The ghost
handed her an apple.
“I didn’t
really want it,” the ghost said confidentially, “but Mommy says that apples are
good for you, and I shouldn’t give them back just because some people won’t hand out candy like you’re supposed to.”
Catherine
took the apple gingerly. She was wearing
latex gloves, but she could tell that, even without them, she would have felt
nothing unusual about the apple itself.
The skin looked smooth and flawlessly red, not bruised, not
softened. She handed it to Nick, who bagged
it and examined it through the clear plastic.
His own latex-covered finger moved over the peel and stopped near the
bottom curve.
“Here,” he
said. “I can see a break.”
She moved
closer to take a look. Her hand brushed
against the soft fabric of his jacket, but she didn’t pull away. Yes, closer, she could see the line he was
talking about. Down by the core, there
was a slit in the peel - - nothing that she would have noticed if she hadn’t
been looking. A little slit that looked
as if it could have been accidentally made by someone’s fingernail in the
grocery store. The little gap between
peel and fruit that marked the spot where the apple-giving neighbor had slipped
a razor blade inside the apple itself.
Catherine
made herself smile at the ghost, who tugged off her hood to reveal a lively
seven-year-old girl, a brunette.
Catherine was absurdly glad that the kid wasn’t a blonde - - she didn’t
to see any reflection of her daughter holding up an apple with a deadly prize
like that hidden inside.
“Thanks a
lot,” Catherine said, and she could see Nick nodding in her peripheral
vision. “I’m sure the rest of your candy
is fine, but why don’t you let the officers over there check it out first,
okay?”
The ghost
- - no longer quite so ghostly - - nodded..
“Happy Halloween,” she said cheerfully, and, clutching her plastic
pumpkin basket, scampered over to the two cops by the driveway. Catherine waved at them - - they were both hip-deep
in Hershey bars, and they didn’t look too thrilled about it.
“Remember
trick-or-treating?” Nick asked.
She
nodded. “I used to take garbage bags so
I wouldn’t run out of room.”
“Pillowcases
for me,” Nick said. He lifted the apple
into his vision again and frowned at it.
“Got my share of apples, too.
Always ate them - - there was never anything wrong. We knew all of our neighbors.”
Sometimes,
Catherine thought that Nick grew up in some fairy tale. He always sounded so confident when he talked
about his childhood, as if there were nothing that they could possible be ashamed
of, nothing that needed to be kept secret.
But then she’d remember Nick’s babysitter, and feel ashamed of herself
for thinking like that - - Nick hadn’t had a perfect childhood. Nick was just an optimist.
Besides,
he wasn’t trying to be optimistic right now - - this was just his way of
reflecting on the case.
“We never
knew all our neighbors,” Catherine said.
“My mother made me promise only to eat the hermetically-sealed,
shrink-wrapped candies. No cookies, no
apples, no brownies. And, you know - -
never, ever go into someone’s house
for a treat.”
Nick
smiled. “Suspicious, huh?”
“It’s a
cruel world.” She took the apple from
him and tilted it up to the light. “This
proves it.”
“I don’t
like it anymore than you do,” Nick said, and sighed. “How many of these have we bagged now?” He answered himself before she could check
the figure. “Thirty-seven. Thirty-seven kids with razor blade apples,
and twelve of them already with cuts from taking a bite.”
“At least
it’s just open-and-shut,” she said.
All the
kids in question remembered who had given them the damaged apples, and the cops
who weren’t on candy-inspection had already left to bring the guy in for
questioning. Catherine had chosen to
stay at the scene, not really wanting to meet a creep who’d do something like
that to unsuspecting kids, and Nick, surprisingly, had stayed with her. She’d expected him to attend the officers, if
for no reason other than curiosity, but he’d just shrugged.
“Do you
want me to leave?” he’d asked, and she’d said no.
Sometimes
she wanted Nick never to leave. Like
right now - - she liked the feeling of him standing near her, warm and solid
and comforting. She liked that he never
asked too much and liked that he always knew when she needed him there. And maybe it was going a little bit beyond
liking, even, not that she’d mention it to him.
Nick was
Nick, and she wouldn’t make him Eddie.
She
worried that if she ever brought up the topic, something between them would
change. She worried that they wouldn’t
slip effortlessly between friends and lovers, that somewhere, they would be
caught, and stopped. He would be
different, or she would, and Catherine liked some things to stay the same.
Nick had
always been constant, never temporary.
She’d drifted between men since her divorce, never keeping one for too
long, but Nick had always been there for her to count on, always been
present. Never as a lover, but that was
a close enough name for someone whose shoulder you could always lean on,
someone who noticed when you changed shampoos, and someone who sometimes held
your gaze for a little too long in conversations. Nick had never been a variable. He was something dependable in her life, and
she wasn’t going to risk that on the chance that he might love her, because, if
he didn’t, things would crash down like a tower of blocks, the bottom smoothly
removed.
