I have felt such a blow
No mortal hand wielded the blade
Emotion was my foe
A dagger fashioned from banality
Its touch was burning pain
The dark elixer upon the edge
Now courses through my veins
A serpent writhes within my soul
Devouring all magic and wonder
A jaded, hollow shell remains
My life is torn asunder
Joy will never touch mine eyes
Love, from my soul is barred
Darkness courses through my life
My heart turns cold and hard
Immortal, pure, unblemished
Love
Denied to me
Forever out of reach
Love
What is this thing that is all around
Yet untouchable?
Love
My soul cries out
This joy it would know
But it defies me
Love
Dancing just out of reach
It flutters so close
My soul screames in anguish
WHY?? WHY AM I DENIED?!!?
What is this cruel thing?
Love
How your contenance defies description!
Mere words cannot compare to your radiance
But I must try
Your smile is like soft moonlight
Shining upon your face
Your eyes look upon the world
With a depth no ocean could ever reach
Your touch like a warm breeze
On a summer morn
Laughter lies upon your lips
Making the world joyus around you
Alas, for my poetic ramblings
Are far from your true self
Venus herself grew green with envy
When you came into this world
I have not begun to capture your viage
In a portrait of poetry
But here words fail me
Farewell, my beauty
Farewell
For no one likes a sour face
Don a mask of gaiety
To hide the darkness
For few look within
Few see the anger and passion
That consume my soul
No one knows me
Forbidden are you to show your true face
All must adhere, all must conform
Embracing acceptance by accepting the norm
Why should I be happy? Why should I smile?
Maybe I want to be sad for a while
Leave me alone...Can't you see?
Your happy life dosn't work for me
My tears are dried up and I want to go home
My mind can't take the pain anymore
My soul's been raped and I feel like a whore
Propaganda, soaking in
This is a war I don't think I can win
I've given up, but they're closing still
Like starving wolves mooving in for the kill
Why, oh, why must we be this way?
Dog eat dog, every day?
I can't fight
I can't win
My soul shudders and waits for the end
Fading out of sight
Wrapped in a cloak of bitterness
Becoming one with the night
He wasn't always this way
This figure in the dark
His soul was turned a midnight black
When someone ripped out his heart
"The bitch has maimed me forever!"
This is his anguished cry
His life is now a living hell
And he only wishes to die
"But who is this person?" you ask
Ahhh...but don't you see?
The peson about which you inquire
Is also known as "Me"...
You've always dreamed of?
Sensitive, caring, and kind?
Here I am
Not what you envisioned, is it?
Not quite as handsome or wealthy
As you wanted, am I?
Get away from me
Before I vomit
You don't want anyone like me
You want an asshole who thinks with his dick
And likes to beat you senseless
Don't you?
You want someone who says he loves you
Just to get you into the sack
Someone who will fuck your brains out
Then leave you with a bastard child
Don't you?
That's your kind of man,
Isn't it?
You make me sick
You say you want something
Then you reject it
Why?
Are you stupid?
How can you stand it in that
Happy little make-believe land
That exists in your mind?
How can you live
In that pile of excrement
And self-delusions?
Go, now
Live your plastic, pretend life
Feel safe within your own little world
But don't say you want someone like me
When you don't
Whore
What is it's purpose?
We are playthings
Playthings of the gods
Marionettes on a stage
Powerless
Manipulated
Toys in the hands of divinity
I hate it
Heed the cry from this mortal's heart
I ask of you one thing only
From my life, depart
Your twisted machinations
Have brought me nothing but pain
Have mercy upon a tortured soul
and never look upon it again
That blots out the agony
At once both cruel and kind
My preventer of insanity
But this cure lasts only a short while
Retreating when I need it most
In my head the demons smile
Then descend on their host
What the hell is this about?
What is this inside my brain?
For now the good times are blotted out
And all I remember is the pain
Eveloping, enfolding
I am comfortable there
Accepted
It is beautiful
It hides me from others
From their derision
From there scorn
It is... no....
she... not it
She is beautiful
The Night forgives
The Night forgets
She loves me
And I love her as well
Are you one of the Fae?
I ask this for one simple reason
You've stolen my heart away
For only a creature of magic
Pure, etherial and sublime
Could even hope to capture
This cold hardened heart of mine
Come here, my beauty, come here quick!
You've beguiled me with your charms
And now I only feel complete
Holding you in my arms.
This is what I feel
When I look at humanity
My own species
Is horrifying to behold
Petty angers and rages
Exacerbated, inflamed
Making life a living hell
Why must we be this way?
Welling up from my soul
Threatening to consume me
I have fought it for so long
But not anymore
Now...now I run to greet it
Embracing it with open arms
I no longer care about the concequences
I don't give a damn
My soul is awash in wealth
The halfpence of darkness flood my coffers
Reflecting my hatred of self
The coin of the lovers is a rare one
And a beautiful sight, I'm told
I'd give up my life, and be damned to hell
For one of those coins to hold
For even in eternal torment
That memory could never be taken
I'd hold to it tight, deep through the night
Deep in the land of the Forsaken.
Suppurating, oozing
Infecting my soul
Hatred of who?
Of who?
Why, you, of course.
And those behind you
Beside you
In front of you
All around you
I hate humanity
I see what we could be
Then I look
I look at what we are
Children
Squabbling, whining children
We could make the world
A better place
But we don't
We destroy
Disrupt
Burn
Then fight over the scraps
We invent wonderous new things
Then crush them
Under the weight of bureaucracy
Or with the mighty hammer of religion
We blame others for our stupidity
We take credit for our dumb luck
We are stupid
Stupid
Stupid
Stupid
I hate us
I hate myself for being one of us.
Bloody tears upon the ground
Sadistic glee, all for me
I turn around and try to flee
But I can't run as fast as the gun
Or at least the bullet that has the fun
Lost my sight, blinded by fright
Fire and death scream through the night
Feel the pain within my brain
Down to the ground I go insane
What is this place? Whose is this face?
I find myself in Death's embrace
As shadows creep, I finally sleep
Eneveloped at last in darkness deep.
Devourers of essence
Twisting
Writhing
Consuming my body
And my soul
Ripping
Tearing
Devouring the life they find
A hollow form remains
Sunken
Sallow
Eyes stare upon
A world much the same
Unfettered
Uncaring
No one notices
What has happened
Oblivious
Unmoved
I watch them pass by
I stand alone