as i let my hands embrace the night sky, long forgotten memories or wanting you came sweeping past my temples, ransacking my skull in hope to find the pea-sized part of my brain had alloted for you. you were demonic in nature, making me curse the fates for letting you descend the pedestal the carnal minds of other women put up for you.
i had long fancied you eyes, those brown jewels framed to avoid being broken everytime i hurled a cold blank stare, just like your ruby heart that is caged. you were abhorrent to the fact that i was still is like every ordinary girl- sensitive, warfreak, strong, hungry for life and live you failed to show.
i was a fool looking forward on things never bound to happen, those even miracles could not permit. i was too optimistic, finding out later that i was just carried away by my lunatic imagination.
self satisfaction lured men, as my idea of dethroning you from ruling my life killed my feministic side. men are part of this world, and our lives. you were once part of my system.
it's getting dark, and the absence of sunlight captured my sentiments more than what my fantasies could do. i am slowly gaining consciousness and rational thinking. i know you could never be with me, as your face could never fade with time.
the sun dictates life on earth. the moon controls the tides. the stars let those who are afraid of risk-taking peep into the unpredictable future. to me, there were once two choices, a dilemma. it was either to let the heavens rule my life or have it in my hands.
then came you.
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