Chapter Ten
After a horrible start, the day was shaping up very nicely.
When
she’d fallen into bed this morning at about 5:00, she’d felt terrible. Drunk or
stoned. She didn’t have enough experience with either one to tell the
difference, if there was one. But she definitely felt like she’d overdosed on
something. She’d felt weak and out of control, which she hated,
and pretty darn sick to her stomach on top of that.
She
should never have gone. Never.
She
should be smarter than that. She was, wasn’t she? Smart? She’d always been 4.0
plus girl, and that hadn’t changed. And she was demon smart, too. She’d been
working with Buffy – the Slayer – for more than five years. So she was pretty
demon savvy. Not just any old demon could pull the wool over Willow Rosenberg’s
eyes. Nosiree. You had to get up preeetty early in the morning…
He’d heard of her.
That
had surprised her, and sent a little thrill of pleasure through her. She
remembered how Buffy had been all kind of ‘Oooh,
Dracula said he’d heard of me’, when they’d met the famous vampire. She’d
thought it was kind of lame at the time, but now she thought she understood how
Buffy had been feeling.
He’d
heard of her.
He’d
seemed so understanding the other night, when they met on the street. Rack. He really seemed to ‘get’ that the others didn’t
understand her, didn’t support her, that she only wanted what was best for
them. He’d told her that was often the case when someone who was meant to have
power started to acquire it. People were wary, they didn’t understand, and
being humans, they tended to want to control what they didn’t understand.
Because they feared it. And if they claimed that their
concerns stemmed from anything other than fear, they lied.
Rack
had explained that when a new power started to bloom in town, there were others
who could sense it, and he’d been sent by one of them. He didn’t go into any
detail about who this mysterious someone was,
referring to him only as ‘The Grey’. ‘The Grey’ had sensed her, had felt her
growing powers, and had sent him, Rack, to check her out. Willow, immersed in
reading ‘The Lord of the Rings’ for the fifth time as prep for the upcoming
film trilogy, had immediately thought of Gandalf, and had envisioned some
elderly wizard, powerful and wise, his robes billowing about him as he decided
to send an emissary to her so that he could learn more about her.
Which was really pretty darn nifty when you thought about it.
Still…
She never should have taken him up on his invitation to visit him, to talk more, and perhaps, to begin and exploration of her power. No matter how understanding he’d been, no matter that he’d known things about her, that he’d… She never should have taken a risk like that. She’d been perfectly well aware that he wasn’t human – he hadn’t tried to hide that – and, well, demons were inherently evil, weren’t they? And a big honkin’ ‘No!’ on the trustworthiness. Even if they did say flattering things about you, and seemed to understand parts of you that your closest friends just didn’t seem to get.
Yeah,
she should have been smarter than that.
And
this was her stupid punishment for taking that stupid chance. Sick, drunk or something, completely out of control. What if she’d acquired some illness and
that’s why she felt so horrible?
And
she’d even let him…
Oh,
god.
Stupid, stupid, stupid girl. Stupid, stupid, stupid…
Even
bemoaning her recklessness, sick and shaking with fear and regret,
When
she woke up at
Powerful.
And
she was. Powerful.
Full.
Of. Power.
She
could practically feel it crackling under her skin. It felt hot and deep and it
was running through her veins, pumping through them, riding her circulatory
system right along with her blood, piggybacking on every corpuscle.
So, yeah, the day way shaping up very nicely, indeed. It was late afternoon now, and the wonderful sense of well being, and the rush of something much deeper – invincibility? omnipotence? – hadn’t dissipated at all. In fact, it seemed to have increased. So had the feelings of power. The nausea and the drunken feelings were completely gone. Her head felt clear, as though she was seeing things from a slightly different vantage point. A stronger place. A higher place.
It was all – amazing. And utterly intoxicating in a totally in control way.
Only
resurrecting Buffy had been a bigger rush than this. That had been the
ultimate, and
It had been worth anything… everything. She would never, could never regret the steps she’d taken, the decisions she’d made in order to save her friend from that terrible fate.
She’d felt power greater than this before – during both the resurrection and the re-ensoulment spell she’d used on Angel. And although this wasn’t as strong, it was, in some ways, more – interesting. It felt different, in a way she couldn’t quite define.
But she knew she liked it.
Oh, yeah. She liked it a lot.
