| It Wasn't Time Civil Angel '03 { Buffy’s thoughts when telling Spike she was in heaven... } After that horrible shout of pain, everything was silent. The environment was somehow plain. But it was beautiful, absent Then I thought, that it was time. Finally my time for release. My time for eternal sun to shine; nothing but enormous peace. Only once in my life, have I felt so complete. It’s now, after my biggest strife. I no longer have to compete. Can you guess what came first? At first came my tears. Like waves of happiness, it burst. I felt lighter than in years. A piece of heaven was granted for me. It felt like flying. I thought it was meant to be. But again, the world was lying. It was too good to be for real. I must have known it by now. My life is nothing but surreal. It goes right were winds blow. I’m telling this to you and I don’t know why. For me you were nothing but poison. Then well, you know what it is to die, maybe that is my reason. It’s quite funny when you think. You of all the people. You who stole that ring (Amarra), To get a chance to do some...well, evil. The only ones seen me truly weak, are meant to be my enemies. The ones I can truly speak, have already lived few centuries. Why am I given time once more? Destined to continue that half-life of mine? Taking back the mask I wore? It definitely wasn’t time... |