I'll start with the girl from my last article "Soulmates". I know now, that while we may be of the same wavelength, it is a friendship wave and nothing more. Though recently, she has been irratating the hell out of me. I don't know what it is... but ever since I got back from vacation, I just haven't been able to speak to her without getting annoyed with something she says. And so for the most part, I have been avoiding her calls and e-mails. I have been wondering what to tell her, if I find a time when I can tolerate her for a while. I found my answer yesterday.
To be precise it all started Monday night after work at the bar with some of the people I work with. All in all, there were five of us there... Trev, Matt, Bridgette, myself, and Amy (yes, yes same one from Amy Chronicles). Anyways, we are all enjoying a beer, watching the end of Monday Night Football, and carryin' on as usual. Trev and Matt take off after one beer each, while Bridgette is talking with a guy sitting next to her at the bar. Amy and I talk in hushed tones about Bridgette's flirtting style, and what not, and before ya know it, Bridgette finds someway to include us in the conversation as well. After we finish up our beers, the four of us head out to go our own ways. We stand there breifly talking about meeting up again Friday night. Bridgette head's off her own way, leaving that guy talking with us for a while longer... he asks the normal questions to find out more about her and such... and he takes off as well.
Amy and I are alone in the parking lot.
For some reason, she gets close to me, and for some reason I put my arms around her. She asks what I'm gonna do since I mentioned that I had the following day off from work. I hadn't given it much thought, and I just said that I would find something to do that night, and she should go on home because she had to work early. Well.... one thing led to another and we start making out again right there in the parking lot.... which led to me being back at her place... and I'm sure you can figure out the rest.
That night she told me two things... making sure I was clear on the both of them... One, that I realized this was a one time deal..... Two, that I could not tell anyone because her job could be at stake. (she's salary and the company I work for can be anal about things sometimes). Anyways, that leads to the next morning, before she left for work she gave me a rather nice kiss, and said we'd have to do it again sometime... neither which I was expecting.
The thoughts have now about the whole things are way way confused. My feeling the next day was incredible.... when I thought about that night, I had a euphoric feeling that I have never in my life felt. I don't think I could even explain it... except that it was the best feeling ever.
Now only if I knew someway to be able to continue seeing her... or at least find out what she is thinking...
Going back to work tomorrow, will be the first time for me back after Monday... yes its going to be a little strange I suppose seeing her, but I have a knack of not revealing anything I don't want. So I'll be alright. Hopefully.
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