| All I Want is You, This Christimas |
| (Based on a diary entry, by the main character, Kassie Jones) (NOT a TRUE story) It was Christmas time again, I wanted the same thing that I've wanted for the past three years, my boyfriend and the love of my life, J.C. Chasez. Ya know, big solo singer, ya know, former *NSYNC, "Bye, bye, bye," member? If ya don't know who I'm talking about, shame on you! No really, for the past three years, that's ALL I've wanted. We were planning on running away together some day, buying a small house with a porch, a few kids running around, ya know, a dream that every girl has. I'm Kassie Jones, by the way, I'm the person you always see on J.C.'s arm at award shows, the short girl on J.C.'s team at the charity basketball games, know me yet? I'm not surprised, honestly, no one has seen or heard of me, of course, how could you, with the most gorgeous man in the world, flashing you that beautiful smile, winking at you with those huge blue eyes, DAMN, I miss him! But, I was gonna spend another year WITHOUT him. I still lived with my parents, of course, where else would I live? J.C. and me never really got a house or an apartment, how nice would that be? I mean, I'm 25 years old, I should have my own place with the man I love! But that's beside the point, the whole point of this entry, is I'm gonna tell you about one Christmas that everything changed between J.C. and me... It was the day after Thanksgiving, and I was just waiting for the phone to ring, FINALLY, it did, "Hello?" I said into the phone, "Go morning Beautiful, how was your night?" His sweet voice sang into the phone, "Hey Baby!" I was so happy to hear his voice, I hadn't talked to him in over a week, not by choice though, it was just a normal thing. "Hi my Sunshine," He was SO romantic! "How are you? It's been over a week, I miss you," "Oh Sugar, I miss you too," "How's everyone doin'?" I asked, just saying whatever, just to hear him. "Who's everyone? Me, myself, and I?" He laughed, I love that man! "How was your Thanksgiving Love?" "Same as always, I think I just now woke up from that turkey coma," I smiled, he laughed, "I wish I could have been there, I miss your pumpkin pie!" He said smacking his lips, "I'll make you one when you come home for Christmas," "That's why I called, about Christmas," "Your not gonna be home again this year, are you?" I sighed, "I'm so sorry Kassie, I just can't, I have to make enough money to buy us that big 2-story house with-" "A porch that goes all the way around it," We said together, tears welled up in my eyes, "will you at least call me on Christmas?" My voice broke, "Oh, Baby, please don't cry, this is just as hard for me, as it is for you, I wanna come home and see you, I haven't seen you sense February," "Trust me, I'm keeping track, 10 whole months, gosh," "Hey, think of it this way, when I do come home, we can start planning out our future together," "Oh Jace," I sighed, "when WILL you be home?" "Beginning of January, middle at the latest," "That's WAY to long, what am I supposed to do in the mean time?" "I dunno, count down the days, watch MTV, you can see me there," "Yeah but it's not the same," "I know it's not, at least you can see me, I can't see you; Yeah, I'm coming," I heard him say to Johnny, his manager. "You better go," "Yeah, I love you, SO much," "I love you too, write me a song, will ya?" "You know it, bye," He said, hesitating to hang up, I sat there awhile, never hearing a click, "J.C.?" "Yeah, I'm still here," "Johnny's gonna get ya," "Okay, we hang up at the same time, 1, 2, 3," Still no click, "Jace?" "Yeah, I love you," Finally, a click, I sighed and hung up. I sat there, and cried, I cried for hours. November was over, it was December 1st, I stood outside, putting up the lights and everything. I hated decorating alone, it wasn't any fun. I sighed hard and went inside, I began trimming the tree, the TV was set on MTV, they were playing Christmas videos, so I just left it there and trimmed the tree to the music. I sighed again, pulling out the wrapping paper and gifts I had bought for J.C. and began wrapping them, why, I'd never know? I sat there, wrapping gifts when I heard MTV news come on, "Hi I's Sujan Pak for MTV news, who's going home for the holidays? Justin Timberlake, Britney Spears, Snoop Dogg, Carrie Underwood, and several more. Those who aren't as lucky, J.C. Chasez, Ashanti, BSB, as well as Christina A. What do the people who will be touring, or recording during Christmas have to say?" J.C.. came on the screen, "Well, I can't say that I'm happy, I mean, for the past three years, I haven't got to spend Christmas or Thanksgiving with my