Answers to Sinerio 2

These are the answers compiled by the Sinerio so far.  In it The students were asked 5 questions.

These 5 questions were open ended and read- 1. The thing I wish for most in the world... 2. The thing I hate most in the world is... 3. The thing I love most in the world is... 4. The secret I hope no one ever finds out about me is... 5. The thing I fear most is...

Here are the answers from some of your fellow students.  Each one has their own color.

1. The thing I wish for most in the world is...

My mom to come back and take me home       -Jared McKenzie

That my brother and sister would be safe and that I could be with them forever             -Jordan Kendrick

that all of us up here at horizon can realize that our fucked up lives aren't our faults and that we can't do anything to our parents to change how they treated us. we can only forget about how they hurt us and look towards our better, brighter future.                                        -Taylor Gillis

to see my real father again, if only i could have talked to him and get to know him before he died.  I wish we could have had a relationship....i wish i didn't cause everyone i truly care about so much pain.             -Korin Wilkins

is to get out of here, i can't handle this everyday confrontation. I want to run.          Katie Tarrano

Is to be safe and not be hit or touched anymore.  I don't want to have to cut anymore.  Maybe live "happily ever after" whatever that means with Jay and his family.                                         - Lexi Andrews

Is that my brother were still alive.  Also that that Hank's family takes me in and adopts me because I really really want to be with them     -Kaileigh Hawk

Is that my mom and Frank get married and live together forever and I never have to go back to my dad and that Skank.     -Danielle Washington

Is to be with Theresa, or atleast know she was safe.                                            -Miguel Lopez

is that Andy and I could be safe and that he could trust people.  Also that we could live with the Gregory's forever.                                                    -Max Curtis

is to be safe and to maybe find a place where I can be with Max and not worry.  Maybe the Gregory's.  I also wish my mom and dad and sister were alive so they could help me.                                         -Andy Curtis

That my mom is safe.  And that maybe some day I can help more women like her.      -Bryan Lidka

is that my dad would believe me when I said all that Kimmy did to me, and would divorce her.  And also that Julie will someday know that I'm her dad.    -Hunter Abbot

is to never have to feel dirty or ashamed again  -Misha Michaels

Someone to talk to about my problems. Trust in other people. The ability to control my OCD/Depression                                    -Charlotte

Someone to love me and notice me    -Becky

That my dad could be happy again and I wouldn't have to go back to my mom         -Gabe Warner

is world peace.  That way nothing bad would ever happen to anyone.                                                                 -Aubrey West

Is that Lucy was still alive     -Zach Davenport

is to wish for my family back would be completely adolescent of me..but i wish I could find a connection with someone...love someone and have someone love me, the way my family and I once did     -Gavin O' Connor

That I could be with my dad forever          -Duncan Wright

is that everyone finds some sort of god or belief  -Brenton Forester

Is to forget the past      -Nick Klossner

world is to be wanted by someone who didn’t think I was a mistake                                                        -Landon Danaly

That Joey was still alive and I was dead   -Cole Jeffries

2. The thing I hate most in the world is...

My mom left and I don't know why

my parents because of all they've done to Hayden and Hailey and myself because of what I let them do to me

PARENTS! and people who say they care about you but are really just manipulating you....waitng until u have complete trust in them....so they can stab u in the back

snotty stuck-up, rich bratty priviled white kids, like my sister.  I hate the rick kids parents even more they are all close minded republicans who don't care about the common person....

when i get yelled at and i don't do stuff right.

my parents.  Well my dad and my stepmom, i never knew my real mom but Jay's mom said she was nice

Is my father.  After all he did to me and what he did to Kenny, I'll hate him for the rest of my life.

my dad because he made my mom look bad and then hurt me so i wouldn't tell anyone.

drugs.  I did them but it was what I was always around.  I hated what they did to my mom and my sister.

my aunt Julie and Uncle Robert, because of not what they did to me, because it wasn't much.  But what they did to Andy

my Aunt Julie and Uncle Robert.  After what they did to me and Max, and after saying that mom was bad, and all of them deserved to die I'll hate them.

my father for hurting us

no one believing me when I say that things happened between me and Kimmy, and that Julie is my daughter.  I don't like it at all.

people wanting to rape kids.  I mean I did what I had to do, and no one realizes that. Are they blind?  It's not me it's the people that pay for that sex.  And the people here.  You can't devote your life to helping teens unless you want "something" if you know what I mean.

People that are always happy and expect everyone else to be like that too- They're completely unsympathetic and brush off your problems and ignore their own.

the way some people behave towards their children

Calvin and my mom too for falling for him.

having to hide from everyone and everything

Cancer, it took Lucy away from me.  Also my math teacher.

the fact that i fell through the cracks. when I get older, my life's work will be dedicated to making sure that no child or young adult goes through the hell i went through. I can't bear the thought of having more kids like me in the world that must sell themselves to make money to eat every night...it's simply unbearable

pain, and the system for making us stay with mom

nothing.  It’s not good to hate.  But I extremely dislike Melanie

School

my parents and drugs

myself for letting Joey die

3. The thing I love most in the world is...

my best friend Sam, she was always there.

My brother and sister

Having Somebody

singing, i love playing the guitar and singing, it makes me happy.  I also love travelling. Seeing the world makes me feel alive!!