She could almost hear the voices whispering in her head, telling her that this was what she’d been seeking, this was what she needed. What she was made for.
“Someone who was meant to have power,” Rack had said.
“Meant.”
Like – destined.
Her. The sidekick.
Control.
Finally, real control.
Buffy, Giles, Tara. They’d all fallen in line today. Effortlessly.
Suggest to hide-in-her-room-and-don’t-talk-to-anyone Buffy that the housemates have a movie night tonight – just the four of them? Sure. Sounds great, Will. We need to spend a lot more time together.
Deliver
the most basic first draft of the long overdue resurrection spell to Giles
without any of the accompanying documentation he’d been demanding? Thank you,
Smile,
and ask
Oh yeah, this was exactly what she’d been seeking.
And she liked it.
A lot.
Miss
Kitty Fantastico eyed her from her usual perch on the
back of the sofa, wide eyes blinking curiously.
“Hey, Miss Kitty. How are you today?”
The cat
hissed loudly and scrambled to her feet, her back arching in warning.
“Stupid
cat,” she muttered.
~*~
Emily looked up when Dawn entered the shop.
“Hello, dear. How are you?”
“I’m good. You?”
“Swamped with work, and wondering how I can possibly survive through the rest of the holiday season, but otherwise, I’m doing fine!” Emily treated her to her usual warm smile. “Are you Christmas shopping?”
“Please! It cannot be time to Christmas shop yet! I have no money.” There was a faint wail in her voice.
“Then, of course, I’m sure the holidays will wait for you to save up.”
“That would be so cooperative of them,” Dawn smiled. “No, I just need a birthday card for a friend.” Emily always seemed to be in a good mood. It was nice to hang around with someone who didn’t seem to be full of all kinds of emotional ups and downs, which seemed to pretty much describe everyone she knew right now. “You do have the nicest ones in town.”
“We have some great local artists,” Emily said. “I’m extremely fortunate that some of them have agreed to do limited edition or one of a kind cards for me.”
“Oh, I can’t afford the art cards,” Dawn groused. “But the others are nice, too.”
“And how did your art show go?” Emily asked as she continued to open boxes of silk flower stems and fit them into the aluminum flower cans that she used to display them.
“Not bad.” Dawn picked up another card and looked it over. “My charcoal drawing got a first place, and my watercolor a second. The oil painting didn’t even get an honorable mention. I have no idea why Ms. Nimue thought it should be included, but she picked all the pieces, so…”
The school district art show had actually gone
pretty well, considering it was held in the high school gymnasium, which, to
Dawn’s way of thinking, was just asking for trouble. But, if you didn’t count
Spike, who had come with Buffy and
“Not every piece is going to win something, and it’s good for you to experiment in different mediums. But a first and a second! That’s wonderful. I’ve told you before, luv, you have a lot of talent. I hope you stick with it.”
“That is the plan.”
“How’s everything at home?” Emily asked a few minutes later. “Okay?”
Well, if
you don’t count one of the witches I live with putting a spell on me, Spike, my
sister, and my sister’s friends, by
mistake – well, partly anyway – and giving us all amnesia – including
herself... And that one of the results of that seems to be that
“Oh, you know, just the usual. And I’m completely without funds right now. I’m trying to save for a new set of really good brushes. I think I’d be more successful if I didn’t have so many friends with birthdays in the last three months.”
Not too many months ago, Dawn would have been
staking out the art supply store, trying to figure out the best way to smuggle
the coveted brushes out under her jacket. But the whole stealing thing? Sooo
over it. Of course, a lot of that was
due to the fact that Giles had caught her in the act one night toward the end
of the summer. At the Magic Box. It had been one of the most completely
humiliating moments of her life. Even though she figured he’d be cool with it,
she hadn’t even wanted Spike to know. She tried to tell herself it was because
she didn’t want him to know she’d been stealing, but she was kinda afraid it
was really because she didn’t want him to know she’d been caught. And by Giles.
She’d been terrified, too, that Giles would tell the others, but he had told her he wouldn’t tell anyone if she agreed to stop forthwith. She thought that meant right away. He had also docked a dollar an hour from her paycheck for the last three months, as an estimated payback, but he hadn’t even told Anya about that. Dawn didn’t tell him that that wasn’t nearly enough. Guiltily, she tried to work harder while she was there to sort of make up for the rest.
