ABOUT ME

This is not going to be a well organized piece of writing.  It is going to be random thoughts about me and what I am willing to share with strangers.  But read on, some of  you may be surprised at what I am willing to share.  This will most likely be updated once or twice a week.  This page is a little bit of back ground on me, how my life started and how it was shaped by my up bringing.

Life statrted on July 11th 1973.  I was borne in Sacramento California.  I lived in a small single family home.  My dad and mother were together for about 4 years.  My mother left when I was three years old.  From that day on it was pretty much just my dad and I.  He raised me by himself since then.  My dad pretty much dedicated his life to making mine a happy and healthy one.  He is a very selfless man and I really admire his ability to always be truthful with me.  My father never made me do something he was not willing to do himself and he in no way shape or from is a hipocrite.  I think it is very difficult to be a good parent and maintain a balance between truth and know what is best for your child.  If I asked my dad a question, (ie. premartial sex, drugs, smoking -- he always answered me honestly even though he knew that his past actions were not the best, he was not afraid to admit a mistake he had made in his youth. I lived in the same house for 18 years.  I went to Howe Avenue School for grades K-8.  From there I went to Encina Acadamy for Science and Technology.  A long name for a average school.  Then I was off to college.  I traveled south to San Diego and lived with my grandmother.  I attended San Diego State University, where I received a BS in Chemistry and a minor in math.  This took six years.  For a couple of reasons.  First I had  to wait one year to take a required class.  Also during my third and fourth year in college my grandmother was very ill with cancer and it was up to me to take care of her.  After my grandmothers death I continued to live in her house now my fathers.  My first job was working for a great  non-profit company, "Torrey Pines Institute for Molecular Studies".  I was there for about three years.  The job is enjoyable and the people are good.

OK   Here goes.  Some major events and lessons in my life.  This section will occasionaly be updated.  Check every now and then. Good things.  Being able to choose what I do, and accepting the responsibility for my action or in action.  This may sound like a silly thing to mention, but the truth is, many people live their life feeling like they are not in control.  I do not have that luxury.  I know I am in control and responsible for all that I do.  Part of being human is making mistakes.  It is only from these mistakes that we may learn all that life has to teach us.  Life is the best teacher and I will forever be its pupil. Bad things.  Being young and ignorant which allowed someone to take advantage of me.  But worse of all letting them get away with it.  Watching my father's heart crack in two right in front of me.  All my father wanted was to fall in love and be with that woman for the rest of his life, but what did she do?  She dumped him for another man and now he will be alone for the rest of his life.  Other bad things, having to take care of my dieing grandmother while trying to go to college. Mind you when I say bad things I am talking about hard lessons I had to learn.  Learning is ALWAYS good but sometime the lessons are hard to get through.  The hardest lessons to learn are often the ones that make us see reality versus our dislusion of reality.  I think it is important to know the difference between reality and what we want to believe is reality.  This way we can live in our dislusion but leave it behind when we have to deal with life.  If we always hid behind our dislusion we will get shot from behind because you can never hide from your life.