Dear Shalom,

I am writing you regarding a matter of an entirely other sphere than my considerable mental health problems ;)

I have always been fascinated by the connection (or my belief in one) between christianity and fae witchcraft. Please allow me to recite to you a excerpt from the magazine, "Christianity Today", and then you can tell me what you think. I think you will agree that it is very compelling literature, whatever one's faith may be:

"It's not a coincidence that two key books of the Bible start by using the same phrase:

Genesis 1:1: "In the beginning God created..." God spoke, and worlds that were not came into being.

John 1:1: In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning." This beginning antedates the Incarnation. It goes beyond and before even the Creation. It is a beginning before all other begininnings. The Greek is simple: "en arche", in the primordial first principle of all things and all times, in the beginning that we can speak of as eternity - in THIS beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and (literally) "God was the Word." In Greek that expression is "pros ton theon (face to face with God).

Now, and this is my point, if this qualifies as christian theosophy which I think the Word does because anything with syntax is a language and anything with logic has a syntax (or as Physics makes quite clear, the laws of the physical world must be the same everywhere). In other words, God or "the divine" is in the physical matter of the world and the motion of that matter. (in this sense time itself is a kind of matter) And, puttng consciousness even into the limited definition of awareness of time, then matter, like us, is conscious. (In physics, time is defined as motion).

Do you see magic in this?

:-) or need I bastardize some Jean_paul Sartre's "Being and nothingness"?

o.k. All consciousness is consciousness OF. This implies that consciousness exists inside an entity which is Not Itself which is, thereby, constitutive of all consciousness.

In other words, and I hope I am correct in assuming you will definitely agree with this, isn't every so called modern organization of knowledge just another version of the Old Religion. to wit, Pantheism (or PanEnTheism for that matter(no pun intended) - or, nothing less than Divine)?

Or in other words, is all this rambling as you say just another way for me to reclaim the love of my mother and father? Shit. Well, now that it's written I will leave it.

If you were smart enought to skip right to the end of this letter (or even if you weren't), best of wishes. Your wise advice still lingers in the deepest part of my being.

Blessed Be,

Landon