Dawn swallowed, remembering the fear that had
gripped her at the thought of her stealing being revealed to
Dawn pushed away the memory. It hadn’t happened. Giles hadn’t said anything, and the others didn’t know. They weren’t looking at her differently, wondering about her. She was safe. For now. And if she was careful…
Since she’d come back, Buffy seemed to be spending a lot of time with Spike, almost like they were friends now. Dawn was pretty sure that Spike was patrolling with Buffy a lot of the time, they were training together at the Magic Box, and her sister hadn’t raised any objections to him sitting out on the roof every night, either. Maybe…maybe being in heaven had changed some things in her sister, in how she felt, what she thought, in how she thought… Maybe she wasn’t quite so hung up on – stuff – anymore. Maybe she was willing to look more at what people were now, not what they had been…
Dawn gripped the card in her hand so tightly that she creased it. Damn. Now she’d have to buy it, and she’d really liked the other one better. She glanced at Emily, and back at the cards, debating. Emily had been a good friend to her, she really liked her… Dawn sighed, knowing she’d buy the creased card.
Buffy had been treating her a little
differently, too. Lots of times now she even acted like … like maybe like she… liked her or something.
Dawn’s lips twisted, as she reminded herself that she didn’t have any real family. Not real family. You had to be real for that and she…
… wasn’t.
The familiar icy cold feeling – which she’d figured out was about an equal mixture of worry, pain, and sheer, blinding terror – ran through her. She should be used to this by now. It had been happening for months and months, ever since she’d found out she wasn’t real, that she was just some fake thing…
Dawn’s eyes fell closed, and she clenched her
fists. Easy, Dawn, she told herself. Just take it easy. It doesn’t matter where
you start out…
Slowly, Dawn wandered over to the display of Flower Fairies Emily had shown her the first night Spike brought her here. The display was considerably larger and more elaborate than it had been last summer. It had begun to attract a lot of customers, too; people who heard about it, stopped in to see it, and stayed to shop and buy. Dawn loved the enchanted little world Emily had created, and she’d been excited when Emily had asked her for a few suggestions on the display. But when she’d actually asked her to start helping with it… That had been totally ‘Eeek! Wow! Me?’ stuff. Everything in it was sorta delicate, and Dawn liked that Emily didn’t think she was too klutzy to be trusted handling the little fairies or their surroundings.
It was a great place to avoid reality, to lose herself. Sometimes Dawn thought she used it almost like a drug.
She touched a couple of the twiggy vines, adjusting their positions slightly. Gradually, the display started to work its magic on her. Within a few minutes, she had set aside the creased card and her school bag and started making a bigger adjustment to the positioning of one of the fairies. It should be just a bit more hidden, she thought, peeking out through those leaves… there, just like that… Now she needed to get some of that sticky green gummy stuff, and use a little to make sure things didn’t shift around too much…
“Perfect,” Emily said from behind her. “You have a great eye, Dawn.”
Dawn turned her head, smiling. “Thanks. I still can’t believe you let me help with it.”
“I’ve been thinking about that a lot,” Emily said.
“About me helping with the fairies?” Dawn was confused. “Did I, um, mess something up?” Her eyes swept over the large display, looking for problems.
“No,” Emily smiled. “Not at all. It’s just… I know you work at the Magic Box, but I’ve decided I really need to hire some help. At least on Saturdays. You and I get along pretty well, and I know you’re very familiar with the merchandise.” She tipped her head to the side. “I’d like to hire you, but I don’t want my name to be mud with Anya and Mr. Giles. If I’m out of line trying to lure you away from them, just let me know.”
Dawn’s eyes lit up. “Me? Really?” She loved this store, and working here would be great. Not that she disliked the Magic Box or Anya and Giles or anything. But she thought that Enchantment Floral & Gift offered a little more in the way of creativity for her artistic leanings. Or it might, anyway. The fairy display, and the other normal store type displays, and flower arranging, and maybe, just maybe, she could sell some of her drawings, or create some of her own cards. Plus, she really did like Emily a lot.
Dawn had never forgotten that Emily didn’t complete freak or look at her like she was a freak, when she discovered her dead sister was suddenly alive again. She’d tried to give Emily some totally lame excuse that Giles had come up with, blah, blah, blah, mistaken identity, hospitalized up the coast, blah, double blah. It had sounded like something from a soap opera. Did he still watch those? she wondered. But Emily didn’t seem very interested in that part of it. She’d just sorta did this eyebrow-raising thingy, like the reappearance of formerly dead family members was almost boring, or at least happened all the time, and didn’t ask any questions.