She took
razor blade apples from two witches and a brightly-colored butterfly, and added
them to the stack by Nick. His hands
brushed against hers as they transported the apples, never for more than a
moment, but it always seemed meaningful.
Intentional.
She just
wasn’t sure whose intent it was.
She
thanked a Harry Potter for his apple and took the last one from a
widely-grinning vampire. Nick touched her
shoulder, and she let herself be steered away from the crowd and into the
relative quiet and darkness at the foot of the drive.
“This case
is bothering you, isn’t he?” he said quietly.
She gave
him a sharp look. “I don’t like it,” she
said. “Neither do you. I saw those kids with their mouths all
cut-up. I heard them crying. You were there.”
“I was
there,” Nick agreed, “and I get that you’re upset about it. I am, too.
But something’s freaking you out a little closer to home.” His eyes narrowed as his thoughts jumped
tracks. “Closer to home - - Catherine,
you live around here, don’t you?”
She
pointed to the east. “Two blocks down.” She brushed her hair back from her face as
one of the night-chilly October winds blew it forward. “Lindsey’s at a Halloween party tonight - - I
mean, she might not have made it down here anyway, but she and her friends have
a pretty wide route. I juts keep
thinking that I might be one of the mothers over there - - holding my
daughter’s hand because she took a big bite out of a razor blade apple.”
“You
wouldn’t have let her,” he said. “I know you, Catherine. And you said it yourself - - you never ate
the apples or anything when you were a kid.
You know better than to trust people in Vegas.”
The person
she trusted most in Vegas was standing directly across from her, looking at her
with dark, serious eyes. She fought down
a not-quite-hysterical laugh and smiled at him.
“I know,”
she said. “It wouldn’t have
happened. But I’m still thinking about
it.”
He nodded,
and brushed his hand over her arm. His
fingers slid over the soft cotton of her blouse, and were gone in an
instant. A fleeting gesture, but he
didn’t look embarrassed about it.
“When do
you go off-shift tonight?” she asked.
Nick
checked his watch. “Ten minutes ago.”
They had
the same schedule, then. No wonder
Grissom had paired them together for the Halloween case. As simple as the investigation was, he must
have realized that they would finish up around the time they could clock
out. She motioned to the bags of apples
resting against the cool asphalt.
“Let’s
hand these over to the cops,” she said, “and phone the lab, tell them we’re
done for the night.”
He didn’t
protest, although she knew he was probably tired. He rubbed at his eyes. “What do you want to do, Cath?”
“Come
over,” she said. “I’ll - - we’ll just
sit up for a while, okay? You’re right,
this has gotten me kind of
frazzled. I just want to wait for
Lindsey to get home, and I don’t want to do my waiting all by myself.” She hoped that that didn’t sound too
pathetic, but thought that it did. “I’ll
make you a sandwich,” she offered, as if the proposition of bologna-and-cheese
would sway him if he didn’t want to be swayed.
“We can eat Oreos and watch I Love
Lucy.”
He
smiled. “You hate that show,” he said.
How had he
figured that one out? Sure, she wasn’t a
fan - - she didn’t like a lot of the older television shows, with their
sweet-as-pie housewives and contrived comic situations, but she didn’t remember
mentioning it to Nick, and then the moment came to her - - almost three months
ago, and then just in passing. They were
pulling a body out of an apartment, and the poor guy had died in the middle of
a Nick at Nite marathon, and she’d just mentioned it while Lucille Ball wailed in
the background.
But he had
remembered that. With the smell of the
rotting body and the case to think about, Nick had somehow stored away the
tidbit that Catherine, in fact, didn’t love
Lucy.
“Okay,”
she said, smiling despite herself, “we’ll watch something on HBO, instead. Something racy, with lots of swearing. A Sopranos
rerun, maybe.”
The two of
them crated the apples in a matter of minutes, and left them to the disgruntled
officers, who were grousing loudly about more
things to do. Normally, it would
have given her enough of a guilt trip to stick around and take them to the lab
herself, but she didn’t want to touch the things again. There was something sinister about how they
looked - - the perfect roundness of shape concealing the blade inside. Apples from the tree of knowledge, with a
truly sour consequence.
Nick
seemed to pick up on her thoughts, and punched one of the cops in the
shoulder. “Cheer up,” he said. “Maybe when you’re done, you’ll get some
Starbursts as a bonus.”
“Everybody’s
a comedian,” the man grumbled as they walked off.
She drove
while Nick called, and she listened to him outline the case to Grissom as she
charted her house out in the middle of the darkness. She had to weave a complex route through the
sea of cars - - all the parents had gravitated towards the area where the cops
were checking the bags of candy, and they all seem to have gravitated in their
SUVs.
