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Julie was someone I went to university with, and we were always assigned the same classes. We always had a good time in classes, and the times I'd see her at parties. While at school there was a close friend of mine that was actively pursuing her, and I made sure I didn't get in the way.
It wasn't until after we graduated that I found out she wasn't really interested in him as anything more than a friend. The plus side to this was, she and I had internships in the same town with different companies. His internship was in Wisconsin.
The only times I saw her for the first few months, she was drunk and having huge bouts of depression from lonliness. I did confront her twice about going out and that I would be there for her if she ever wanted to talk. I dunno if it made her really uncomfortable that she knew I saw her and heard the things she said when she was drunk, and now that I was asking her out. Most likely yes.
She did eventually start dating someone she met at the company she worked for. That relationship last about 5 months. She went single again for 2 months, during a period of time that I didn't see her much at all because of both our obligations to work. The next time I saw her she was back with her boyfriend from high school, who moved here during the summer to be with her. I found out 2 weeks ago that she is to be married to him at the end of the month.
What is starting this rant is I ran into them today at the mall, and I had forgotten about her eyes. When she was looking at me, I just wanted to grab her, and kiss her, but of course, her fiance was there, and that would be a no-no. I kept shifting my gaze from her to the fiance and back, and tried not to look into her eyes for too long. But sometimes I couldn't help myself.
I did tell them I would attend the wedding, and wished them both a congradulations.
But since I saw her at the mall today, I cannot get the way she looked at me out of my mind. It was such a way that melted my soul.