By Matt S. 12/02
When comes the time of life and you know you must change, but you fear it. That time comes towards oneself, ticking. We melt, morph, and drip like plastic falling thru the depths of nothing until it hits that something. That something is love. That something is death. That something is the realization of truth and becoming. A new world has evolved in my mind that I can do anything. I can be where I want to be, what I wanna be, and who I wanna be. Its all mine and nothing can take that away. Not you, not the authorities, not anyone or anything.
Ive risked my mind and my heart with a passion that says whatever happens in the end will be worth the ride. Where’s the passion in prediction? The instability of life has come to an end and then what? If I knew it all id be your maker. But who the fuck cares about answers when you’re young and free and free to be young. Hell, were even free to get sprung, be dumb, and full of cum! Oh I don’t want it to be done. Not yet.
But in the next few years im gonna look at myself in the mirror and think. Shit…..wheres it all gone. Will I be alone like a mouse in a cone I call a house? You think im gonna go call a psychic about it so I can know?
Its quite funny to me you see cuz we go around all our lives looking for these answers, and when we’ve got them were just not satisfied. Well ill tell you what man. No regrets and no lies I gotta jump out these beehives. Im getting stung up in here im getting hurt and its all for nothing right now. Least it seems like.
If I said it once ive said it a hundred times were looking too hard, too long, be strong. Be patient. But u know try tellin that to someone like me who wants instant gratification. Don’t we all?
I get sick of….meeting these people who don’t know their elbow from their ass when it comes to the dept of souls like ours. Yeah like all you fuckers sittin up here. At least youre givin me the chance to tell you how I feel and whether you like it or not you can dig where im comin from and when I say “do you know what I mean?” you actually say yes without being a liar and trying to simply make me feel good. And if you say no its not because youre lost in the words of my passion and intensity. Its cuz you think what im sayin is bullshit but hey at least you’ve got the balls to say so. Youll have SOME sort of input. See now what I got ur mind working again right?
Cuz its been rotted all this time from tv, the latest sales at bloomingdale’s, and checkin out that phat ass to see if it needs a….phat dick…well, im not sayin theres anything wrong with that but first we should be looking into those eyes….to see if they can hypnotize.
Call me a hippy. But maybe if I spread my word far enough for long enough maybe just one person, the right person, will hear, understand, and be changed forever.
I guess its all up to you…but me….i choose to take it for all its worth and run with the wind…