On The Level

After Four Years Archives Self-Realization

The past couple of days I spent a lot of time hanging out with friends, and through various conversations and some thinking of my own, I had a revelation.   Every woman that I have become involved with, or even consider a good friend, that I can talk with and have a meaningful conversation have all been older than myself.  I'm not talking about older in the terms of couple months or anything, I am talking about years older.  This really didn't occur to me, until someone pointed out one small observation to me. For my age, I am very independant and responsible. Then it hit me...  most women my age are still in college and still getting help from their parents to pay the bills.  ( I understand that there are some of you who do foot the bills yourself, but I am saying the majority of women). Since I am now living like most people do when they are 24-29, that is usually who I associate with.  For example, my best friend is going to be turning 24, Amy, the chick I most recently had a chance with, is 26...  the other night, of the group of 4 that I hung out with their ages were 28, 29, 26, and 23. To site another example from last month, I ran into someone I used to work with at the bar.  This woman is in her mid-40s, and her daughter used to date my first roommate.  Well, neither of us were finished drinking or talking by the time the bar closed, so she came back to my place for some vodka.  We were talking about stuff, and she then asked how old I was...  I told her and she didn't believe me...  I showed her my driver's license.  She told me that she had always thought I was at least 25 or 26 just for the way I acted and could talk about things.  Then she decided that my "soul" was ancient and that I had lived many lives before ( I think the vodka was kickin' in about this point because she kept going on about this, and adding things that made no sense). What I am getting at here, is that people on my level are all older than myself.  And for me trying to find a woman that I can talk to as welll as get all the little perks from a relationship, she has to be on my level or I am not interested. The only bad thing about this whole thing is my age.  Once people find out, and from the crowd I hang with, I always - ALWAYS get the response "ooh, you're still a baby"  or "oh man...  to be that age again"  Because of these responses, I try to not answer questions about age.  Because really, once a person is a legal adult, what does age matter?  Maybe more than I thought...  but I always never put too much emphasis on age...

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