04.24.06
you emailed me today
to end a situation
you blew out of proportion
in shock
i stammered and agreed
to your appeals
feeling wronged
that you would think
me little and confused
--that my feelings for you
revolved around our status
(my love was not as petty as that)
so yes, i admit
i had become attached to you
but in my defense
i had done nothing wrong
i had stammered,
had agreed
to your appeals
to keep quiet and casual
and you were fine
for a little while
but then you judged me
with preconceptions
that didn't apply,
if only you had stepped in
and observed first-hand
instead you stood back and waited
for me to assume what was wrong
---
but it's over now--we say
well, it's not as if
i didn't know
it would end up like this
eventually
...in fact, i thought
it had ended
already
please don't assume
i'm offended by anything
that's happened
it really was the wrong time
(for both of us)
to start anything grave
it's just that
i needed you to know
what i was too afraid to tell
now, the loose ends don't need
to be tied up anymore