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The weekend has started and loving it too! Well, I'm at my hunni's, alone, waiting for Jessie and Madie, so we can hike to the Mall using the creek way lol. It's fun. I was karakoeing earlier lol.... I can't sing without the backup mode... dunno why but I just can't. I love karaoke! It's fun! Hmmmm, well... man, this lil boy stole a 20 gallon tank and 5 fish with the food for... 15 bucks! I'm so pissed for him. He's ready to sell his 2 other tanks as well... lemme think about it. I mean, I would kill a fish. Reason; I can't even take "good" care of myself. Plus, If I decided to buy it from that Miguel boy, my dad is so going to say something about it. [the song], I like this song. China Dolls are the singers. I don't know its title tho. Credit to sis Hien for finding, recorded, and uploaded it =).
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It's always important. It's always there. you just gotta to do and do that. The world misses me? I don't think so. I don't fricking know why I left the womb at all [being deceptive]. I shouldn't even exist. It's like... a duty, not wanted to do... like a desire, unwillingly to fullfil. It's tough when you're a moody person and all fricking "bitchy." Anyways, I was being deceptive.. did I deceived you all? I betcha I did. You guys have no idea what I said and that's the whole point, you know? Sometime, it takes a best friend, someone close to you, to understand you even when you try to misleading them by telling them things in a nonsense way. Well, earlier I thought it was hilarious of that girl. But seriously, I don't care, because she was being honest and I think that's cool. She did her duty. Now, it's my turn. I'm going to prove her wrong. Btw, being "bony" .. nuthing is wrong about that. At least, I'm not no fat 16 yrs old girl w/ low-self esteem, but then I'm just a bony with that problem. All that is going to change in June. Watch me shine!
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These past few weeks, I became a lil happier. It's odd, but when I have hopes, someone is always there to shatter it into pieces right in my face. Not just hopes, self-esteem and self-respect as well. What hurts more is their your family member or someone you love/trust. It's tough enough trying to get my priotities and life straighten out, but with people always in my business, it's not cool. With no one to talk or complain to, I'm so going to snap out one day. Well, It's not that there's no one to talk to, but maybe I don't like to trouble people or I just basically don't know how, don't fricking know how to start and how to explain it to them in a simple, when it is not, so that they would get the whole story. Sometime I don't fricking want to do certain thing because people fricking said something about it and like, I lost the joy and desire in wanting to do so. Isn't that just suck? And if I decided to do, I would do it reluctantly. It's like I waddles through life not knowing what I really want to do and so sadden by what people do or said. It's just miserable. I hate it when I shatter people's hopes or their self-esteem and their self-respect for themselves. But when they start with me, I can't just sit and say nada. I would mock their idiotic way and would do the same. I know it's wrong, but with someone provokingly insulting you, hell yeah, you hafta fight back. Well, all I'm saying it, I'm in a position... where sometime I don't wanna do things cause' of obligations.
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I tried.. but I still feel sick. I ate School Lunch, but ill I I remained. I looked all fricking PALE. Pale as in sick, not "white"... oh okay that too. [I wanna be "whiter" not PALE" Oh-My-God!] Even that "thin/pale" girl was like, "You looks pale." Well, thank you for telling me, but I sorta figured that out by now! Oh my, This week was all white clothing + walk the track for me.. and a work-free [no working!] week! I walked the field, 2 laps, no Elisa, no Cassandra, no Leslie, no Beth, no one, not a soul, just my locket and I. I look down and there he was, the image of my bf. I was relief from all stress and ill feelings. Looking at his pic makes me smiles <3. It's true. It's so true. I remember a fella from school once told me, "Ages doesn't matters. The younger you are, the long you can drag this sh*t and drag it as long as you want." [Boyfriend] I like this song. Even though it's in Japanese. J-Pop rocks yo. Yep, my hunn! will always be my "no Boyfriend" [first boyfriend] and " owari wa nai to omotteta" [there would be no end], Zutto watashi no daiji na Boyfriend [You'll always be my precious bf] Okay... Japanese lesson is over. It's magazine time! I have YM june article! Check it out! [I'm so nice... scanning it!]
1] Orlando Bloom! so fricking hot! Article on what he dislike to talk about to the press...
2] Gay Marriage.. are you against or for it? I would place myself in the "betweenie" position...
3] Mary-Kate & Kate! I'm their fan.. or used to, lol, I like to read about them.. They're fricking rich...
