| It’s over now. It ended today. I don’t remember who threw the first punch. Was it A.J. or Nick? No, maybe it was Brian. Wait I think it was Kevin, or maybe it was me. Shouting & hitting and anger filled the room at that time, but it is now full of regrets, sadness, & memories of the unpleasant rumble. I remember Nick left first saying he never wanted to see anyone of us again. Then, Kevin left muttering things under his breath. Brian & A.J. left shortly afterwards, leaving me alone in this room. The tour was canceled & I could just picture the tears that streamed down the fan’s faces when MTV gave them the news. There is nothing left for me. My career is over. I have no one to blame for my problems. I just have to get over them & start a new life. On the brighter side of things I can spend time with my family & hopefully settle down & start a family of my own like my brother & sisters did. I keep wondering what my future is going to be like. Everyone knew we weren’t going to be together forever, but I figured that we would have been together for longer than 11 years. I have faith in God & I hope that he will help me out because I am no longer Howie D. of the Backstreet Boys. I am Howard Dorough, the real man. |
