Deep, deep
Part 15
Kaoru follow Toshiya into the
house, both face was redden. Not knowing what to say to one another after their
passion kissing earlier on. They would have ended up with something more if they
were in the house and not in the lift, somehow both felt a bit wasted at this
moment.
“ Take a sit.” Toshiya was the first to break the silent after
they enter the house. “ What you like for a drink?”
Damn… what am I thinking? Didn’t
I already decide to wait for sometime before starting a new relation? Just a
kiss changes my mind? But… it felt great… Kaoru.
Toshiya face blushed harder.
“ Ehh… just anything will do, thanks.” Kaoru simply answer not
daring to look at the bassist.
The ticking sound from the clock…
Kaoru tense.
Toshiya blushing.
No one talk…
Tick… tick… tick…
Finally. “ Eh…” Both say at the same time.
The door bang loudly opens, Kaoru and Toshiya tense up, both looking
at the direction of the door, seeing their vocalist standing at the door
smiling like an idiot at them.
“ Sorry, I’ve forgotten something. Please continue whatever you
guy wanted to do, just ignored me.”
Toshiya and Kaoru stay unmoved, looking at their vocalist walking
into the room, out of the room, all the time looking at them with a grin on his
face. Kaoru body was shaking somehow, cursing Kyo coming back at the moment.
“ See you guy tomorrow.” Kyo stick out his tongues at them. “
Don’t overworked and get late for tomorrow practice.”
Toshiya and Kaoru look at one another, both blushed harder.
“ KYO! I’m going to ask Gackt to screw you up again!” Toshiya
exclaimed.
Kaoru frown upon hearing Gackt name.
I’ve almost forgotten Gackt. What Gackt has to
do with Kyo? And what about Toshiya relationship with him, how could I forgot
such important thing.
They look at their vocalist slamming the door close, disappearing
sound of the footstep at the other side of the door. Finally, Kaoru and Toshiya
eye meet one another, both laugh for the tensed up they have.
“ Ehh… so… what is Gackt doing here?” Kaoru take a deep breath;
finally have the gut to ask.
Toshiya look at the elder man in surprise, suddenly realized that
their leader might have get the wrong idea about him and Gackt. The sudden
appearance of Gackt would have likely causes Kaoru to think that they were
lover.
“ Gackt-san?”
Kaoru slightly nod his head but dare not look at the bassist.
Toshiya let out a laugh. “ What do you think then?”
The guitarist looks at Toshiya when he heard the laughter and the
question ask by the bassist. “ What do I think?” Kaoru frown.
What do you expect me to say… of course I don’t wish you
two were lover but why are you laughing like that when I mention about Gackt?
Does that mean you and him really are lover?
“ Kaoru?”
The guitarist was deep in his thought does not hear the bassist
calling him. Worry and jealous overcome him when he think that Toshiya and
Gackt were lover.
Jealousy fills his mind when he thinks of the image of Gackt
hugging and kissing the bassist. Cursing how could Gackt do so, Kaoru was
unruly of himself, out of a sudden, Kaoru found himself jumping toward the
bassist, embracing the bassist and forcing kiss on him.
“ Kao… Mmm…” Toshiya muttered through shock.
After a few minutes of enthusiasm kissing, Toshiya and Kaoru
finally break off to take a breath, the bassist staring at Kaoru in fright and
disbelief.
“ I don’t care! Break off with Gackt if you are with him!” Kaoru
speak out suddenly, looking seriously at Toshiya. “ Or I kick you out of the
band!”
Toshiya pouted, hearing the most unreasonable and childish words
coming from their leader.
Kaoru was still staring at the bassist for an answer.
“ DON”T WANT!” Toshiya exclaimed, trying to take a small revenge
from their leader for saying such unreasonable thing.
The spirit and self-assured look on Kaoru face disappear; the
guitarist almost drops to the floor when Toshiya say that. “ You love him so
much?” Kaoru mutter softly.
No answer from the bassist.
“ Aright I understand… I won’t kick you out, I’m just joking.”
No answer still.
“ Please say something, I’m sorry for all this.”
No answer.
“ Toshiya? I’m really sorry…”
Kaoru looking more and more distress, thinking that the bassist
was mad with him for what he had said earlier on. Slowly he lift up his head to
look at Toshiya whom is keeping quiet.
Smiling?
“ Why you want me to break up with Gackt?” The bassist asked. “
Give me a reason or I will be really mad at you!”
