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Warning: lemon or lime, take your pick, and angst (yes, I'm not finished with these guys yet)
By: Me!! Lesley or red Vegeta, whatever you like best
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A thousand years
'Kakarot?'
Vegeta gave out a large snarl upon seeing an almost naked Goku with his son standing in the doorway. At first he had looked surprised at his former mate and his almost naked son too, but soon he dismissed that throught, figuring they just went sleeping and they had woken them up. Goku looked just as deliciously as the day he first knew he had fallen for him. oh yes, delicious indeed, a pale moon shining on velvet like skin, powerfull muscles, large black eyes one could drown in and the most beautifull face he had ever seen. Drawing in the larger saiyans scent he knew he had made such a painfull mistake by sleeping with Goten. He almost lunged himself in Goku's arms, but decided to keep his royal dignity and look harsh. He would do anyway, cause Goten was standing next to him. they had gotten in a fight, breaking up and breaking Goten. Why did that damn kid had to be here too? He wanted to talk to Goku alone, in private, apologize. But to make matters worse, Goten looked like a bawling kid, who's candy was taken away from him. Like it was Vegeta's fault. Great. Now he'd probably get hurled out of the house by the three of them. Thinking up many reasons as defense he didn't notice the baffled look on Trunks and Goku's face
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Trunks and Goku looked at eachother and instantly knew what the other was thinking. ~this was not good..~ they both had just started some nice lemony actions when they were roughly disturbed by the two intruders. It had been utter bliss for both of them to love again, to kiss and to.. Both their harts froze when they realised what Goten and Vegeta came for, probably. They looked at eachother again, seeing the pain and disturbance in their eyes. They nodded and decided that now was the time for their former mates. Fr as it seemed something bad had happened and they needed love again, or at least a friend who was willing to listen. For both Trunks and Goten, it had hit their harts seeing their mates shattered, even though Vegeta seemed to suppress it heavuly. Still, Goku could see it, no wonder after 15 years together. he could read every inch of thought the prince made.
With a sigh they fastened their pants again and Goku made his way over to Vegeta, looking at him with a what do you want glare, deliberately. He still was mad and Vegeta and he was sure going to make that clear to him, but as he moved closer he could see regret and pain shine behind thick layers of masks. But he wasn't going to give in that easily to the prince, no the smaller man had to work for it this time.
'I want to talk to you.'
Goku walked past Vegeta out of the house. Not feeling comfortable with barked order Goku gave him, Vegeta turned on his heels and walked after him, glaring at Goten in doing so. When they got out of hearing range of the other two, Goku thought it was good that Trunks and Goten talked too in private. Wishing Trunks luck with this difficult task, he turned to look at Vegeta.
'Listen Vegeta..' Goku began, but was cut off when the prince opened his mouth to say something first.
'No. I want to say something first.'
'Fine then. Talk.'
'I. . well I dont know where to start..'
'Maybe some explaining would be good. I'd love to hear what you have to say.' Goku said with a tone of anger in his voice. Vegeta knew this wasn't going to get easy. Especially because he hated to explain, let alone ask Goku to take him back.
'I thought you ignored me all the time. Taking everything for granted. I snapped you know.. I thought what am I doing with this guy, he never pays attention to me, ever. Only thinking with his stomach. I thought I was special to you.'
'You were special to me.' That use of past tense made Vegeta shiver.
'And then Goten came by one day, bored too. And I don't know what happened then.. it just happened!'
'Were you drugged or something? Especially you know all the time what is happening!'
'Yes I know, but..'
'Dont you dare come talk to me with buts!! Have you got any idea in that skull of yours of what you did to me? Do you have any idea what its like to see your life long mate, screwing your sons ass of? Dammit Vegeta!'
'I know, but you neglected me! I was just a prop to you!'
'No you werent! Never were to me too! How could get that stupid idea? And then, cheating on me! With my own son for christ sake! Don't you ever think about someone else? Come to think of it, if I was neglecting you, it should be me cheating on you!'
'Well maybe you should have done just that!'
'No! And you know why? Because I think of you. All the time! No one is so cruel to cheat on somebody, especially not in this way!'
Vegeta let his head hang down, looking to the ground.