And, oh, another good point? Emily liked Spike. Which was kinda weird when you thought about it. She was pretty sure Emily knew what Spike was, even though they’d never actually talked about it, and Emily seemed to treat him like a normal person. Not talking about things came really close to being an art form in Sunnydale. Dawn figured she already had a master’s degree in that particular art. Maybe, since Spike had saved her life, Emily didn’t care that he wasn’t exactly human. Or – er, when it came right down to it, even alive. She’d been kinda surprised that Spike brought her here to visit and hang out, and that he seemed to kinda like Emily, too. Well, maybe ‘like’ wasn’t the right word. But he didn’t completely ignore her, and, for Spike, especially while Buffy had been – gone – that had been saying a lot.
Dawn groaned inwardly. Sometimes, she thought she was a freak, her life was so completely weird. So it was a pretty big deal when she found someone who seemed to know a lot about her and still looked at her like maybe she was okay anyway.
Lots of times, there just seemed to be these
big bouldery, um, rocks – oh, What. Ever. – of
not-normalness sitting around in her life. Not that all of them were bad or
anything. Like Spike. She loved Spike. And she would want him to be a part of
her life no matter what. Even if having a vampire as a sort of brother/best
friend didn’t rate real high on the normal scale. And living with witches? That
was okay, too. Well, most of the time, anyway. Willow had freaked her a little
once in a while in the last few months, but she’d known Willow like, forever,
and figured things would seem easier with her again soon. And
Maybe being normal was waaay overrated.
“Really,” Emily assured her. “I can’t pay a lot, of course. But I’ll do my very best to beat the Magic Box by a dollar or so an hour.” She glanced at Dawn’s eager face. “A dollar fifty an hour more,” she amended. “How does that sound?”
Dawn’s eyes were huge, lit up with excitement. Then she hesitated.
“Um, I’d have to ask Buffy,” she confessed. “And she’d want to meet you and, er – stuff.”
“She’d want to check the place out. Check me out, too, I imagine.” Emily seemed completely understanding. “Bring her by. We’ll talk.” She winked. “See if I pass muster.”
She did understand! Another reason she liked Emily so much.
~*~
Things were going okay.
Buffy looked around quickly, wondering if she’d just committed the dreaded mistake of thinking something positive, which was usually a sure way to bring about instant misery, followed by likely mayhem. Nothing around them changed. The sun kept shining, the giant worm monsters from ‘Tremors’ didn’t explode out of the middle of the street, and nothing jumped out at them from the shops they were walking by. Maybe the jinx thingy only kicked in if you actually spoke out loud.
The list of things going okay was kind of impressive, though. Memory working; check. She and Dawn getting along; check. Tentative re-establishment of Slayer/Watcher bonds underway; check. Former best friend making the wonderful suggestion that the housemates have a movie evening at home tonight to help re-establishment of their strained relationship; check.
Why
hadn’t she thought of that, Buffy wondered? It was such a simple idea, and
perfect really. An easy night at home, just the four of them
–
She,
Why hadn’t she ever tried magic before? Buffy wondered. Hmmm. Good question. She’d have to talk to Giles. Maybe she could learn some spells to kill demons from a distance. Oooh! She’d never have to deal with those pesky blood stains on her clothes again. Major plus.
Dawn seemed to be kind of big on normal
lately. It slipped into conversations on a fairly regular basis. So Buffy
assured Dawn that it was one hundred percent normal for
her to meet Emily. Their mom had wanted to meet Ken and Lauren, the couple who
owned the restaurant Buffy had waitressed at back in
Even now, um, er, lots of years later, she was pretty sure, it still seemed unfair to Buffy that she’d gotten fired for trying to save people’s lives. What was up with that, anyway?
Dawn knew enough about life in Sunnydale to understand that Buffy would be looking for slightly different things in this meeting with Emily than their mom had been looking for when she’d vetted Ken and Lauren. Not – is this an honest person who will treat my sister with respect, but – is this a demon who will try to eat her the first time the moon goes into a new phase? Or even sooner?
