a great deal of pride.

“I…I wanted to be…to be honest with you,” Lita tried again, hoping to get some reaction from him and she succeeded.

Nephrite whirled around, his long wavy brown hair that he had tied neatly was now loosened and the angry wind blew his hair. His blue eyes were icy and hard as ever that Lita unconsciously stepped backward in fear and bewildered. Never in her life had she saw that kind of hatred. This wasn’t loving and teasing Nephrite she knew. “Honest?!” Nephrite hissed. “What does honesty means to you, Lita?! Does kissing that bastard mean honest?!”

“What do you expect?!” Lita burst out. Her voice was shaking with fury and fear. “What would you do, when someone that was responsible for your past life’s destruction, appeared suddenly, telling you with such a determine that he’ll never let you go and kissed you?!” Nephrite’s eyes were softened a little but Lita was too angry and too upset to notice the change in his eyes.

“What do you expect?!” Lita brushed furiously the tears that finally dampened her cheeks. “You just woke up and there was he, looking you with the same icy eyes when you last saw him for almost milleniums?!”

“Lita…come here.” Nephrite whispered softly. His heart was softened by the courage that she was unaware had spoken. The sweetness and bravado she had shown to confront him humbled him. She was right.

“I’m not finish, damn it” Lita cried, no longer caring to brush away the tear that had fall unstoppably. “Go damn it! Go ahead and accuse me about my stupidity on honesty!”

Nephrite moved and crushed Lita to his chest. Her cries tore his heart. “Stop it, Lita!”

Lita knew that she had won, but she was afraid to stop. “Please…” Lita said brokenly. “You said I can trust you…tell you everything…confide in you…”

“I’m wrong, please stop darling.” Nephrite tightened his embrace, his heart was soared in pride by her courage to face everything.

“You…you were so scary that I don’t even know you anymore…” Lita couldn’t stop the tears, couldn’t stop the sobbing, couldn’t stop loving him.

“I’ll never do that again…Please darling, don’t cry anymore.”

Lita slowly raised her tear-streaked face, her wet emerald eyes searched his remorse ones. “You…you won’t?” Nephrite shook his head, admiring how beautiful she look with all the tears on her face.

“I’ll never make you cry and scare again…” He whispered against her lips, desperate to take away the pain he had caused by his lips. Her response came as instant as he touched her lips. Again, Nephrite felt humble by her sweetness and how easy she was to forgive him.

* * * * * *

“Damn it! Damn you to hell, Nephrite!” raged Ian. He had tried to separate both of them in a gentle way, but the bond between them was too strong. He didn’t want to hurt Lita unnecessarily.

Now, he had to change his tactic. In order to make Jupiter his, he had to do anything by anyway. Even it means to make Lita suffered in head…

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