'Why did you that to me Vegeta! Why? I never did anything wrong! Never! And still you punish, no you like to torture me in such a way that it is so cruel!!' Goku continued his raging torrent of words, boiling his blood in anger as all what he had felt came raging back to him. and Vegeta's ingorance for the matter made it only worse. Did Vegeta really think he is to blame?
In the meantime, Vegeta began to understand what pain he had inflicted in his mate by being so.. so completely stupid! He felt so incredibly stupid for his actions now and it was hurting his pride. He was supposed to be wise and a good prince knowing what to do and what not. How could he ever think of being such an ass, a bitch, a low class user. It hurt his pride ~no one is that cruel~ echoed in his mind. He was. He had been so cruel. Hurt by himself in the deepest part of his soul, he started to sob quietly.
'Tell me one good reason for doing that and I'll be gone from your life forever. Oh no, no, I'm already gone out of your life because you cut off my legs and still kicked me out the door! I wont bother you anymore, continue your games and fuck everyones ass of and have a great time! I wont stop you! Don't worry about me, I'm just a low-class monkey. I'll shrivl up and die somewhere. But why m I saying that? You wouldn't even care less if I did now do you!!' Goku screamed at Vegeta, raging mad. Upon saying so he turned his back.
'Give me one good reason that I'm not wrong and you wont see me again. Ever!!'
'I'm sorry..' ~what?~ Goku turned around a bit, looking at the prince who was trembling. ~Did he really say that I thought he said?~
'I'm sorry..' ~Vegeta..~ Goku noticed the spots of wet soil beneath Vegeta's face. Vegeta fell to his knees and looked up to Goku. His cheeks were wet and red from the tears that had begun spilling down his face and to the ground.
'Oh god, I'm so sorry.. I regret it so much. What I have done is unforgivable. I feel so stupid for ruining what I had with you.. tonight I found out what I had lost. And it was so much, so incredible much. I dont know what to say to make it up to you and I know I never can find the words to talk this straight… i… I was…so stupid..so ignorant… please..I'm so sorry..' Vegeta choked in his tears. ~Please! Kami! Give me enough strenght to tell him that.. that I need him..i have been such an asshole and I dont want to lose what I had again..please help me..~
'Vegeta, I. .' seeing the pride break in the smaller man, making him so human. It was hard enough for him to admit his mistakes to anyone, even Goku. But he confessed it, confessing how he had been and most of all, he was sorry. It radiated out of his red, tear stained eyes. He pleaded Goku for mercy, to forgive him for all he had done to him.
'I… don't know how.. many times I have to say sorry but if I have to say it for a thousand years, just to get you back to me for one second I would do it! Please forgive me Goku.. Please..'
Vegeta turned his face down again, afraid to hear the answer. He waited for Goku to render him unconscious, leaving him behind. He waited for another raging tirade that he deserved so much. Trembling, crying, never heard Goku's feet pad towards him. Burying his face in his hands to cover his stained skin and burning tears he felt them being pulled away ever so gently. Before he knew it, Goku had locked his lips to his, softly licking away the tears. The prince had broken himself, giving the ultimate thing for a man like him. He had left his pride getting it shattered like glass, the shreds wounding his soul and expected to be laughed at his pathetic behaviour. Instead Goku had kissed him and was washing away his tears
Vegeta broke away of the gentle, precious kiss and looked at the face before him. Goku looked at him, straight in his eyes, going straight to his very soul. Goku said nothing, but just looked at him, untill he finally closed his eyes, leaning in to kiss Vegeta once more. Vegeta felt the touch of Goku's soft lips on his own and he felt a huge burden fall away with the sensation. He opened his mouth a little, welcoming Goku inside. How he had wanted this. Tears began streaming down his face in utter relief and astonishment. He grabbed gku by the hair and pulled him closer, pouring all the passion in this kiss that he could find. Goku savoured Vegeta, tasting him, teasing him, assuring him it was okay. Upon feeling Vegeta pouring all his craving in the kiss he had loved every second of it. Sealing it in his memory, he held Vegeta tight, clenching the dark blue shirt Vegeta was wearing. Finally. It was over.
