A FanFic by Kuroi Tenshi
Date: 03/13/01
Type: Yaoi/1x2/2x1/ Lemon/Rape/Violence/oh and
songfic
Disclaimer: GW belongs to…some people I haven’t
met, and if I met them I wouldn’t know what to say anyways…same goes for Mr.
Reznor, who owns this song (“Where is Everybody”). Um…I don’t know…they’re not
here, I know that much!
Love Letters at: K_Tenshi@gundamwing.org.
Key: songlines
in italics
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He pushes me under and I obey, He sucks on my lip and I can only gasp. He dominates every little movement I could think of, and he guesses before I can move. I budge and I squirm, but he only holds on tighter, harder, closer. With his thumb in my mouth, he breaks my bind and enters my mouth with his tongue, dancing, conquering in a raw and violent attack. The rumbling of the sheets is the loudest thing I can hear. The sound of his moans are the sweetest notes in my ear. My heart is racing, God, why is this happening? Why am I letting this happen again?
The color of the room turns to black and I am
left floating in a sea of rage. Another
kiss, another invasion, another submission. Just hold me.
Just touch me.
Just stop it! Godammit, STOP IT!
I can’t breathe.
I can’t think.
I can’t see.
I can’t see you.
Through my eyes I see myself. You destroyed me,
you took me inside of you. Now I am nothing, just a vessel that I can see
myself destroying with your hands. Your raw, harsh hands. Molding me into a
slave. Into a whore. And now you dig your hands into my chest, pinching,
scratching, drawing my blood. Trying to make me happy. Please. I will show you
what it means to be happy, Heero Yuy.
Did you happen to catch
or did it happen so fast
what you thought would always last
has passed you by
I turn him around, placing myself on top of
him. His eyes jump wildly, trying to figure out how I freed myself from his
almost perfect lock. No. You don’t. I will give you back the happiness you gave
me. Drop by drop.
is everything speeding up
or am I slowing down
I’m just spinning around
and I don't know why
He struggles, but I give him blow to the head,
and he slows down. I turn him on his stomach, and carefully tie his hands to
the bedpost. I grin. Heero, this is what you’ve become. The sweetness of your
blood will return to your mouth. The stinging of my tears will dampen your
eyes. The raging war in my heart will destroy yours. Isn’t this love, Heero?
Isn’t it?
All the pieces don't fit
though I didn't really give a shit
I never wanted to be like you
I stand up and collecting all my might, I give him a kick on his side, making him cough loudly. I stomp on him, once, twice, over and over until I’m jumping on top of him as if he were the bed. He’s coughing up blood before long. I grin, moving closer to his ear, nibbling, biting, sucking, whispering. This is you, Heero. This is you fucking you over.
“No. Stop. No. Duo…”
Say it again, as I break your neck in half,
pulling your hair out of your scalp.
“NO! DUO! STOP! NO!”
But for all I aspire
I am really a liar
and I’m running out of things I can do
I pull my nose to his back. Hmmm…you smell so
good, Heero. You smell like blood. My blood. My life, that you drew out of me.
And now, you lay under me. You cry under me. You die under me.
I’d like to stay
but every day
everything pushes me farther away
if you could show
help me to know
how it's supposed to be
where did it go?
I bite, he moans. I scratch, he groans. I pull
and I tug, and he cries over again. I press my chest drenched with sweat on top
of him, out juices mixing, bathing us in a sea of salt and blood. I lick his
shoulder, playfully first, a bit more daring afterwards. His breathing is
raged, which excites me more, because it’s a delicious mixture of fear and
desire. My eyes flicker and I bite in, hard. He screams out, and I pull out a
chunk of flesh, my lips red and sticky. I lick them, savoring their metallic-like
taste, feeling like honey to me. Ah, Heero…Hee-chan. This is the pleasure that
you so generously provided for so long. My face is wet from the sweat, and with
a soft chuckle, I let is drip into his wound, receiving a wondrous cry in
reply.
“GOD, DUO, YOU’RE INSANE!! STOP IT!!”
Say it again, bastard. I grab his neck and
apply pressure.
“God”
“No”
“Please”
“Stop”
Pleading and
needing and
bleeding and
breeding and
feeding
exceeding
Where is everybody?
trying and
lying
defying
denying
crying and
dying
Where is everybody?
Yeah Heero, where is everybody? Because no one
can save you now.
