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This Is Me |
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My full name is Nadiyah Saheer Cornelia Brown. My first name means Caller, Announcer...which makes perfect sense considering I'm so loud...lol. I was born on May 15, 1986, at 3:33 pm. I have lived in the back woods of Jefferson, South Carolina all my life, with the exception of a few short years when i was little. My daddy ran out on me before I was born, so I grew up without him. It really fucked me up because to this very day I still have abandonment issues. So fellas, take care of your children. You really do impact their lives, whether you're in it or not. I have a younger brother named Michael. There are 13 years between us, and no matter how old he gets, he'll always be my little angel.
Okay, so the quick facts about me are:
Favorite Color: yellow
Favorite Song: Stairway to Heaven, by the O' Jays
Favorite Movie: The Little Mermaid
Favorite Book: None, I just like to read
But that's not the real real reason for this website....it's this....... |
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Do you need prayer?
Please click the link below if you do.
PRAYER |
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Years ago, that feel like yesterday, I was suffering in a world of depression and schizophrenia. The only problem was, no one knew. I was suffering so badly that finally, one day I couldn't take it any more. I thought there was no way out and the only option I had was suicide. I took several bottles of prescription pills. I didn't die though. At the hospital I had to drink 2 bottles of charcoal (suspended in water). Let me tell you, it's nasty. I was committed to a locked psych ward. But it's not like you would think it to be. There were runaways and drug addicts. Other people who tried to kill themselves. People suffering just like I was. I finally saw this as a wake up call. I wasn't alone in this fight. I got a little better and began to cope with my depression and the voices in my head. I got on meds and saw a therapist regularly. But, other things were wrong with me, and they got overlooked. It wasn't until 1 more suicide attempt and 3 separate mental breakdowns, that I was properly diagnosed. As being Bi-Polar (or manic depressive). Suddenly it all made sense. The sleepless nights I spent wandering the house, the overwhelming anxiety over simply crossing the street, high energy and rambling thoughts that caused obnoxious behavior with friends, that led to deep depression spells so bad that I couldn't even find the will to get out of bed in the morning. Oh, and we musn't forget the mood changes...I could go from happy to sad to nervous to totally pissed off and then calm again in a matter of 15 minutes. Sometimes for no reason at all. Now, finally, we had a cause for all of this... I have Bi-Polar Disorder. A new journey began. I started taking a mood stabilizer and got on the right combination of anti-depressants and anti-psychotics. I even graduated high school, something at one point in time I thought I wouldn't be alive to do. In fact, I no longer take one of my medications... improvement is wonderful. A higher education is within my grasp and a successful career and personal life is on the horizon. My final point is this:
Suicide is never the answer. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. That may sound cliche' now, but it's true. I won't lie. It is a long and hard journey to get to a point where you can say "I'm doing better". And it is at that moment that you have to push forward even harder. Beth was my best friend's little sister. She was 14. She was a victim of suicide. And yes, they are victims. They are victims of themselves. Suicide destroys lives. It breaks down families, burdens friends with guilt, and a sick person loses his life. Suicidal thoughts are a disease. But, they are preventable. Talking about it won't make a person want to go do it. That is a myth. Talking about it might actually help that person to know that there are other options out there. If you or someone you know is suicidal please, get help. Before it's too late. Speaking from experience, it's hell to go through it yourself, excruciating to go through it alone, and torture when it's a friend. Please, get help. There will be a trustworthy person out there who will listen, whether you're suffering from suicidal thoughts or depression. |
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For assistance, please call:
1-800-SUICIDE
Or Contact:
Palmetto Baptist Medical Center
1330 Taylor Street
Columbia, South Carolina 29220
Tele: (803) 296-5010
I've actually been on the psych ward at this hospital and trust me, it's good help.
Don't be afraid or embarrassed. You're sick and there are doctors there to help.
Don't be afraid to "rat" out a friend. You may lose the friendship, but at least you won't lose the person.
Thanks for reading (I know it was long...lol).
Good luck &
God Bless. |
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If you want to know more about Bi-Polar Disorder or suicide prevention visit:
www.pendulum.org/
www.bpkids.org/
www.spanusa.org/ |
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