In the meanwhile, Goten and Trunks stood silent in the small house. Goten was looking to the ground, afarid at look at Trunks. Trunks looked at Goten, staring almost. He couldn't believe that Goten would run back to him, not after how he had broken their love. But now he was standing there, looking to the ground, tears slowly falling on the ground. He seemed to be afraid of Trunks, afraid of what he would see in the boy's face. Instantly Trunks felt raging anger inside, off course he would be afraid. He'd better be afraid, very afraid too. No one does such a terrible thing to a lover, especially not someone like Trunks. He remembered how Goten had used him like trash, taking him with lust, using him as a sweet toy and when he had lost all pleasure in it? He just took someone else. Trunks almost turned supersaiyan out of sheer anger, but mellowed when he saw Goten look up slightly, humble and beaten.
'Trunks..' Goten spoke in a trembling voice, almost too soft to hear for Trunks.
'Before you say anything I want to say something first. After that you can do whatever you want and I won't stand in your way.' Goten looked up to see Trunks face, wondering about his reaction. Trunks still gazed at him without any expression now. Then he crossed his arms. He sniffed and in he looked straight at Goten, his whole being demanding explanation. It had better be a damn good explanation.
'For one thing I want to say that I was bored and I thought you only lived for your work and not for me. Now I know that it isn't good to cheat on you just because of that. Vegeta came to me one day and we talked about our problems. He too was feeling neglected. At first, I doubted that but then he came close to me. He smelled so good! I still don't know what was with him but suddenly we were kissing, making love and it had felt like the end.. After that I came again and again, just wanting to make love and sometims to simply screw my ass off. It felt so good to have him, the prince of all saiyans! Then I guess I tripped over that. I was so ignorant and stupid! It felt like I could take on the world! When he stopped coming by that much and began his work again, I felt lonely again. He only stopped by to fuck me silly, just to fall asleep after that. I went out, partied my ass off, kissed so many guys I cant even remember. It was as if I had been drugged and it got me addicted to all of that attention. I regret it now. I bought expensive clothes on his costs and simply wanted to have any guys I wanted too. Then something just snapped inside of me when tonight a guy almost tried to rape me. And Vegeta found out all of that too. I felt so bad. I have done so much wrong Trunks! I'll never be able to forgive myself, not for my entire life! How could I have been so stupid to throw you away just like that. I missed you a lot. Maybe you never here for me, but when you were around me, it did feel like you loved me. That you wanted to keep me forever. I see that now and I can only beat myself up for not seeing that. How can I make up for all of this? What did I think?' Goten's tears started streaming down his face now. He searched for any answers in Trunks eyes, but the boy only stood silent, gazing at him. Goten fell to the floor, trembling on his knees, hands beside him on the ground, tears formong small wet patches on the dust.
'If.. if only I wasn't so blind with lust I could have seen what I did. But I acted as if nothing mattered to me. I guess I was just angry. I know I cant talk straight what I have crushed now. I wish I could.. I miss you Trunks.. I miss your embrace when I was already asleep, I miss your voice around me in the house. I miss the smell of your skin against mine. I .. I. .'
'Shh…'
Trunks sank to his knees, taking the shaking Goten in his arms, resting on hand on top of Gotens hand, stroking it.
'Its alright.. its okay..'
Goten only sobbed more when hearing Trunks soft voice telling him to relax, that it was alright. Goten almost choked in his own tears. How could Trunks still be so sweet to him after all he had done to him?
'I never stopped loving you Goten. Its okay, you just made a mistake, thats all…'
Just a mistake? Goten looked up to look at Trunks' face. Trunks was smiling at him, a soft soothing smile, a smile still so strong it burnt every mistake into his soul, sealing it far away. Goten could only grab Trunks in a franctic attempt to hold him forever. Trunks was here now, holding him and telling everything was okay, as if he had forgiven him.
'Trunks.. why are you so nice to me? After all I have done to you? How I have hurt you?'
'You got carried away with a pretty gift and used it too much. You simply made a mistake, a very very stupid one at that, but still a mistake. Its okay now, you feel sorry for what you did now do you.'
'My god so much!'
'Thats the only thing that matters now.. learn from that.'
'Trunks…'
'Or else I'll fry your ass and feed it to Goku okay?'
Goten chuckled.
'Thats a deal. Thank you..'
