Too Alive For Me Raven '03 { Tässä runossa Buffy on yhä yhdessä Rileyn kanssa ja selittää Angelille ja Spikelle, miksi haluaa olla suhteessa miehen kanssa, jota ei rakasta. Vai haluaako sittenkään...? } I always thought that love would be Just pain and great desire Too bound to my first misery Too drawn to my last fire I think I never thought of him As my undying lover It’s you I loved, you’ll never die With him I run for cover But he’s the one who makes me feel That I’m like all the others With you I always had to be The girl with vampire lovers He doesn’t see my soul the way You saw when I was with you But he’s the one who I can see You both were never see-through With you I could kill demons With him I just kill time But with you I can’t see the light With him the sun will shine With my first love I gave my heart I thought he’d stay forever But just one problem from the start Make love we could not ever With my evil cure for sorrow I felt the fire burn But there was never love involved His love I did not earn With Riley I could live by day With Riley I could smile But my true heart was never his Not even a little while It’s you I’ve always wanted It’s you I’ll always need But you’re the ones I cannot have The ones I cannot keep Now tell me who’s the one to stay Cause God I’m tired of choosing If everyone will walk away It is me who will end up losing Angel, you were my first love A love, one of a kind Your curse was that you wouldn’t leave Your blood-red past behind Spike, I know you love me But that love I can’t return It’s you who brought the flames of fire But I don’t want to burn Oh Riley how I wanted To be the one for him But he never made me miserable And his love was not a sin So what am I? Just doomed in love? In life, in heat, in gladness Why is it that the ones I want Will bring me only sadness I yearn for those who yearn for blood The ones who make me cry The ones with whom I cannot live The ones who’ll never die Dear Riley, I am sad to say This thing we have can’t be Cause in the end, I think you were Just too alive for me… |