Tears or smiles? What do you choose for Paddy? If you don't like him, stop hurting him!

If you admire him, than show this by respecting him.

He won't change for either of us. We have to change ourselves if we want not to destroy him and make him leave the band.

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On this page you will find two poems written by Paddy. Read them carefully and try to understand the pain all this hysteria causes and the way this fans harm his life.

Free To Be Me

I hold my ears, but I hear it still
I close my eyes, but I see it still
I would like to go away,
Would like to say to them,
That they cause me pain.
I would like to be able to be me,
Free and happy.
But I'm afraid of being alone...
But if I'm alone,
Then I'm free to be me.

* Written by Patrick Kelly 8.16.’96

I live in fear
They don't want to understand me.
They want me like a baby,
But they never really want ME.
They want only the person they see on the stage,
but that is not me.
I try to hide, but they are everywhere.
I'm afraid of their cries,
I'm afraid of their cameras,
I'm afraid of their LOVE.
How can they love me?
I'm not who they think I am.
It's all bullshit,
What they think about me.
They only want the one that I appear to be.
I hate this world,
I hate this life here.
In secret I seek a better place,
Where I won't die.
Why can't I show who I am?
Why doesn't anybody like ME?
Why can't I be like that person on the stage?
So cool and funny,
He's so wonderful,
I like him too.
I like my mask.
I'm afraid of all that,
It leaves deep scars.
The danger is in the air,
I want to hide myself.
But they will find me,
And they will KILL me.

*Written by Paddy Kelly, May 1999

"But the pain is getting far to strong/ And the medicine won't hold it for long/ It's getting closer/ So I'm waiting for someone to come/ To come and take my soul where it belongs" (Calling Heaven)

"I'm going through my crisis, my crisis/ paying prices every day" (Crisis)

"I invented my child of happiness./ I pray to God to fill my emptiness./ Hold on, just hold on./ There is hope, there is hope./ There is hope, there is hope for me now" (Hold On)

"There's a thousand little ladies/ They wanna be my babies/ There's nothing wrong with that/ But I'm not a doll for sale" (Look Up My File)

"Sometimes I still loose my mind/ When life is cruel and unkind/ It's when I suffer I learn" (Thanking Blessed Mary)