This Emily person. Dawn really liked her. But
the things she’d been told about her? Nobody was in that good a mood all the
time. Or was that nice. It reminded her a little of Mayor Wilkins. So checking
Emily Huggins out had definitely taken on a high priority.
She’d considered asking
Buffy frowned.
Anyway, no demon detector necessitated a good old fashioned checking out of this Emily person to see if she had an aversion to sunlight, or kept elaborate and detailed track of the phases of the moon on her calendar, or could unload her delivery truck by lifting the front end and dumping the contents out the open back doors or something else that generally suggested Not. Human. Oh, and if she could get a look in her refrigerator, that would also be helpful.
It would have been handy to be able to bring
Spike along, have him find some way to hit Emily if she thought there was
anything questionable about her. But Emily would probably object to that, and
change her mind about giving Dawn a job, which would make the whole undercover
demon detection visit a waste of time. Spike might not want to chance the
headache either. Besides, Dawn said Spike liked Emily. Spike liking Emily might
be a bit odd, but it wasn’t necessarily reassuring in and of itself. But Spike
trusting her with Dawn was.
The guy was almost scarily protective of her sister, and Buffy had certainly come to believe that his instincts about Dawn were ones she would be wise to follow.
Spike.
Spike.
Oh, god. Spike.
She’d been drowning in him.
Every touch of his hands, his mouth, everything he’d done had been so… perfect. God, the pleasure. The unbelievable, mind-blowing pleasure. The whole night had been so… She’d never experienced anything like it, and she’d been awash in memories of it ever since. She wanted a repeat, and more.
If she could just get him to kiss her breasts again – even that. Her body tightened. He had the most amazing mouth. It did things to her…
And that thumb. Oh. My. God.
He’d been wearing a thumb ring, and it had… Oh. God. Buffy stopped walking, her face flushing. She could feel heat building in her body, tension coiling. She could feel...
“Buffy?”
Pleasure zinged through her body, almost like an orgasmic aftershock.
“Hey, older sister!”
Thumb.
Ring.
And again with the Oh. My. God. and the frissons of pleasure.
“Buffy? You’re not wigging out or anything, are you?”
Buffy focused on her sister. “Um, no, I’m fine.” Her eyes widened guiltily at the hoarseness in her voice. Damn! She cleared her throat. “Fine.”
Dawn didn’t look convinced, but she dropped it, and started prattling on about her new history teacher again. The old teacher had been the first one to mysteriously disappear this year, and seeing as it was already December, the students were duly impressed with this record.
Buffy let her sister’s voice drift over her and away.
She should be more cautious. She knew she should. But she didn’t want to be. At all. Didn’t wanna pull away, pull back, plod along the safe path. She wanted to… She wanted to…
Damn it. What did she want?
Him.
I want him.
But maybe… Maybe she could slow things down a little. Not pull away, but just take a step back. Just a step… He’d understand. She knew he would. Because… Well, because he was Spike. The one who…
The one who knew her.
The one who understood her.
The one who belonged to her.
And she… she…
Oh, god, what? What?
She
knew.
They were going to be together. Sometimes, she could feel it – like a physical thing – a certainty running through her. It unsettled her, that certainty, made her feel restless and nervous. And excited.
Slow. Things. Down.
The whole relationship thing was sooo not her strong suit. And with everything that was going on in her life, the problems and confusion, the aftereffects of dying and being reborn, she knew getting involved with Spike wasn’t the sensible thing to be doing, knew she shouldn’t be making big decisions like this. Getting involved in a – a what? A relationship? That was always a big decision, and with Spike, there were lots of – other – things that should be considered. Extenuating issues, so to speak. And even putting those aside, her track record in relationships sucked big time. 0 for 2. Or 3. Or 4. Or whatever. The important part was the big fat zip, zero, nada in the success column.
And telling everyone? Now that would be a whole heap of ‘I don’t wanna do this’ Buffy fun.
Not only did her track record suck, but, after Angel, she’d been – crippled somehow. Unable or unwilling to lose herself, or, perhaps more importantly, to find herself, in another relationship.
Which led, inevitably, to thoughts of Riley, and a different kind of pain. The pain of failure, of trying so hard to, to make it work, to make it be right. And it just – hadn’t. Been right.
She’d tried to believe their relationship had
been good, had been what she needed, wanted. Something normal. A normal guy.
