It’s only when he’s out of Daphne’s car, false bravado loosely held in his hand and watching her drive away, that he starts to shake. He lights a smoke and takes a deep breath and tries to remember why he’s here -- all the things he wants to say to Brian crowding his brain and there’s too many people and it’s loud and the light hurts his eyes and he just wants to run away.

He decides to run to something instead.