I lift his hips, and inmediatly he starts
whimpering. It’s not loud, but I can still hear him. Barely. I can only hear my
breathing right now. Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Out. In,
Out, In. That’s what you want, right? That’s what makes you happy. Don’t; worry
love, I will make you happy. Positioning his hips against mine, I look across
from me, at his lovely back, arched in pain and longing, and I get a rushing
desire to make that spine break in ecstasy.
Well okay, enough.
you've had your fun
but come on there has got to be someone
hasn't yet become
so numb
and succumb
“Heero!! HEERO! CAN YOU HEAR ME?!” I yell out.
He struggles to talk, but the mind-breaking pain of my sudden entrance silences
his words. I budge in closer, and we are completely joined. I feel something
land on my head and I look up, to see dozens of flower petals falling from the
ceiling on to us. The bed is a sea, the waves crashing onto us. The sight of
white and red on the sheets just excites me more. More. I thrust in more.
Again, and again and again…It rolls in my mind. Let’s stop pretending. This
isn’t a fucking joke. Heero, this is the truth.
And
Goddamn I am so tired of pretending
wishing I was ending
when all I’m really doing is trying to hide
and keep it inside
fill it with lies
open my eyes?
maybe I wish I could try
“DUO!!! DUO!! NO!!! STOOOOPPP!!! NO, I want MORE. MORE. I’ve never had
anything, Heero don’t take it away from me. You owe me, you owe me this! I
thrust harder and harder, deeper and deeper. I dive as if I want to find his
soul. Our hips joined in perfect rhythm. Our cries in perfect harmony. I can see his swollen erection, pleading for
release. Hell, his entire body is pleading for release. I grin. It hurts
doesn’t it? Life, it hurts. No one ever gave me anything, they just took and
took. I had to take too. I had to take before I had nothing more. All of them,
I will give them what they deserve.
“Save…me..” I hear it escape from his lips.
“Save you? Who’s going to save you?! The people
YOU saved? You think anyone gives a damn about you?! About any of us?! Tell me
Heero! Where are they?! The ever so grateful souls you saved, who should come
for your rescue?!!!”
Pleading and
needing and
bleeding and
breeding
feeding
exceeding
Where is everybody?
trying and
lying
defying
denying
crying and
dying
“TELL ME!!”
WHERE IS EVERYBODY?!!
“Ahhh…” he gasps. The pain muffles his voice,
his throat is hoarse from all the yelling. I see clear droplets fall to the
mattress, and I realize they are tears. I can feel him pressing agaisnt me, in
a steady motion. He wants me to go on. He knows he likes it. I gasp, trying to
catch my breath, my hands drop to his sides and hold him close to me. I use his
hips to thrust even more. A chorus of crying and moaning elevates us as we
approach our sanctuary. Our eternal dance draws to an end, and I turn my gaze
to the ceiling, closing my eyes. I can still see. I see small little flicks of
gold and blue. Little light fairies, which dance all around us. We are but a
single body, soul, in the height of its misery and enlightment.
Pleading
feeding
bleeding
breeding
feeding
exceeding
Where is everybody?
Dance, sing, light is all around us. Heero
draws his head back and screams my name. My eyes open in shock. The world is
suddenly ours. I feel my lungs explode, I’m unable to recognize my voice in the
midst of the frantic screams. Our names mix in the air, and finding that
perfect instant in the small universe within us, we come, at the exact same
time. Every minute, every second, every fraction, exact. Heero sobs into the
covers and I fall onto him, melting with the hot fusion of our bodies. Strands
of hair obtrude my vision. But all I can see anyway are flicks of gold and
blue, dancing in the air, singing the song to our eternal dance. Under, over,
from what I’ve learned its all the same. It doesn’t really matter when you’re
the same person. I open my eyes and I find myself lying next to him, his
fingers running through my hair. I guess he finally decided to free himself
from my bindings. I’ve never been good at tying knots.
Trying
lying
defying
denying
crying and
dying
Where is everybody?
As we
lay together in our messy universe, we decide we don’t really care.
END.
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Author’s notes: I have NO idea why I wrote
this, I was just listening innocently to my NIN CD, I heard the song, images
popped up in my head and voila! It’s unlike me to write rape stuff, but like I
said, the muse took over me, I couldn’t do anything! Oh I feel so violated…;_;
I still like it. I kind of like the psychotic
Duo and Heero. As long as they still love each other, that’s all that matters.
Oh well…
-Kuroi Tenshi =:)
The Full Disclaimer
Shin Kidousenki Gundam Wing is trademark and property of Sunrise,
Bandai, Sotsu Agency, and associated companies. The characters are used without
permission for entertainment purposes and of completely no profit at all.
Original portions of this work belong to the author.