| Chapter 11 |
| Almost a year had gone by & Howie’s condition never changed once in that time period. Everyone became edgy & worried that he would not make it. There was also small shreds of hope that filled the boys, fans, Howie’s family, & Jessica. They were all shoved out of the hospital from time to time to go home & rest, but to all of them rest was pointless knowing that within one moment the thread of life would be cut & their friend or family member would be gone forever. None of them would have ever thought that Howie would be the one to die in the accident. He was the kindest, most loving soul any of them had met. At the end of the following month, Hoke and Paula felt that it was best that they ended their youngest son’s torment and let him go to heaven away from the loneliness and pain of his mortal existence. They all hoped that Howie would just wake up or give them a sign that he would come back. To them it was hopeless. (Howie’s View) “Are you sure about this Howard,” Amelia asked. “Yes, my family needs me more than my need to end my pain. They lost Caroline & if my mother had to bury me it would make her feel that life isn’t worth living. I may not be the same Howie as I was before, but at least I’ll be there for them.” “Very well Howard. Tomorrow, you will wake up at 11 a.m. to great pain. I hope that you may live a happy life beside all the pain” I nodded my head & soon felt drowsy. I fell into a deep sleep with my family on my mind |
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