No Guilt

Elisa '03

{ Faith-runo, heti sen jälkeen kun Faith tappoi pormestarin apulaisen }


I'm not proud,
But I did it.
I can't change that,
No matter what I want,
Or what you say.

I know I should feel guilty and bad,
But I don't.
I tried, but I don't.
I know what I did,
And I still don't feel sad,
Maybe it's because,
I don't think it was really my fault,
But a part of me wouldn't mind,
If I did it again..

A thought of that scares me a little,
Do I really not care?
But then again,
Does it really matter?
No.
No it doesn't.
Not to me.

To me,
It's easier this way,
When I don't need
To make things better,
It's easier,
When I don't need
To show that maybe I do feel,
That maybe it hurts.