As I stood I saw the looks of happiness

On their faces and wondered

How long its been since I was happy

I wanted to go to them

Hoping it would rub off on me

But something was between us

A door was blocking my way

I wanted to go be with my peers

And be happy like they are

But the door would not move

I tried my hardest to open it

But the door remained shut

As though a tank were barricading

Keeping it from being opened

I kept on till my body was numb

And my face was soaked with tears

The looks of happiness on the other side

Seemed impossible to reach

As I stood I saw the happiness

Drift away into darkness

The door was now a thousand times larger

And I'd given up on opening it

It could not be opened by me

Broken and shut off from the world

I lay exhausted holding my face in my hands

Alone with no hope for being happy again

But then's when I realized

That I'd created this barricade

There was nothing between me and my happiness

Only fear and pain from the past

Once I rid myself of this fear

The door was no longer standing

The darkness was gone

I was with my peers

All along