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                                                                                    http://blip.tv On search go for Sounds of NYC This is a vlog, the first of which will begin to show how gangstalking works.. When the vlog pops up hit the button on the left, and follow written instructions on the site.

http://blip.tv On search go for Looking for the 12 steps Here is a brief sysnopsis of some of the events which due to the step groups happened to me. 

Pass this on- http://www.oocities.org/rationaldl/AANAHorrorindex.html

This is a call for bright digicam buffs ex steppers to put ideas on mini dv, to be edited for airing on public access cable tv

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survey link http://rationaldl.tripod.com/index.html

We Will Refund Your Misery

After hearing what I heard and having what happened, happen I decided to act, away from the step groups. To be truthful, even some alternative methods of recovery, failed to rise to the task. Not only did they but they also seem to bend to the will of a small town mentality, inregards to any anti step issues, and the way they should be dealt with. Even though they are alternatives. Maybe due to the fact that in small communities, many know each other, and do wish that even their secrets not be told.

I did however contact addictions treatment author, Vincent L Fox and chatted with him occasssionally. I sent him what I could relating to my story. One day I recieved a package with my materials in it and this note. He had sent it all back. I chuckled at his lack of a heading and spelling, because he had written so much, about an alternative to AA, he also sent me every article that he had ever written. I called him right away. He explained his life and stated to me something about, don’t just do it for financial remuneration, and that, “This is for justice.”
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                                      This is a mild story compared to many that I have heard of during ny time with and around the 12 step groups. The main difference is that most of it happened after I got clean, while in and attending the 12 step groups. Much of it perpetrated by steppers, and associates or sympathizers within the supportive services areas surrounding recovery.

The story alleged here, took place in upper New York State. I knowing the 12 step group conscience, and infra structure, of some of its groups, would like to see, the ramifications for these acts, kept within the confines of the geographical area in which it happened, Westchester county. Which now at this time almost seem to be an impossibility. To see the events which happened to me, go unresolved in a Court of law, is a travesty, and only worsens all Recovery, for everyone.

This is a direct and, in perspective of the way it was put, became very profound quote, stated to me, by an NA Yonkers group, 12 step member, in front of witnesses, during a practice meeting, which I chaired, at a drug and alcohol rehab unit, in a hospital. The 12 step slogan, goes something approximately like this:You may leave and have your misery refunded. The term MISERY, in this 12 step instance, is an adaptation of the word. It is a state of mind, relegated to dry drunks, or people on the wagon, free from drink or drug, but without benefit of program.

 Those types are seen as miserable people. MISERABLE: Continuing to do the same things, while expecting different results. This in some 12 step oriented communities, or in 12 step ideology, leads to anger, resentment which is derived from the word reseter. From what I was told, reseter means to reset; to reset anger which, to push the anger button, it will have you out there using again. Which, in their terms means, for certain, death, jail, or other institution. We are told that over and over. There are constant references in all 12 step Recovery literature stating that this is the actual reality, the actual living space, that our minds, are left with, that we have to be stuck in after we get clean. The way my NA speaker that night twisted the words of the 12 step slogan, about our misery being refunded to us, to, “We will refund your misery!”, was a very real threat, made to me in that rehab practice meeting witnessed by patients, by a member of the Yonker’s NA group, and the mind set or, actual group conscience of most 12 steppers, and sympathizers. The rationale being, that the 12 steps saved our lives, and no one dare try to state anything else. Despite court decisions stating that the step groups are religious in nature.

I, after living through two major fires in my building, realized that the firemen saved my life, it doesn’t mean that I have to pay back society, drop everything and become a fireman until the day I die.

They, the 12 steppers, are told that you or I, have to pay back society, for all our wrongs, rather than doing things when and if you can, for the advancement of, others in society, rather than, some unwritten mandatory payback, or else our, or my misery will be refunded. Small terms like the one described above is, exactly what was programmed into my psyche, sentence by sentence during this Cult indoctrination.

It, my way of thinking about the 12 step organizations, started first at meetings, and was continued in a hospital Rehab. at a time when my guard was down, during a time when I was weakened, suffering from long term withdrawal, and in pain after being deprived of sleep for quite some time, and is the beginning of my indoctrination into the whole dogma, rhetoric, and party line, which goes with the 12 steps, as being the bottom and only line in human and addictive behavior, for them. It is the beginnings of indoctrination into cult behavior.