Music

Jay.  He's my only friend that never gave up on me, ever and I love him with all my heart.  Also his family, I love them too.

Kenny, because he was my brother, and Hank, I love him so much, I don't know where I would be without him

my mom.  She never stopped loving me no matter where I was.  And then she fell for a nice guy, unlike my dad.  I love Frank too.

Theresa, she's my light.  Even though she got sick and I couldn't help her.  I love her so much.

Andy and the Gregory's.  And my mom and dad and sister even though I don't really remember them that much anymore.  But I know they loved me.

Max.  He's my twin brother and I am close to him.  Also my mom, Dad, and Katie.  And maybe the Gregory's, but I don't know.  I'm scared to love them.

my mom beacuse she's always there for me, and I'm there for her

Julie.  My sister, or daughter, whatever sounds better.  I love her with all my heart and I hope nothing ever happens to her.

I don't know.  Nothing.  I don't love my mom or her boyfriends, or myself even because I've been used.  And I know no one will want me after that happened.

Gabe (but he doesn't know it yet- maybe he never will- but i hope maybe someday. . .)thunderstorms, chocolate, my music

Money, Friendships and love

my father

Macaroni and Cheese.  Oh yeah and my sister Raven, I love her almost as much, just kidding!, as I love Macaroni and cheese

Lucy, she was the love of my life, and my mom and dad.

now this might sound conceited, but it has a good explanation to it; I love my strength. If I had been weak during my time on the streets, I would have died, whether it have been by suicide or murder. I can say my favorite thing is my strength because it's the last thing my mother and father ever gave to me..

My dad, Justin, and my dog Bob

God, and my family

My sister Natalie

What is love anyway, the people who were suppose to love me never wanted me.  If I had to choose something I’d choose my poetry

my parents

4. The secret I hope no one ever finds out about me is...

my dad is abusive.

that i let my parents have sex with me so they wouldn't hurt my brother and sister

sorry, but my deepest secret will die with me.

that i'm not really who everyone thinks I am.  No one can know that my mother isn't my birth mom.  I alos don't want anyone to know that i feel respoinsible for my parents' deaths.

is that i am a cutter, and about my parents.

what my parents did to me, I don't want anyone to know

What happened to my brother, i don't like to talk about it and I don't want people pitying me

that i am vulnerable and am not as tough as I always seem to be.

that I did almost get AIDS, I had to be tested a couple of times, and that I was a drug carrier

that I've been hurt, so i'm weak.  Also that I want to be loved alot.  Oh and that I'm not here for myself but to be with Andy.  Because I've gone through therapy and am better, but he's not and I couldn't let him come here alone.

What aunt Julie and Uncle Robert did to me.

that I shot my dad, and that's why I'm at Horizon

that Julie is my daughter.  As much as I want people to know I don't.  It makes me feel dirty, getting someone pregnant and having sex at 14.

what I did, I was a male prostitute, not something to go sharing around and screaming about now is it?

I'm really very insecure but hide it under my sarcasm because i'm scared to let anyone get too close. But all i really want is someone to care about me (maybe Gabe?). Kinda ironic, huh?

That I crave attention

That I really am afraid of failure

That my parents beat me up

That I had sex with my math teacher

that the first day I was at Horizon, I fell in love immedietly. I saw her and I couldn't take my eyes away from her...it was incredible

that I had sex with mom so she wouldn’t hit Justin

That I'm not a virgin

I don’t want to talk about what happened

that I was weak enough to let my parents hit me

That I killed my best friend

5. The thing I fear most in the world is...

My dad

not being able to protect Hailey and Hayden if they get hurt

falling in love with someone again and then have them taken out of my life forever

my secret being discovered and being vulnerable.  I think i can take care of myself and i don't need anyone, i don't ever want to be dependant on anyone again.

is my parents and that they'll will hurt Aex and Jack, my little brothers.

Hurting Jay, or killing myself, and going back home..  Definetly going back home.

My father.  I have dreams of him coming into my room at night and flashbacks of him hurting Kenny.  And I don't want him to ever get out of prision.  Never

Having to go back to the way things were.  And also that my mom and Frank will give up on me or they'll hurt me too.

getting sick from something that happened while I was living with my mom, like the drugs.  Also that Theresa won't be the same because she was hurt by our mom

that Andy won't get better, or that I might become bitter like him for the rest of my life.

Being loved by the Gregory's.  Or them loving me and then hurting me.  Cause I can't take that again.

becoming like my father and hurting the people I love and care for so deeply about.

that Kimmy will hurt Julie and that when she does no one will do anything to stop her.

having my girlfriend, if I ever get one which at the moment, NO WAY, give up her virginity to me because she feels she "should" or "needs" to.  Because no one should have to.

Waking up one day to discover i'm back in my family's wrecked, dirty apartment, with no one to care about me.

Never being loved or noticed

having to go back to the way things were with living with mom and Calvin

being hit again

falling in love again and forgetting Lucy

is dying and reliving the day my parents died over and over again

Going back to my mother

Going to hell for what I've done

Everyone finding out my secrets

being unwanted my whole entire life and never finding what real love means.  And to grow bitter because of it.

Feeling guilty for the rest of my life