Human. And that it had been working. But he hadn’t made her forget Angel for a
minute. Well, maybe there hadn’t been much Angel thinkage
during that whole possessed house thing…
Which had been the best sex
they’d ever had. The magically
enhanced sex. She felt kinda guilty and disloyal for even thinking such a
thing, but… Great sex isn’t everything in a relationship, Buffy, she told
herself. That produced more guilt as she remembered how often she’d told
herself that while she was seeing Riley. It’s not that the sex hadn’t been…
nice. Kinda… warm. And he hadn’t gone on a killing spree or turned into a total
poophead, as
When she hadn’t been leaving their bed to hunt
vampires, or he hadn’t been leaving it to get a suck job from one.
Before she died she’d been giving a lot of
thought to her ability to love, so afraid she was losing it… And the whole Riley
thing had been a huge contributing factor in that. Xander had tried to tell her
that she had shut down after Angel, and that she’d been treating Riley like the
rebound guy, when he was the one who came along once in a lifetime.
Well she couldn’t argue that she’d shut down after Angel. She’d known it, never doubted it. She’d loved him so much… Buffy felt the long familiar ache in her chest. Their whole relationship had been so intense, so…
But Riley being the guy who only came only once in a lifetime?
In retrospect, maybe that was a good thing.
Oh god, there was that guilt thing again.
“If what he needs from you just isn't there
- for God's sake, let him go. But if it is? If you can go deeper...
Let him get to know that raw, unguarded heart you tried to put away...
Maybe you'd better risk something too.”
Xander had thought she should beg Riley to stay.
“What am I supposed to do? Beg him to stay?”
“Why wouldn't you? To keep Riley here, you
wouldn't –”
“Why wouldn’t you?”
“Why wouldn’t you?”
And she’d gone, running, crying out into the night sky. Unheard.
So desperate to hold on. To have someone.
To belong to someone, and to have someone who belonged to her. To do what Angel
wanted her to do. Have what Angel wanted her to have. A
normal, human guy. Someone who could take her into the
sun. Even though
she lived in the night. Someone who could give her
children. Even
though she’d never live to see them grow up. Someone, maybe, to help her see herself as normal?
“Why wouldn’t you?”
Because he’s not what I need…
…and because I’m not what he
needs. I‘m not, and I can’t
be.
Things
could be difficult and complex. And sometimes they were just that simple.
For a while she’d thought things were going really well. She’d started opening up to Riley more and more, sharing parts of herself with him. But then something had changed. She’d never been quite certain what it was, but…
Her life was always going to be so complicated, so messy.
Riley had told her more than once that he ‘got’ the whole thing – the Slayer gig, the Buffy package. But for some reason, she’d felt that he didn’t get it – didn’t get it at all. He may have said the right things, but deep down, she’d so often felt like he really wanted her to change, to be different, to be not stronger than him, to be normal.
To not have a complicated, messy life.
To not have her life.
And once the whole Angel thing came up, she knew somewhere inside her that he would never really understand and accept the part the vampire had played in her life; that their relationship would always stick in his craw, to use one of her Grandmother Robinson’s sayings.
“Gotta
say I'm surprised. I didn't
think
“What kind of girl?”
“Into dangerous guys. She seems smarter than that.”
She should have known, then. She should have realized that there were going to be major problems. She was not going to apologize for Angel, not ever, or be made to feel that her love for him had in some way tainted her. And she knew, somehow, that it would have come to that. Eventually. Riley had been a decent guy, but the fact that he had, for so long, completely bought into the Initiative’s methods, should have been a red flag to her. For Riley, the world had been fairly black and white, and Buffy knew that loving Angel had greyed her out more than a little. Perhaps she’d always known, somewhere inside her, that her past with Angel would someday have killed any future with Riley.
She hadn’t remembered them, Buffy realized with a slight sense of surprise. Riley or Angel. Either of them. They’d been among the fade in/fade out parts of her past, lumped in with everyone who wasn’t Dawn or Spike. That fact made her feel a little guilty, a little sad, and maybe…
…maybe just a bit relieved.
“We’re here,” Dawn said, and Buffy broke off her musings to look up at the neat plaque over the door.
Dawn was eyeing her with that ‘just act normal and don’t do or say anything to embarrass me or I will poison your food’ look again as they entered Enchantment Floral and Gift.
Hmm… Enchantment, Buffy thought. Suspicious already.
~*~
They
were laughing.