4] Chocolate, how can we [the ladies] benefits from it...
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this week went by fast? Cause' I swear I thought today could have been Tuesday or Wednesday. Good thing too, cause I want Friday to come! ^______^ Oh man, with the hot wheather and all, you cannot do your old things, like for moi, trying to skip lunch.. school's lunch that is. By the time School is over, I get all sick and feel like fainting due to the fact it is way beyond hot and I have nada in my tummy. Okay, so I sound like I'm exaggerating here, but it's true. Well, I don't know what work for ya, but that's me. So if I act a lil weird, gimme a lil snack, that would do lol. Anyway, enrichment classes today.. I have computer's and literacy enrich. to make up... 2 whole weeks too.. cause' I was late too their classes, but I did came to school tho. I'ma go stretch or sumthing, do some Morning's exercises hehehe. I love waking up, alive, knowing that someone is missing me ----> my hunn!. Oh yeah, dude... last week was all Badmington for me.. This week was... walking to school.. lol and mad fun too. Badmington, love that game. I mean, my fricking school don't have a team on it and like if they do... which they should, I would be the first one to fricking join... oyyyy, I must be active. Maybe next year, I'ma join some clue, cliques, and teams in school. Just a heads up, but I started on my June's layout and like.. there will be a DARK and a LIGHT version.. isn't that just hot? It is titled as "Summer Metamorphose" meaning "Summer Changes" Blahs... lol, I'ma go now.
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Dude.. look at the last two entry, same time =X.. Anywho.. uhh I just noticed that lol. OMG! What am I doing up at this time? Well, cause' Jessie and I wanted to wake up early.. and so we did... and I went to bed at 2 too! It's ironic.. how I feel so wide awake now... Okay, so I'm kind of sleepy... lol. Well, last night.. I had this weird feeling within me.. like I'm angry or something. I wish to NOT be home. I've finally realized: i rather go to school than stay home; i rather go to work than do nada; i rather busy myself with nonsense than none at all. I don't what's the specific reason is but I have issues. Look, staring at a screen name... okayyyy.. serious problem there. "I need to be" institutionalized or somthing lol. I used to stare at it and smiles, wondering what that person doing, is he or is he not thinking of moi, but now? I'm like... man, is he ignoring me? It's a cruel feeling... lol. As far as I can tell you, AIM's World.. I've lost connection to it as I am to this World, this society. [Dip It Low] Where is F A B O L O U S? He's the main reason I like this song.. lol.. well sorta. I like the beats. Christina Milian, hmmm, accord to Jessie, is a wanna-be Beyonce... lol. She's not bad... just a lil slutish =X. Hey, that's the whole point of this song!
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And ready to go.... I'm so happy! lol Lili cleaned my room and it look A W E S O M E! She separated everything, shoes with/ shoes, belts, shirts, shorts, etc.. IT IS HOT! I'm not that creative lol.. so when I clean my room.. it just look like an original room... you get the image? White wall... a bed... a boombox.. a TV.. and clothes hanging.. hahaha Well, I stayed after school and did all that I was suppose to.. and found out, I'll leaving around June. The date is not given yet. I hope it's not the same week as SciTech's summer school... cause' I wanna get a laptop! Quan told me if you go, you'd get one.. but I don't know.. I wanna get one hehehe and I hafta go to Summer school... for the my 9th grade course that I failed =X... one class... eyyyy, but then I have to talk to my couselor cause' Michelle said I don't have to.. The enrichments classes will cover up the past.. she said.. lol. Loco Fea [crazy & ugly] lol! I like this, getting up and going to school by myself.. so peaceful.. why did I hated it so much back then? Jessie have a doctor appointment, so she's staying home... and Lili, well.. she dropped two of her classes, so she's on her so-called break. I got an A+ in Gray's.. finally a grade I deserved.. I mean, it's heck easy, but I hate talking to that dumb lady, so when she give me a B's... C's... D's.. I don't give... cause' I hate o lecture her. My classmates got all pissed at her for giving me those grades cause' they know I do all my works, but then slow teacher. I say she should get fired. Shanea was so right.