As an organization each group is allowed to govern itself, setting some basic policies, but the 12 steps themselves, and the traditions, never change. The program is taught to everyone, so it becomes the only point of reference which, now that I was sober, had to relate to, about recovery, about being clean and STAYING CLEAN. THEY TOUT THEMSELVES AS THE ULTIMATE EXPERTS. I wasn’t really aware that the step groups are religious conversion programs, and the techniques used are the techniques used in brainwashing cults. The techniques used in Rehabs and the program are exactly that.

We, most of us, getting clean, learn to Identify with this completely just by being absorbed into that community. We know nothing else, and aren’t taught anything else, about addictions, treatment, the human body, the relationship of different narcotics on the brain, and nervous system, we learn to accept just the 12 step version of recovery. As it turns out most town policy makers and drug rehab specialists wish to keep it this way.

The rest of life, and other forms of treatment are out there, swirling all around the 12 step groups. We partake of only certain elements of life when we are active users. It goes along with the territory of being a methadone addict. On a clinic, long term with over prescribed clinical meds. The rest of what we relate to, at least for the hardcore is the life of an addict, and all that goes along with it.

The 12 steps have been the mainstay of treatment, at least in the particular town where I lived, for over 50 years, and of course, even in my family, the 12 steps had for a long time, been looked at with respect, as a kind benevolent helping gentle organization. This was a generation ago.

I basically knew that I, like others went into Drug Rehab thoroughly weakened, which of course I did take the credit for myself. Being weakened, run down, in withdrawal, and tired. I hadn't yet given myself credit for getting clean on my own, and I hadn't really taken the time to examine the methods of harassment used in this town and county in order to literally harass me into that Rehab, then I didn't know that this type of harassment even existed and has a name and is more common in America than I thought. It is a phenomenon called gangstalking..

I had spoken to my sponsor, a bit about what transpired in my building. It was my last sponsor who told me, as a building owner also, that he had ways of harassing tenants also. I didn't believe it. That a landlord could harass anyone, and not get hauled into court.

Even the super across the street was arrested, for threatening tenants.

I didn't know that this was a combined effort, and that members of the 12 steps, some right in the building and police officers and the building staff all knew, so no matter who I SHARED with, it was all kept in house, and that it almost did no good to complain. At first it was like being given one big run around, like being bounced around like a ping pong ball, or just running on the revolving, 12 step rat wheel. The Attorney General’s Office should have been all over this. Instead there were just the usual formal letters, without results. Buck passing and stalling tactics. I tried complaint letters to no avail. Almost everywhere I could turn in this small community, there were recovery affiliations or sympathies. I had to hunt for agencies to lodge complaints with, and some recomended that I file with some sort of housing department. The result was that this complaint didn’t fit the parameters of religion, sexual orientation, race creed or place of national origin. This was just the beginnings of a run around by agencies. One was the ACLU who stated that they didn’t have enough staff to investigate.

When my second to last sponsor said they were going to kill me, I knew something had to be done. That these ghetto freaks, and maintenance personnel who, some of them, came from NYC to live upstate and be in the church connected and politically associated and connected 12 steps were going to try to kill by "MAGIC", a perfect crime?

 What I am referring to now is something which really falls under the heading of electronic harassment, and not really magic. For me there is no MAGIC, only harassment. An intrusion into the unconscious, and the psychiatrists to me are, the equivalent of the Shamans, of today, professionals who delve into the subconscious. To make it simple part of this community targeted me for harassment. The small town motives are obvious. The methods are bizzare!

What was done to me was a method of sleep hypnosis. Hypnosis put into the hands of old lady building superintendents, and an employee from my Rehab hospital’s sleep deprivation and research unit. hot for sex, and anxious to get, power of attorney, from other sick or ailing tenants, who were old or ill enough, and had pension funds. Here now hypnosis was taken out of the hands of professionals and put into the hands of idiots.

The methods or techniques of harassment are as old, as the hills in South America and Africa, an example of one technique would be the signs left , to make an analogy I’ll use the movie, “Gorillas in the Mist” and other individuals do it separately, or a targeted individual's identification, or specifics are, passed on to the next location, where they might travel to, so no matter what group has targeted him, he or they are within striking range of one of them. Both AA and NA do fit the bill, as do the shelter systems of NY. Each of these is a large connected network, and in touch with each other daily, especially those at Ward’s Island (See stabbing article) is connected directly to, especially the shelter systems, to those in Westchester County, NY, White Plains in particular, and further up state in Chester NY, at Camp Laguardia. (See Laguardia needs to be in nyc) Another group which used signs in order to pass messages to others of their order were the hobos, transients, homeless, during the depression era. They would have a set group of drawings, signs left in towns or counties, for the next group who followed. The word is passed, it is as simple as that, nothing new and the same techniques are used here in other forms of harassment. It sounds benign enough maybe at first, but after awhile one realizes he is being deliberately stalked. We see it today with tags left on peoples names.