Spike
was pretty sure he hadn’t heard the housemates laughing together since his
Slayer had been brought back, and he took a moment to savor the sound. Dawn’s
giggle and Buffy’s deeper belly laugh, the one he’d only heard once or twice,
and then by chance, nearly drowned out
He
stepped toward the living room from the kitchen, pausing in the doorway between
the rooms to survey them. Buffy and Dawn were sprawled out on the floor, a bowl
of popcorn between them. As he watched, Dawn pelted her sister with a kernel.
Judging by how many lay on the floor around his girls, this had been going on
for a while.
Spike
frowned slightly. He’d thought the witches were on the outs. Must’ve made up.
“Hey,
Spike!” Dawn called out, gathering more ammunition from the popcorn bowl.
“Wanna help me slaughter Buffy?”
“Ha!
I am the
“I’m
sooo kicking your ass.”
“Are
not.”
“Am.”
“Not.”
“Am.”
“Not.”
“Hi,
Spike.”
“Ladies,”
he nodded, including
“What’s
up?”
“The
usual. New demon in town. Thought the
Buffy
looked up. “Do I hafta?” she pouted.
Spike
eyed her. There was that lip again. “No. I can handle it,” he said evenly. They
looked like they were having a grand time of it. In addition to the popcorn,
evidence of an earlier meal was spread out on the coffee table, and the final
scenes of an old Rex Harrison film – The
Ghost and Mrs. Muir – were flickering across the television screen. His
gaze went around the room, halting abruptly when he met
Locked
on him.
“Would
you like to join us for awhile first?” she asked affably. (( Stay. Sit down. I wanna know if I can make a
vampire laugh. ))
Spike’s
eyes narrowed.
“No
thanks,” he said, his voice cold. “This demon likes to feed on humans. No time
to dilly-dally tonight.”
((( What
I needed to do to keep you the fuck out of my head.)))
“Oh,
well, then,”
“Yeah,”
Buffy agreed, rising to her feet. “Looks like I’m outta here.” She looked at
the others. “You know – sacred duty, yada, yada, yada.”
Dawn’s
face fell at the apparent end to their evening, before her eyes lit up with
hope. “Can I come with?”
“Not
tonight,” Spike refused. “This demon is pretty vicious. Don’t wanna take any
chances with that pretty skin of yours.” He looked at Buffy. “Crossbow, love.
Best to kill this one from a distance if you can. There’s a slime factor.”
“Eeeww.
Thanks for the warning.”
Buffy
retrieved a crossbow and arrows from her weapons chest and handed them to Spike
while she went to get a coat.
Spike
held
“What
are you, my dad?” Dawn grumbled.
(( You
can try. ))
“Hardly.”
((( I’ll do more
than try. I will hunt you until I’m dust. ))) “It’s late. Don’t you have to
work in the morning?”
(( Dust
can be arranged.
))
“Oh!
I got a new job!” Dawn enthused. “I don’t start ‘til next Saturday, but guess
where, Spike?”
His
eyes finally left those of the redhead and focused on the teenager. He stepped
closer to her, reaching out to touch her hair. “Where’s that, pet?”
“With
Emily! You know – Liza! At the flower shop.”
“Yeah?”
he smiled. “You’ll like that.”
“I
know! I can’t wait! And she wanted me – me,
Spike! Even with the whole klutziness issue.”
“You
are not a klutz,” he objected, not for the first time. “You’re jes’ growing into those legs. Bound to take a bit of time.
And of course she wanted you. She’s a smart woman, isn’t she? Bein’ a Brit an’
all.”
Dawn
rolled her eyes. “Right. Ups the base IQ by at least fifty points, doesn’t it?”
“Minimum,”
he agreed, and Dawn snorted.
Buffy
rejoined them. “Ready?” she asked.
“Always,
pet,” he drawled, and took delight in the faint flush that touched her face.
His eyes went back to Dawn. “Go on up to bed now, there’s a good girl.”
“Oh,
Pleeease! ‘There’s a good girl’”, she
mimicked. “Are you shooting for grandfather now?”
“Be
shooting a kick at your arse soon, luv.”
“I
am sooo sure.” Dawn tossed her head. “What. Ever.”
She looked at everyone. “I’m going to bed!” she announced with false
enthusiasm, and
“Good
idea, sweetie.” She stole a sideways glance at her lover, and Dawn rolled her eyes
again, before relenting.
