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In the past years I have competed for the crown of Mrs. Kansas America. However this year I have been found questioning myself. Why do I compete? How many people will support me? What do I hope to gain from it? How do I make myself better in order to win? Ouch! Wait a minute, that is not a good question. Should I be changing my core being just to be something that I think the judges will vote for? That goes against everything that I believe in! Be yourself and be true to yourself are important parts of life.
After really thinking about how much this was changing me I decided to step away from this competition. I don't want to be the person who is always trying to be skinnier. Someone who freaks out over every zit and imperfection. Someone who starts to use all kinds of false stuff to present an image that man approves of. God approves of me just the way I am.
I was also asking God about my purity when I realized that by competing I wasn't being pure at all. I had some "falsies" to add some extra "boost." Last year, I even used duct tape to achieve that sought after cleavage. I was not myself and I hated it! I was trying to do everything to get attention, only it was the bad kind of attention. One of my male friends hit it home when he said that he would not be able to come and support me because of the swimsuit competition. I was a part of that and it hurt me.
Now, I'm not saying that beauty pageants are wrong but you have to be very careful as to your motives. Just like everything in life you have to keep God at the center and He should be your focus. When you lose sight of that there is nothing left but despair.
