Soccorro me alguntos por favor!

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I scream inside my head

Yelling at the nothingness,

Completely oblivious

To you

And all your words of comfort.

I wrench away from your touch

And even as I crave some love

I run from yours-

Of which I know I need the most.

I stare blankly into your eyes

Yearning for acceptance

And pleading for your approval,

But turning away

Before you hear me calling.

*

I scream and yell inside my head

Wondering if you do the same.

Wondering if you call for me

And scream as silently as I.

Your words can heal me

Yet now they hurt me

Everything you do goes wrong.

I love you and I hate you for it

I can't seem to comprehend

How minor pains can hurt so bad.

*

I feel as though I’m caught

On a carousel of emotions

Round and round

And up and down,

With the same wordless song

Playing as I twirl

Louder and softer

With every passing of reality.

*

And here I am again,

Caught within my thoughts

Trapped by my defenses.

No one can come in...

Yet even I can't stray

From the insanity

Of my indecision.

*

I run from myself

As I hide from the truth.

And I drift from reality

Into the endless abyss

I scream for help

But silently-for no one seems to hear me

And no one knows to look for me

'cause no one knows I’m gone.

*

Nothing can shed light

Into a hole no one can find.

And as I scream and twirl and fall

No one hears me

No one stops me

No one comes to rescue me.

*

This chaos that insues inside

Never ceases to increase

And the shattered pieces

Once called my heart

Are mutilated further.

*

Soccorro me soccorro me

Alguntos por favor

Help me help me

Some one please

Hear me

Stop me