Trunks patted Gotens head and wiped away the salty tears, leaving behind small trails on his face. then he leaned forward, licking the trails, ending up at Gotens lips, where he took them in a soft, relishing kiss.
At that moment Trunks could feel Goku's ki flare up and burn down again. It seemed that he and Vegeta were talking about their destroyed love as well. Trunks sighed, now what. He felt happy to have Goten graveling at his feet and to simply hold and kiss him again. But he had felt so much for Goku too, even tho it had just happened that morning. He had enjoyed that kiss to the fullest extend and spent the day only graving for more. When that finally happened the prince and Goten choose that moment to drop in. Now, hardly 20 minutes later, he sensed Goku's soul come to peace too. In 20 minutes they had enjoyed eachothers new love and were now back to their former mates. Confused Trunks looked at Goten we was falling asleep rapidly. He took him to the bedroom, laying him down on the fumbled bed. ~Hn.. that smell of Goku still lingers here..~ He took a deep breath, taking in that mascular scent and he almost felt getting excited again at the thought what they would have been doing here, shouldn't Vegeta and Goten have shattered the moment. Before lying down next to Goten, he looked out of the window, seeing the back of his father and Goku's hands stroking it. he send a mental image to Goku, telling him he was fine and that Goten was sleeping here. Goku looked up at receiving the message, in confusion he stared at the lavender haired young man. Trunks looked away, feeling happy for them to be together again but also pain, because they never had the chance to develop a love that had felt so pure. Trunks closed the window and laid next to Goten, putting an arm around his waist and after a few second he too dozed off in a blank dream.
Goku had felt the confusion too. He was also torn apart between his long loved mate and now this crisp young one. ~no, not yet Trunks, it is too soon. We'll see what happens now first. They need us.~ He had felt the agonizing pain the young man had sent to him. He picked up Vegeta in his arms, cradling the prince like a young child. ~Yes, he needs my attention now.~ He went into the house again, hardly noticing how exhausted the man in his arms was. When he heard a small, soft snore come from him, he smiled a little. It felt good to have Vegeta with him again. He laid the prince down in another room, spreading an old blanket over the small man. He himself wandered outside again, in deep thought. He stayed outside, sitting on the old couch, thinking all night.
The next day they picked up their stuff and flew over to their houses, settling down again. It was strange at first for Trunks and Goku, but they got used to living with their mates again, eventually.
After those strange week full of turmoil some things hadn't quite settled yet. Goku still found himself thinking of Trunks again once in a while. Vegeta sometimes found him in deep thought while they were sparring or simply watching movies. He even left his food sometimes for what it was and wandered off again. Vegeta didn't understand what was bothering his lover now, he thought that everything was fine and dandy again. He decided to keep an eye on Goku to find out what was wrong with him. Very not like Goku he had tried to ask what was wrong and only found himself talking to a blanc page. Goku didn't want to talk about it and that was what worried Vegeta even more. Goku always wanted to talk things out and he had accepted it in his renewed relationship. But suddenly Goku was the one who never seemed to be willing to talk about things.
Goten had imilair problems with Trunks too. The youth wandered off, sleeping and daydreaming a lot.
After a few weeks Trunks suddenly decided he wanted to see his father and Goku again. Goten was at first not ready for the confrontation with the prince and his dad but he finally gave in, thinking it would be good to get together again and forget about what had happened. So Trunks called Vegeta, asking if it was alright that they would come over for a weekend and have fun. Vegeta agreed and soon bags were packed and the two flew over to Vegeta's house, thinking about games, movies and doing lazy things.
When they got there, they were welcomed by Vegeta and Goku standing on the front balcony, looking out for them. The reception when kind of harsh but at dinner that night in one of the fanciest restaurant they agreed upon forgetting everything and go on with their lives. From that point on, things were doing great. Goku started talking again, Trunks seemed to have his mind to what happened again and Vegeta and Goten settled their fight once and for all.
Days into the fancy weekend, they all sat together around the large pool in the back garden.
'Hey Vegeta! Bet you can't swim as fast as I can!' Goten shouted over to the prince, daring him for a competition.
'Well I guess I have to show you who is the fastest swimmer in the universe brat!' Vegeta moved to the side of the pool, ready to dive in.