“ Because…” Kaoru paused for a while wondering should he tell the
bassist the truth. “ Because that, it that because Gackt and you… because…
because…”
“ BECAUSE WHAT KAORU!?” Toshiya was getting impatient.
Just tell me your feeling, that all I want to hear… don’t
be such coward.
“ Because I LOVE you…” Kaoru yelled as he was been frighten by
Toshiya sudden exclaiming.
“ Really?” Toshiya was
smiling, sweetly.
Kaoru was blushing, the very first time in his life that he had expressed
his love to someone and that person had happened to be his bandmate, a man, his
love, Toshiya.
“ But I can’t break up with him…”
Kaoru look up at the bassist, disappointment was written all over
his face. All Kaoru wondering now was why the bassist was still smiling, in
front of a person that had been rejected by him.
“ I understand… it unfair to you if I force you to break up with
the one you love so that you can stay in the band.”
Toshiya smile faded suddenly seeing the disappointment and sadden
in their leader face, the very first time he see this expression on their
leader. Somehow Toshiya felt himself feeling sad when he see the expression on
Kaoru, maybe he had overdone the joke.
“ Sorry Kaoru.”
“ There’s no need to apologies.” Kaoru answered, thinking that the
bassist was apologizing for not being to break up with Gackt.
“ No, listen to me first.” Toshiya paused.
“ Huh?”
“ Kyo and Gackt are lover, so I can’t break off with Gackt, you
see, I’m not his lover.”
Kaoru: < @__@ >
“ Still angry?” Gackt asked.
Kyo had not been talking to his lover ever since he enter the car
until they had reach Gackt apartment, still mad at Gackt for making him a
‘woman’ out of Kyo will at the last time they had sex. They had agreed to one another
that they were only done it when being approve by the other but that night, Kyo
was drunk and the next day all he know was he had become the ‘woman’.
Thinking of this, Kyo narrow his eyes. Everytime he remembers of
it, he will get extremely mad at Gackt for breaking the promised. They did not
break up but Gackt had been chasing after Kyo to get his forgiveness and that
why he go after Toshiya for help after knowing that the bassist was staying
with his lover.
“ Kyo… please don’t be angry.” Gackt persuading continues but was
ignored by his lover.
Kyo switch on the television, flip the magazines, drink up the
second can of beer, lighting up a cigarette, still he ignored Gackt.
Gackt pout. “ Kyo…” He pokes his lover leg.
Kyo kick his lover hand away, still rejecting to talk with Gackt.
Angry, very angry, extremely angry, the vocalist finally stand up, wanted to
leave but he stopped, remember something. He had no place to go now if he leave
Gackt place, he can’t go home now; Kaoru was at his place and may be now busy
with the bassist.
Kyo sit down again. Gackt looked at his lover action with doubt.
Kyo give laughter out of Gackt expect, Gackt still staring at Kyo, wondering
what his lover is thinking at this moment.
Hum at least Gackt help up in Toshiya and Kaoru… if not
because of him, don’t know when the two will improve their relationship.
Evil grin appear on Kyo face, he look at the clock knowing that an
hour had pass since he left his apartment, picking up the phone, Kyo dial back
home. The phone finish ringing the first time, Kyo continue dialing the second
time follow by the third time until someone pick up the phone.
“ YES.” The voice sound a bit of exhausted and angry on the other
side of the phone.
Kyo hangs up as soon as he heard Kaoru voice, laughing
hysterically, having guess what his two friend had been doing before he phone
back.
“ Kyo are you okay?” Gackt look a bit worried for his lover,
thinking that he had ‘over-anger’ his lover, making his lover acting wired.
Kaoru throw the phone on the floor, still very enthusiastic to get
back to the bassist but when he turns around, Toshiya was already sitting up
behind him. Kaoru was cursing inside his heart, at the person who called.
“ Who is it?”
Kaoru ignored the question and pull the bassist back onto the bed.
Toshiya pout for the sudden change of their leader attitude. Kaoru was so shy
just now but was now so … he pushes Kaoru away.
“ Toshiya?” Kaoru is showing a little protest.
“ Who say you can do this?” Toshiya say, gazing at the older man
with a seducing expression.
Kaoru: >__< (woo
come-on Totchi)
Shinya awake suddenly from his dream again, slowly Shinya get up
of the bed not wanting to wake his lover up. He went outside the bedroom to the
balcony, sitting down, sighing somehow.
Am I giving Die too much trouble? Will he get annoyed and
left me?
Cool breeze blowing at the skinny drummer; Shinya sighed again.
To be continue…
By Tsmrhara
[13/6/02]