1. Done
'Shut up.'
'Vegeta?'
'Don't you ever get it through your skull? Shut up!'
Don't say that. Please don't say things like that.
I grab his shoulders and make him turn around, preventing him from walking away. His eyes. They are so cold. What is this about? Why is he acting like this? I don't understand. He only raises an eyebrow. He must see the pain in my eyes.
'Why are you doing this? Why are you acting like this?'
He laughs. Not a chuckle, not a simple grin, but an evil cackle. It hurts my ears. Its such a cruel sound. Why is he torturing me like this. He has his eyes closed, like he is enjoying this. And I bet he does enjoy seeing me like this. He never changed after all. Fear clutches my heart, the cold feeling freezing me from the inside as it flows through my body. I have to know.
I pull him closer and violently press my lips on his. It startles him and he opens his mouth in confusion. Oportunity, use it. So I thrust my tingue inside his mouth and fight him as he automatically tries to dominate me. Not this time. I'll show him a kiss that will blow his mind away. It does blow mine away. His taste, that fire in this kiss, the fight over eachother. It's who we are, just like this. The one who wants to dominate and the one who can lose himself in something. And hell, I'm losing myself in him.
I don't really want to, but I need answers. True answers from his soul, and I can only see that in his eyes. I break the kiss and stare into his eyes. They are pitch black and burning. Was that from my kiss? Did I startle him that much? Can we now finally go on and forget all he said?
'Feh.'
Thats all he says. Thats all. He smirks at me. I find another emotion in his eyes. Pity. Pity?
'Baka.'
He turns around and chuckles.
'Unbelievable. How dense can you be?'
Vegeta..
'Get the fuck out of my face.'
'Why?'
He turns around once more and traces down my cheeks with his index finger. The smirk on his face is still there. He stands on his toes so his face right on my level. I bet the confusion and pain is shining in my eyes. I can't hide it anymore. I don't want to either. He must see what he is doing to me, such cruel torture, it sint right. Not even from him, who I thought to be my friend, my lover, my everything now.
How can you be like this. Why didn't my kiss affect you at all? It did the first time I kissed you. The first time I actually had decided for myself I would devote myself to someone who I could level with. You were the only one I could do that with. You were so much like me. Saiyan, maybe that was why I felt we suited eachother. You understood battle, you understood the instincts that overwhelmed me sometimes and helped me explain them and open my arms to some. That first time restraining my power when my tail was back and so was the moon. I'll never forget the hypnotising flow of primal energy flowing through me that night. And that you were there, going through the same, your body pale in the moonlight but your eyes burning by the radiance. That was first time I could see you like you were, a prince indeed, graceful and beautiful. I must have fallen in love with you that night, but it was actually you that brought it to the surface. Not so long ago..
'Because it was fun while it lasted. You've becoming boring so to put it bluntly, you're history. I'm going to find another interesting toy to play with.'
My mind stops working, my blood freezes in my veins. Over. It's over. I'm ditched like a used toy, like the wrapping of a gift. Something worthless, something useless. I'm not more than an empty bottle to him, he who drained me and made me believe he loved me. And I loved him, or so I thought. But the pain in my chest, burning more than any wound that bruised my body in any battle. I never believed that something like words could hurt so much.
Wasnt it special what we had? Wasnt it worth all the pain of waiting and seeing eachother and unable to anything? My confusion and your pride had been torturing us both for years untill you finally took that crucial first step. Was it really? I thought I finally had you when you kissed me. It was a release to me, not knowing what these feeling were all that time. But it wasnt like that to you. Why did I fool myself into thinking you felt the same. That pretty face fooled me. But why?
Why did you chose me then? Me of all people! Did you know you could fool me? Probably. I was the one you hated so much. You couldnt stand to be near me for years, you couldnt stand my innocence. You couldnt stand the way I was. And yet you hunted me, captured me and rip me apart from head to toe. Maybe that is why. I was the ultimate person to fake love with. Stupid as I am, you knew you could hurt me. I see. Thats why. You could never defeat me. But now. Now I'm just a prize, a trophy, something you finally obtained. I was so stupid! Off course you never loved me! It was just another way to overpower me.
~Why did I have to go and meet somebody like you?
Why did you have to go and hunt somebody like me?
How could you something like that?
But you know that I'm never coming back.~
Well, I'm not letting you get away that easily. You see, I do love you, just the way you are. And that cruel face can't stop me from doing so. Never. And so for the first time I actually smirk, a saiyan smirk like you have. If you don't feel it now, you must be as stupid as everyone believes me to be. Because I am going to fight back and you'll know it. You'll know what you caused when I am no longer there for you. It's lonely at the top and you will be alone. You will.
'Baka. That grin just proves how stupid you are. You don't get it at all.'
'Oh yes I do.'
I touch his lips with my fingers. Now he is confused, I can clearly see it.
'Goodbye.'
I simply say just that and put the fingers I had on his lips to my forehead and istant transmission myself over to King Kai's. How much he could resist me in the beginning, I know him, I know how he feels sometimes. And the confusion I feel on the way, is so strong that I didn't need even the weakest of link between us to figure that out.
King Kai looks at me with wonder. I'll just stay here untill he breaks. And I will not break either. This is training. I will train my mind as well as my body. And you'll see I have pride too. This isnt over yet, my pretty prince. Not yet.
~Depending on you is done
Giving to you is done
No more reason, no sleeping, no living
Its all just more giving to you when I'm done
The hiding from you is done
The lying to you is done
No more eating, no more sleeping
No more living till I'm done.~