'I'll have to see about that!' Goten said, splashing a large amount of water on the sun heated prince. Vegeta shrieked in horror of the cold water, in doing so causing loud laughter from behind him and from the pool.
'Why you little stinky ant! I'll show you! Get here!'
'Oh no…! Gotta catch me first!' Goten swam away from the rim, allowing Vegeta to dive in, swimming and laughing behind him.
'Gotta catch them, gotta catch them all!' Goten sang tone deaf, only making Vegeta more angry to catch him. That annoying show was on all day long..
Trunks and Goku stayed on the grass, letting the fresh summer sun tan their skins.
'Hey! Do you want something to drink? I'm thirsty as hell..' Goku jumped to his feet, not wanting to wait any longer for that ice cold drink just waiting for him in the fridge.
'Yeah, I'd love too!'
'Alright then! I'll be right back.'
Trunks watched Goku walk away to the kitchen, leaving a heavy musky scent trailing behind him. Trunks sniffed the air and felt his face heat up a bit. ~damn! I'm still not competely over him! I thought that after all this time alone and with Goten my feelings would have dissapeared by now. Damn, how wrong of me.~ He found his legs move him up and walking after Goku. He had to settle this, if Goku rejected him, everything would be fine and he could go on living with Goten again and completely devote himself to that relationship.
Goku opened the fridge, feeling a blissfully cold wash over him. he sighed reliefed, welcoming the cold wind flood over his burnt body. He had needed the cold so much right now. Vegeta and Goten leaving him behind with Trunks made him blush again and heat up, being so close to him. Luckily his sun burnt skin had conceiled much of his sudden blush when he walked off. ~thank kami for that. I can't let Trunks see I'm still affected by him being so close to me.~
Then he suddenly heard Trunks footsteps behind him.
'So.. you still care about me..'
~what? How could that boy ever know what I was thinking? Oh no.. was I thinking out loud? Baka!~
'I thought.. that I was thinking.. what did I say then?' Goku asked confused.
'You said that you were still affected by me, by being around me.'
'Oh my god.. I. . I thought I was just thinking that.'
'Well, you didn't think it but you said it.'
With that Trunks moved to the fridge, leaning in to see what was inside. By doing so he touched Goku's chest a bit, making the larger man flinch. Goku jerked back, allowing Trunks enough space to look inside. Unfortunatly for Goku trunk only moved more to him. Trunks pulled out a can of pop, hoding it up in front of Goku.
'Is this one laright for you?' he said, looking him in the eyes.
'Duh.. uh.. I don't know.. I guess so.'
'What? You don't know?'
Trunks held up the can closer to Goku. Narrowing his eyes he set the can to Goku's skin, making the tall man yelp at the touch of the freezing metal. Panting he watched as Trunks moved the can down his chest to his abdomen and the moving to his back. Staring him in the eyes, Trunks got in closer, being more able to move the can across the large back. He twisted the can, making the cold side to the hot skin again. Goku closed his eyes, that cold metal against his burning back felt like heaven. And Trunks was doing this to him! The movements had something erotic over them. Trunks enjoyed teasing Goku like this and felt his excitement grow. In one movement he closed in, pressing his lips to Goku's. Goku flinched upon the touch of Trunks silken lips on his and a velvet tongue slipping into his mouth. That sensation, that kiss filled with fire and the cold can on his back, Trunks soft hands on his chest made him crazy as hell. He pulled Trunks closer, how he had longed for this. Ever since they left the house he couldn't stop thinking about him. So he broke the kiss, looking in Trunks ice blue eyes filled with confusion.
'I'm sorry.. but I can't make the same mistake Vegeta and Goten made.'
'Goku? I. .'
'Listen, I couldn't stop thinking about you since we left the house. It is as if you are in my blood, and it wont get out anymore! Its driving me crazy!!'
'I'm sorry, I didn't know what came over me. I know what you are talking about. I kept on seeing your face whenever I closed my eyes. And just now, I just had.. I just had to feel your kiss again. So the craving inside me would stop..'
'Trunks, we can't do this. We cant..'
'I know.. What do we do now?'
'I still have to figure that out.. I guess we have to talk about and break up with our mates or we hope that this feeling will go away soon, even though I love it.'
'I guess you're right.. Now let's go see the others before they figure where we have gone.'
