| To My Beloved Son Raven '03 { Angelin viimeinen puhe Connorille, ennen kuin hän luopui tästä. Käsittelee Connorin syntyä ja elämää… viittaa lopussa ”I Will Remember You” –jaksoon, joka muistuttaa paljon tätä teemaa } A lifetime full of mistakes With no happiness to give My worst sin was not to kill My worst sin was to live We knew we didn’t deserve it But we gave up to the heat It wasn’t about endless love In our hearts that couldn’t beat But nature never cares so much If it’s love or if it’s passion The prophecies of a son came true The one who was born for the mission Always happiness, always misery Always something or the other When you were born, you were beloved It was love that killed your mother Too soon, too fast, too suddenly A vengeance from my past It came, took you away from me The happiness wouldn’t last The day when you returned again I never will forget No sign of love in your eyes, that were mine Nothing of you was left We tried so hard, we gave you all You spat us in the face Beloved son, now a stranger How could I tell you what is your place? I know your blood, I bleed the same But you won’t call me ’father’ You run from me, you hate my name I don’t even know why I bother Maybe because I love you Maybe because you’re still mine Maybe because I’d die for you Maybe loving you so, is my crime Everything I do and say Is everything, you despise Happines doesn’t last forever Happiness comes with a price If giving is the only way Then by God I shall give I never truly had a life But my son, he shall live So this I tell you, for one last time ”Connor, I’ll love you forever” Cause from this day on, you will not me mine And the world will think you were mine never The one good thing I ever did The greatest sacrifice The Oracles would call me a hero I call this a compromise My happiness, for my son’s His memories, for mine I thought that the first time I did this was bad It’s was worse at the second time To watch through that window and see that you smiled Would kill me if I wasn’t glad So glad that you finally found what you seeked Found someone who you could call ’dad’ I killed you, cause I love you Gave you up because I care But the thing that cuts me up inside Is you won’t even know I was there What we were is long forgotten What I had is gone for good Will it still rain in the alley Where you and I once stood? The world will go on without you But nothing will be just the same And you will go on, and you will be loved And you’ll never remember my name. A lifetime full of trying With a son, for whom to live My greatest gift was not to love My greatest gift was To give. |