~Un-Reachable~

Kill this pain,
Sweetly, Softly, Suddenly
Awaken
By all these noises
Screams from no where
Inside the walls
Of my room
Reaches voices
That tell me to get away
Not to feel guilty
Responsible
Anymore.
To let this pain shoved and locked
into me.
Get away!!
Let me love this pain.
Let me suffer.
The way I want.
Keep this hurt rented in my heart.
I can't handle feeling.
Normal
Safe
Happy
I've lived happy free.
How can it change??
It can't
It wont
Down on my knees
I can't pray
I can't bring myself to ask.
Remember I'm the quilty one.
Fault is always mine.
There is no hope.
Not atleast for my soul.
I love the pain to much.
Bring me to that rush.
My drug.
The one that leaves me high.
Same affects
Broken.
Lost.
Brutally happy.
Bring me to my knees.
Make me pray
Make me believe.
I need that release.
MAKE ME SPEAK!!!!!!