Together they walked outside again, holding an armfull of beer and coke for the other two. Sipping their drinks they sat down on the grass again, a little closer to the shadow and a little closer together. They looked up at the same time, where the hell were Goten and Vegeta? They stood up immediately, looking around. Trunks walked over to the pool, looking in to find any traces of the two saiyans. On his face appeared a look of disbelief.
'Trunks? Whats wrong?'
Goku walked over to him.
'I guess they are still fighting out who is the best swimmer of the two.'
Goku looked down in the pool. Amazed to what he saw he smirked in a mix of confusion and disbelief. There they were, sitting at the bottom of the pool, holding on for eachother for dear life. When Goku looked better he could make out that they locked into a tight embrace, kissing eachothers necks.
'I guess, we are not the only ones having problems..'
'No I guess not.. damn, now what do we do?'
Vegeta jerked his head up to look above him. He could vaguely make out a head with black hair and one with purple hir standing above him. Goten now looked up too, Trunks chuckled at seeing him look up. He could read what the young man was saying so far under water, crap.
Sitting in the livingroom, all dried up, they looked at eachother. Vegeta let out a deep sigh. They had told eachother what had happened and what they were still feeling. Vegeta looked as he was hiding something. Goku looked at him, reading his thoughts. Vegeta looked back at him, letting out an even greater sigh.
'Alright Vegeta. What is bothering you?'
'Nothing.'
'Come on! I can see it! We can all see it!'
Trunks and Goten turned to look at them and then at Vegeta.
'Spill it out!'
'Alright then.'
Goku crossed his arms, waiting for Vegeta was going to say. It must be something important, it seemed to bother prince a lot.
'At home, we had some kind of a legend concerning mates. At the end there were so few of us left that we had almost forgotten about it. It said that saiyans had an eternal mate and one for life. The eternal one was always coming back to his original mate, life after life. The one for life was a mate that a saiyan had as a first true strong love. Eventually the eternal onbe would show up and began his life all over again with his previous mate. They said that everyone had such a mate, no matter what race, age or gender. But for the last centuries we had thinned out quite a lot, so no eternal mate could reincarnate to find his mate again. Now I thought that it was just an ideal fairy tale. We had a mate for life, and since we were always destined to die young, that was enough. But this.. it seems that our mates have come back. One of you two, Goku and Goten, would be my eternal mate and one would be my mate for this life. Same goes for all of you..'
'So maybe, just in an unusual twist of fate all of those mates have come back.. in us?'
'Yah, that seems to be the story. Now I never believed it but this.. it is too strange and looks a lot like that tale.'
'Thats impossible! Reincatnations and stuff? That sound like some new age group invading you mind!' Goten yelled at Vegeta.
'Well Vegeta is the only one who could know about such things Goten. Listening to this makes some sense to me.. but yeah, it does sound like a strange fairy tale to me.'
'Say Vegeta, isnt there some way to find out for real about this?'
'Just one way..'
'And that might be??'
'Bonding..'
'With eachother?'
'Thats the only way to find out. I dont kow how but you should be able to make out from the feeling from it, who is who. Damn, I hoped that something so severe as bonding wasnt needed but it seems to be the only way to get some answers here.. Kuso!'
Vegeta sat with his hands in his hair. They knew how committing bonding was and especially Vegeta always made a great deal about it. He stood up and walked around, mumbling what he had to do. They all looked at him in wonder ~ yeah, this was heavy..~ Suddenly he turned around, staring each of them in the eyes.
'So what do we do?'
to be continued..
Authors comments:
Ah yeah, that faithfull last sentence saying to be continued. That was really odd, for the first time I had been strikken with the disease that is the greatest fear of every writer, writers block. And there was no way I could get rid of either. I wrote this part in may, 2002, when university was ending its year. So my mind had been filled with tests, exams, points and money. The next month I completely collapsed of too much stress, thus ending every chance of finsihing this fic. On my vacation, my intestines became inflamated, rushing me to the hospital, for the first time in my life and when I got home, I had simply forgotten all about this fic! Just weeks later a new idea popped up and Ive been working on that ever since ^_^
That idea was Dangerous Games, so if you're not tired yet, maybe you should try reading that *smiles*
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