wonderful girlfriend, Kassie. You miss your family and friends, but you know that when you see them again, it'll be better than a holiday, but it won't be the same," "So, there ya go, he's not happy about missing the holidays with his girlfriend, but he knows, just like everyone else does, it'll be worth while, when you do see them again. I'm Sujan Pak, that's the news for now, for more on this and more, go to MTV.com." I was in tears now, how could the most joyous time of the year, be the saddest time of the year, for me? Christmas was right around the corner, five days to be exact, and I dreaded it, even though Christmas was all about Jesus Christ, and his birth. "Kassie we will see you in two weeks, and Honey, TRY and enjoy the holiday, it won't last long," Margaret, My Momma said smoothing my hair. "I'll try Momma, I can't promise anything," "Be good, we'll see ya soon," "Bye Daddy," I smiled, watching them leave. I stood at the door, watching the snow fall, it was so beautiful. I closed my eyes, remembering Christmas, three years ago, me and J.C. laying in the snow, making snow angels, and snowmen, I missed him so much. I started to close the door, "Excuse me!" I looked up, a tall boy, about 6'1, built, with glasses covering his beautiful blue eyes, and long eyelashes, his dark brown hair blowing in the chilly wind, walked to me, "Can I help you?" "Yeah, hi, my name is John, I'm new around here, can you by chance tell me where Kassie Jones lives?" "I'm Kassie Jones," "Oh, I beg your pardon, someone told me I could count on you to show me around?" "Um, I really can't at the moment, some other time?" "I'd like that," "Great, so would I," I smiled, he was really cute. "Okay then, I'll see ya around?" "Yeah," He nodded and walked off, giving me a flip of his wrist, I waved and walked back in. The phone rang, I walked to answer it, "Hello?" "Nothing else will do, all I want is you, this Christmas," I smiled, "Hey Baby," "Hey Beautiful, how's your week going?" "pplltt!" I said blowing a raspberry into the phone, "That good huh?" He laughed, "Yeah, what's up?" "Are you gonna be home all week?" "Where am I gonna go?" "I dunno, with your parents maybe?" "NO WAY! I'm fine right here, sorta," "Well, anyway, I was gonna send all your gifts to you," "Gifts? I thought we said no gifts?" "We did, but still, I got you a couple little gifts, and one BIG gift," "Really? Well, I got you about four here," "Hey! Cheater!" "Well, I had to get you something," "What did ya get for me?" "You'll see soon enough," "Not too soon, apparently," He sighed. "Perk up Baby, when you get home, it'll be worth your while," "Don't say it like that!" He laughed. "Anyway, I just wanted to tell you I love you, Johnny's rushing me, so," "Yeah, I get it," I smiled. "I love you," He said blowing a kiss in the phone, and hung up. I sighed and smiled. I was tiered, so I went on to take a nap on the couch. I laid on the couch, puling a blanket J.C. had bought me over me. It was a blanket I begged and begged him to get me, and he did. I sighed and closed my eyes, what seemed like just a few minuets, the doorbell rang. I opened my eyes and streached, glancing at the clock, it was 9:30 at night, I had been asleep over four hours! The doorbell rang again, "Just a sec!" I yelled, fixing my hair, I was thinking it was John, so I wanted to look as good as I possibly could. I cleared my throat and opened the door, "H-hello?" No one was there, I shrugged and looked around, a gift sat on my doorstep. "What the-" I picked it up and closed the door, sitting down on the couch. I looked at the gift, it said in big letters, "OPEN ME NOW!" So I did, it was a small microphone. "O...K...?" I said a bit weirded out. Than I found a piece of paper, and read it, "What's your biggest wish for Christmas? Say it in the microphone..." So, I did, maybe it all meant something? I inhaled and said in the microphone, "I wish J.C. could be home for Christmas," About that time, the doorbell rang again, I sat the microphone box down on the couch and answered the door, "Y-yes?" No one was there, "Okay, this is getting weird," I said to myself, looking around, when I saw another box, a bit bigger, and a bit further away. So, I walked out of the door, and picked up that box and looked down at it, once again, it said to open it then, so, I did. I saw a piece of paper first, with writing, so I read it, it said, "Now name another wish you want. Oh! Smile!" I smiled and said out loud, "I want to plan out our future, with J.C." Than moved the paper, there was a camera, so I took it in and looked at it. Than, the doorbell rang again, I was getting a bit weirded out, maybe it would