“This
was really fun tonight. Pasta, movie, popcorn wars. Yeah, good times.”
The
housemates smiled in agreement, then, to Spike’s disgust, followed the smiles
with hugs all around.
“Are
you birds quite finished?” he asked. “’m not sure how much longer I can control
my gag reflex.” He didn’t pull away though, when Dawn’s arms closed around him.
He even hugged her back as his eyes met
Spike
suppressed a growl. The Watcher had left late this afternoon on a brief
business trip to
~*~
He
was very quiet, Lorne thought. And he didn’t seem to mingle much. He’d only
seen him exchange greetings with a couple of the other patrons. Usually, he
ordered a drink, sat alone at a table and seemed to enjoy the singers.
He
wasn’t human, but Lorne didn’t know what kind of demon he was. He certainly
looked harmless. Meek, mild mannered, unfailingly polite. Lorne had to admit
his curiosity about the man grew every time he came in. Perhaps it was time to
introduce himself, ask the harmless looking demon some
harmless sounding questions.
The
man looked up as Lorne put a hand on the back of the chair next to him.
“Do
you mind if I join you?”
“I
– why, no, please do.” The corners of his mouth turned up in a perfect little
bow.
Lorne
sat down. “I’m Lorne,” he introduced himself. “The owner here.”
“Bellamy.”
“Welcome
to Caritas. I’ve seen you in here several times in the last few weeks.” Lorne
told him. “I thought it was time to introduce myself, and thank you for your
patronage.”
“And
check me out?”
Lorne
smiled. “That, too.” He paused. “You’re not human…”
“No.
A Daxis-Nocte pixie.” At Lorne’s blank look, he
sighed, giving a small shake of his head. “We’re not very
well known, I’m afraid. There aren’t many of us in this dimension. It
can get a little lonely, so rarely being around your own kind.”
“Sometimes,
it’s a blessing,” Lorne had to add, thinking of his own world, and Bellamy
nodded.
“I
imagine that can be the case, if one is an individualist.”
He
still seemed harmless, Lorne thought. Polite, articulate. Hmmm…
“You
seem to enjoy the singing – especially the karaoke singers.”
“Yes.
I find it fascinating, trying to put a personality with the singers, based on
their choice of song, and their delivery.”
“You
should give it a go.”
Bellamy
blushed a little, and looked down. “Me? On no,” he
shook his head. “I do so enjoy the cabaret, but I’m afraid if I got up on
stage, I would send all your customers scurrying out the nearest exit.”
Lorne
let it go. “Believe me, there have been people on that stage who should never
be allowed to lift their voices in song of any kind.” Even good friends. He
shuddered visibly in remembrance. “Some of them have been up there more than
once. The crowd usually survives.”
“I
wonder why they feel compelled to perform.”
Lorne
shrugged. “It’s show biz.”
Bellamy
laughed softly, and took a sip of his drink. “Well, several of them certainly
exercise my professional interests.” At Lorne’s questioning look, he explained.
“I’m something of a demon psychologist,” he said. “Not really licensed, I’m
afraid,” he added in a self depreciating manner. Could one be? “But I’ve
been talking with various demons for many years, helping them to work out some
of the issues and difficulties of living in a human world. Some species adjust
very well, but for others there’s so much trauma, even great suffering, as they
try to make their way.”
Lorne
had heard of psychologists dealing with the demon populace, of course, though
he’d only ever met one other. The vast majority of demons, leaning toward evil,
didn’t care about adjusting their psyches. But some types of demons did
care, and really needed someone to talk to or to offer guidance. He looked
Bellamy over again. He could sense no evil in the man. He was a little too
self-effacing for Lorne’s more brash style, but he liked him. The pixie made
him feel comfortable. Perhaps that was part of his ‘counselor’ persona. Lorne imaged
it would be an asset.
“I’ll
keep that in mind,” he said. “If I hear of someone who could use an ear to
listen, I’ll give them your name. Do you have a card?”
Bellamy
patted his pockets, then came up with a slightly
crumpled business card. It was plain white, with simple block letters in
unrelieved black. BELLAMY. A phone number. No frills there, either, Lorne
thought.
Lorne
stood, and placed the business card in the inside pocket of his lavender
jacket. “I hope I’ll see you here again. Enjoy the show.”
Bellamy
smiled sweetly. “I always do.”
~*~