“Yeah,
they’ve got him.” Slight pause. “Pretty straightforward, but we’ll do the
follow-up tomorrow. The guy will
probably confess, though. He’d be safer
in a cell than back in his house - - you should see all the angry parents
around here. You’d have me and Cath
covering a lynching next. - -
Right. See you later, Grissom.” He clicked the phone shut in his hand.
“You’re
right,” she said.
“About
what?”
“Him being
safer in a cell. I feel up to some
lynching myself.’
“That’s
why you have me,” Nick said. “I’m
supposed to restrain you from joining any lynch mobs. I only work holidays, though. If you want to hang someone on Arbor Day,
I’ll stop you - - you’re just going to have to wait until there’s nothing going
on.”
He was
trying to perk her up, and she was grateful for it, but she wasn’t really in
the mood. She slid the car into the
drive and parked.
Nick
looked up at the house as they headed for the porch. “I’ve never been here before,” he said,
interested. “It’s pretty. I like your flowers.”
She pushed
the key into the lock. “Yeah, hanging
plants are pretty easy to keep up with.
If I tried to grow tomatoes, I’d be screwed.” She gave the key a jerk, and then pulled at
the handle until the door creaked open.
She apologized for the noise.
“Need some new hinges.”
They ended
up in the kitchen as she made the sandwiches, stacking deli meat and pulling
apart lettuce over the draining board.
He poured glasses of milk for some reason, like they were both kids, and
she had to smile as he set them down carefully on the checkered tablecloth. It looked picture-perfect, like a magazine
illustration. All they needed was a vase
of flowers.
She handed
him his sandwich and sat down across from him, watching the circling lights
from her window. More parents were
heading up to the checking center.
“Think we
should have stayed?” she asked.
He licked
mustard off his finger. “No. We’re done there, Catherine. You didn’t need to stick around any longer
than you had to.” He ran his finger over
the milk-glass until it squeaked on the condensation. “Not everything’s a battle, just proving that
you can do it, you know?”
She kind
of hated how he understood her that well.
“Yeah, I
know,” she said. “It’s just - - I hate
it. I hate that I have to worry about
things like this happening to Lindsey. I
already worry about her going off with strangers, or getting separated from her
group at field trips, and now I have to think about razor blades in her
Halloween candy? I worry about her so
much I think I’m going crazy, and I still can’t protect her from everything.”
Nick
finished his last bite and leaned forward.
“And you’ll never be able to,” he said.
“It’s impossible.”
“I
know. That’s what’s really bothering me,
I guess.”
“You
finally figured out that you’re not infallible?” The teasing smile went a long way towards
diffusing any anger she might have felt at that comment. “You’re human like the rest of us,
Catherine. You can’t keep Lindsey from
the world, and you can’t keep the world from getting to you.”
“I think
about what it would have been like,” she said finally. “Picking up the apple, running it under your
fingers, and biting into the superficial sweetness before you get to the
sharp. Before it cuts your mouth and
blood drops against the peel.”
Nick
didn’t say anything; just nodded. His face
seemed almost expressionless as she told him her thoughts as plainly as she
could.
“I think
about what it would have been like for me,” Catherine continued, “to eat one of
those, but mostly, I think about what it would have been like for Lindsey. To hear her crying and maybe screaming. And I thank God that she was at that party,
and that my mother always taught me that you didn’t take apples or cookies on
Halloween. I know she would’ve been
safe. But I can’t get it out of my head. The sweet, and then the sharp.” She brought her hand to her mouth and touched
her lips, as if to make sure that they were still uncut, not bloodied. “So unexpected.”
Nick
nodded. Holding his sandwich plate, he
walked to her fridge and pulled out an apple.
It was large, spotless, and red.
She hadn’t wanted to touch it, but as he stood on the faded spot of
linoleum, Nick cut it carefully with one of her paring knives, and offered her
a slice.
“You don’t
have to guard against some things, though,” he said. “Some things are sweet all the way down.”
They took
a bite at the same time, and Catherine flinched as the juice hit her tongue,
but nothing cut, nothing wounded. Nick
watched her carefully as he finished his own slice, and then held the plate out
towards her. She took another piece.
“Yeah,”
Catherine said. “Some things are.”
She put
her hand on top of his, and he turned it so he could close his fingers over
hers. That time, he raised the slice of
apple to her lips, and she hesitated.
He
smiled. “Don’t worry, Cath. This is just what it looks like.”
She didn’t
know whether he was talking about the apple or his fingers against her mouth,
and she didn’t ask, because she didn’t care.
She knew that both of them weren’t dangerous, that they were both what
they appeared to be, and that both of them would stay sweet all the way.