all make sense this time around. I walked to the door, and opened it, I gasped, "Oh my gosh," Someone stood there, holding out a velvet box, a 24 karat, white gold, three diamond ring shined back at me, "Merry Christmas, Baby," "JACE?!" He chuckled and removed his mask. "YOUR HERE!" I jumped in his arms, wrapping my legs around his waist, squeezing him tight, never wanting to let him go. He took me in a circle, kissing me nonstop, all over my face and body. He carried me inside, he held me tight, still kissing me, he walked in the door, closing it, carrying me upstairs, I ripped my clothes off as fast as he was walking up the stairs. We got to the top of the stairs, he backed me up against the wall, pulling his sweater off, pulling his pants down, he kissed me again and unbuttoned my pants, pulling them along with my thong from my body. We laid on the floor, not caring a lick about anything. I was still a virgin, and ya know what, I was never nervous, I was more excited than anything. He kissed down my body and back up again, kissing and licking my nipples, it felt amazing! But nothing compared when he entered me, I moaned and groaned as he pumped at me, I was so overwhelmed with ecstasy, not drugs either! Pure love making, the way he made love to me, it was great! It was Christmas Eve, I gave J.C. his gifts, and we just enjoyed each other, just me and him. After we had ate ourselves sick, on turkey and dressing and my homemade pies, we went to the living room. I laid on my back, in front of the fireplace, listening to Christmas songs play on the radio, in nothing but a long shirt, just comfortable, on a bunch of pillows, one hand behind my head looking down at J.C., his head on my stomach, his hands running up and down my body, me running my fingers through his matted hair, "Um, Kassie," I looked down at his face and smiled, "are you gonna ever answer my question?" "What question?" I asked a little unsure, "The question I asked you a few days ago?" "Baby, I'm confused," "I asked you, if you would marry me?" I sat up really quick, J.C. jumping up, his hands on my knees, "You wanna get married?" "Kassie, we've been dreaming up our future together for seven years, I think it's time we make it reality," J.C. said sitting up on his knees. "Oh my gosh, this is real," I said in shock, "Yes, Baby, it's real, so, what's your answer?" "Y-yes! Yes!" I said with a squeal, "Really?" J.C. said with a smile, "YES!" I said jumping up to my feet, J.C. looking up at me, still on his knees. "Here, I've held on to this long enough, waiting for the perfect time to give it to you," He slipped the ring on my finger, standing to his feet, I cupped his face, bringing his lips to mine, I giggled into his mouth as he laid me on the couch, his feet hanging over one of the arms, my legs around his waist. "Kassie," "What?" I smiled running my hands up his bare back. "I love you so much," "I love you too," "C'mon, dance with me," "What?" "C'mon, one dance?" I agreed and stood up, as an old *NSYNC song played... Snowy nights, where it's warm here by the fire, here with you, I have all that I desire, it's been a long year, but somehow we got by, now it's Christmas Eve, and love is on our side, I don't need a hundred gifts beneath the tree, don't you know the best thing you can give to me, nothing else will do, all I want is you, this Christmas Children sing, Christmas carols at our door, spreading joy, that's what Christmas time is for, and though we don't have much, you've got me, and I've got you, and with a little faith, miracles come true, I don't need a hundred gifts beneath the tree, don't you know the best thing you can give to me, nothing else will do, all I want is you, this Christmas I don't want the love of any other girl, I want only one thing in this whole wide world, nothing else will do, all I want is you, this Christmas Cheek to Cheek, the lights are low, a kiss beneath the mistletoe, Your face lit by the fires glow, that's all I want tonight, I don't need a hundred gifts beneath the tree, don't you know the best thing you can give to me, nothing else will do, all I want is you, this Christmas Nothing else will do, all I want is you, this Christmas So yeah, that's what happened, all I wanted was J.C. and I got him, PLUS! We got married not long after, and we bought our dream house, the white house, with a porch extended all the way around it, although no kids yet. The best thing of all, I get to spend EVERY holiday with the man I love. And ya know what, IT ROCKS!! 11/13/2005 Kassie **CHASEZ** (IT'S OFFICIAL!) (Title and lyric credit to *NSYNC's "ALL I WANT IS YOU, THIS CHRISTMAS" WE STILL LOVE THE GROUP!) |