| I have a secret. Something that's beginning to hurt me inside. Something that is starting to claw its way out of my throat. I have a secret. And as I sit here in the grass next to you, pretending that everything is ok, I am crying inside myself. I don't know how to tell you. I don't know how... I lied when I said I was ok. I lied when I said I was going to be fine. I have a secret. And it's burning a hole in me. But, oh, how I'm scared to tell you. I'm scared that you won't understand. That you'll use it later as a weapon against me. As a way to rip and tear at my emotions. When you're angry you know just how to hurt me. You touched my shoulder and smiled over at me. Oh. Oh, I don't know how I can stand it. Oh, you. I looked down at my hands, where they rested on my legs. You asked me if I was ok again. I lied and said I was fine. You smiled again and looked up at the stars. I opened my mouth. I licked my lips. I have a secret. You said something about wanting to leave. I cried inside. I rubbed the scars on my arm in discomfort. I had to do this. I can't keep it to myself any longer. If I didn't say it... If I didn't tell you... If I left it at what it is now... It would start to hurt too bad. It would start to eat its way out. It would ruin my life. I bit my lip. It's right here, on the tip of my tongue. I heard you laugh and saw you stand up, brushing the back of your pants off. No. Nonononononono. Not yet. It's right here. Can't you see it? Can't you see it in my eyes? Hear it in my voice? Please. I closed my eyes and stood up to join you. I can't. I have a secret and I just can't. We turned to leave and you walked ahead of me, kicking rocks and sticks out of your way. I have a secret. A secret. ...I love you. The End |
| I Have A Secret by: V |