i want to put it all down on the page for you i want you to understand what i'm thinking and feeling i want you to understand where i'm at i want to construct to tear away to love to hate myself i can see the world in so many colors i see the honesty in its beauty i also see the falacy i see the fakeness in your eyes i see the plastic, the pretend and i can learn to love that too but the coldness in your heart is what brings me to my knees and makes me sob, scream, tear at the sky howling at the moon like some crazed drunken animal i really want to love you but it's so hard when i don't even know myself yet when the mirror changes weekly i'm lost in a plastic universe i can't seem to break free i'm aching for something real i'm screaming for you to hear my cries i'm drowning in a sea of barbiekenkippypunknerdlesbianbisexualstraight labalactiviststudentworkerwomynlabellabellabel label me stamp me put me in your folder with a sticker marked with love and then i will have reached my full potential