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Hi! sup all? Oyyyy, one good sleep I had, just then the alarm clock stayed ringing. I was going to wake up at 5, but I didn't sleep until like "before" 1 =X. I'll be going to school soon... *sighs* Today, I have to stay after school, go to the after school's program's room... and like get the form.... that lady better be there, cause' I'm not going to waste my time after school for nada. That would so like piss me off! Anyways.. I miss my two froggies.. hehehe. Yep, If you're wondering what I got for my hunni!, lemme tell you. I got him a pair of "lover" [hopefully.. they're not in the same gender.. that would be so Ga-A-ay!] of Albino Clawed Frogs.. They're all so cute. The white bony chick [she's sooo thin and she's pregnant too, adorable!] in the same check out line was all into it and the cashier too. Then that funny lady in American Eagle liked it too... and some other people. Just one "fool" called it's disgusting.. one girlie girl freak lol [don't look at moi!]. I love them! Oh yeah, tip; never go look for present on last mins. I ran allabout the Mall looking for one.. hahaha. I went to this one jewery shop. Lady tried to charged me 51 bucks for some gold chain. I don't even like gold all like that. I prefer silver. Anywho, I lied to her and said, "lemme return these [American Eagle's stuff] and come back" hahaha I never came back! I took the escalator and yoooo! Talk about luck, I ran into this awesome chinese lady and she sell those lime-stone looking good luck necklet. I got two "high quality" ones for my hunn! cause' I love him so much and he deserved it! One is on zodiac. His is a "rabbit." The other one was uhhh some chinese good luck thingy... I forgot what she told me.. but she said something about it bring good fortune, good luck, and so many other good things hahaha I like that lady. She said I was a good gf... of course! I'm going to contact her. She gave me her card and asked me for my name. She only come to the Mall on special occassion... which this time is Mother's Day... her next visit will be on September.. my hunni's birthday month! Dorks, I g2g! lol.
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Hahaha lol, my hunn! and I over here thinking of promises to keep... Good thing cause' promises keep a relationship going <3. Anywho.. today was a blast. Thanks for all that came! lol. Nga couldn't make it, but it's cool =). It's like... moi not attending Quynh's birthday party and I'm sorry.. cause my big sis hafta go to the movie and I couldn't go neither.. reason.. [listed in last entry]... Well... I hope everything will flow evenly this year.. less arguments is what I ask.. and so far, 364 days to go. [lol] My hunn! and I even planned our next year anniversary.. It would be on a MONDAY! Gonna celebrate it on a Saturday tho. Oh yeah, lemme hit you guy with good news... See, smartie kellie here [lol] gonna have a trip to Washington DC (something she intended to do when Summer comes along) ... free! My daddy was like all involved in it lol. Got off from work and asked me if I called that Kim lady... He is actually proud of moi. I mean... I slacked so much and I'm still doing great and I thanks God for such a blessing gift. Plus, I'm a good kid. I deserve it. I did my bad deeds, but I have so many good ones. If sis Ttien is reading this.. hopefully, I get to see ya there and drop by to say hello and greet your parents. That would be so hot! I don't care if I didn't get that dozen roses from Tony.. I mean, he did got it, but due to the fact that today is also Mother's Day, so he ended up giving it to his mom.. and I think that is JUST SO SWEET! I love that in a guy! I love him even more. That is so hot! hehehe.... Here's a poem from my hunni! kinda short, but I can't let it bother me, now would I? <3. [It says our name lol]
Running away is a thing id never do
You are the one that never makes me blue
Under the stars i look into ur eyes
Never again will u date anyother guy
Kel ur the best, believe what i say
Everytime i see u, makes me happy each day
Loving u is what ill always do for the rest of my life
~aT
Well, good night dorks! P.S: this song [everytime] is my sorry for all those times I hurted and bothered my bf... lol *muahs* swt dreams!
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Here's a poem I wrote like weeks ago [lol] dedicated to our anniversary <3. Read the beginning word of e a c h row!
Happy Anniversary!
After one year
Pleasure is a golden hillside,
Passionate and still.
Your bedrooms and your hands are free,
After unshed tears;
Now much of life is tucked away,
No longer touched by will.
In your hearts a wilderness,
Vast and undisturbed,
Empty of all sentiments
Renews the moment's glory.
So may years of tenderness,
Also sung unheard,
Radiant beyond all sense
Yet tell love's ancient story.
Rightful love
You've shown throught so many
Uniques way
Never let this love fades away
Keep the sun shining
Eternally and Forevermore
Love is beyond the way you imagines
HAPPY MOTHER DAY! what you guys got for your moms? I got my mom a "groovy" t-shirt [hahaha]... I'm going to make her breakfast! =) Here's a lil grateful to show for ya mom! Thanks for all the money hehehe and esp the love *muahs*
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