I know that originally this was a one shot surprise fic but now i'm on a roll so gotta run with it. Here's the second part. Please tell me what you think of it

Kisama…how could you do this? You're the monster!

You never even began to show that you loved me, always cold and calculating, my Latin counterpart in a way. Damn you Trowa, damn you for taking my Duo away from me.

The room is suddenly cold, cold because now I know that you were in here about three days ago. I haven't come in here since. That in this room you left me this note, you're the monster. Now the room reeks of you and I can barely stand it.

"Dear Heero, my love, by the time you read this letter he'll be dead and we can start a new life together."

Couldn't you see Trowa? I loved him more then anything. It took me a while to figure that out. After the battle at Brussels I wandered until I found myself here at his apartment. He became the only thing important in my life. From the second he opened the door I realized that my place was with him and that in a way I was reborn. He'd given me life.

"Can you feel the intensity in the room? I know you're excited. Please hurry to me Heero. I'm at the pier."

Trowa, I never knew I made you feel that way. To me I always thought Quatre was your love. You two seemed so right together. He seemed to always bring out the real person for you. While when you and I were together we were like to stones, complimenting each other's hardness and toughness.

"Duo's dead. The war's done. Now the only place left is with me. I'm yours Heero, come and claim me."

Shimatta, Trowa, you always held a special place in my heart. Even when I was with Duo I sometimes remembered you, and I together back in the war days. But those days are gone Trowa.

It was the war and my frustration that brought me to you. You saved my life and took care of me for a whole month. Changing my clothes healing my wounds, feeding me. For the first time in my life there was a person that cared about me.

But once I was healed and the Gundams began to fight OZ again then our relationship progressed. You helped me with my days. Each day handing a gun to a different member of the Noventa family. My life always in their hands. I was sort of worried that if one of them tried to kill me that you'd kill them first.

"Do you remember the nights we shared together? The sweat, and lust, and love we shared?"

I do Trowa. I remember the days in Italy, the days after Antarctica. I remember you, my first. You were so shy and it seemed that I'd found true innocence, bruised and scarred as it was. I held you late into the morning hours, not wanting to let go of you.

It'd always begin in the same way. I'd come home from battle and you'd be waiting for me. Food ready, some days I didn't even take a shower let alone eat the food. I just gruffly took you into the bedroom and let my instincts take over. That's the way many a night would begin, wanton lust and built up emotions, seeking escape into the depths of your body.

But too many times at night despite my training I'd wake up to move over and cuddle up to you. Always giving me warmth. Shimatta Trowa, you were my first, you really showed me what a friend was.

But situations led us apart, and led me to Duo.

I still love him, I'll never stop loving him. Just as you always will be my first he will be my only true love. And you took him away from me. You silenced that ever-flaring spark of life that I loved so much. Even with all the warmth you gave me Trowa, Duo really gave me life.

"If you still love me then come to the pier on Hokuten Street. I know you still love me. We can live a happy life together. I'll be yours just like it used to be during the war. I'll wait here for you Heero, I know you'll come for me."

Yes Trowa. You'll always have a special place in my heart. But I'll never forgive you for killing Duo. I can never forget what that braided baka gave to me that you so selfishly stole. I'll come to the pier for you Trowa. But Trowa, omae o korosu.