Today I am dealing with some of the similar groups in NYC, and maybe the relatives of the original group who started with me in White Plains, who came through the system from NYC, transplanted themselves into the Westchester County shelter, and drug rehabilitation system, who I first met in my old building. They AA and all the supportive services which surround recovery, are and have been because of the size and scope of this system entrenched in the county, for at least 50 years,and active on my my first college campus, where the 12 step groups meet, even the maintenance unions are active, and now local area shelter residents are employed, as well as other therapy related staff from this small town, most who are determined to not see this story written, because the step groups are and have been the popular mainstay, of addictions treatment, and where the shelters of NYC, have large moneymaking extensions of their NYC institutions, and now have become a large network devoted to introducing new shelter residents into all the counties of upstate New York, through various social programs.

Upon arriving in NYC, having decided to pursuit more education, after a major fire in my building made me homeless, with my income, I couldn’t find an apartment. So I stayed at several different transient places, while trying to further my education. Several of the places were made famous as institutions in the book “Flophouse”. At one of these places, in Chinatown, after I arrived back there, and (this is what some of those 5x7 cubicles look like) after class, I thought I heard the voice from one of the harassers, from staff in my old building, in White Plains, over twenty miles away, right there out in the hallway.

The next morning on my way to class, I saw a relative of one of, my old building super, her son drive by, as I exited the building probably on his way to work, at or near the UN security guard headquarters, which I believe is housed at the federal building.

It was no coincidence. The message was passed. What a welcome to NYC.This is how it a gang or group stalking works, and is a fairly good example of how the phenomenon, can follow an individual from place to place, for people unfamiliar with the term. I went to the phone book and came up empty, so I called information and asked for my supers son by name, on the street that I saw him on also on my way to another transient place.. His name came up, at the address, on the street, with a phone there, but with an unlisted number. The son was here in NYC, and working downtown, in a heavy duty security job, at a federal building. Another relative of an AA member, I know, who resided in my building resides here in NYC also, in Hell’s kitchen. Many members of this Westchester town, including my second to last sponsor’s CAC friend, also work, and recreate in NYC, every day, and we had already had words about this harassment issue, after a meeting that I chaired, at the same drug rehab hospital, with unit 3, sleep deprivation and research. He was also AA and I used him to speak, at this NA meeting that I chaired, when I couldn’t find a speaker. This man is in the drug counseling business somewhere in the vicinity of 86 St here in NYC daily.

 At every shelter in NYC, the notorious Atlantic Bedford Men’s Shelter, and the Bellvue Men’s Shelter These places look like, smell like, and have the feel of prisons.

This link is a personal story of a resident at Ward’s Island. It shows at least the turmoil which goes on there. Whether or not this residents whole story is true, I can’t say, but I have been there, and have seen in the section entitled abuse by staff, and use of clients as agents of manipulation, on his site some techniques of gang-stalking. I got along reasonably well with most of the staff but found that there is a network amongst staff, capable of tracking an individual, and showed itself to me when I had to go to the Federal Courthouse down at Pearl Street. As I arrived there, my worker from the shelter was there, at the Courthouse, behind the counter with staff. It is clear that there is a heavy population of mentally ill, many with criminal records, housed in those old broken down facilities.

The web sites for these places seem to, try to indicate otherwise, and display a system, with hundreds of outreach housing buildings and organizations, each complete with social services there on site, prepared to deal with all of the many problems of the homeless, and mentally ill. They all have beautifully done web sites also, and the truth is, that this is, what we are dealing with, very nicely done web sites.

The 12 step programs are there on Ward’s also, as is the sobriety floor at Bellvue Men’s Shelter, and the men who hold the NA commitment at, the Atlantic Bedford men’s shelter. Most of the gangstalking which I experienced took place out of the city shelter system.

However, in another shelter, the Belvue Men’s Shelter a man was put in the room with me and another room mate, the new roomie claimed to be from the area where I grew up, also. We spoke a small bit, he and I being about the same age, found one or two common acquaintances, from the area, and my past, he was an addict, so our relationship didn’t go any further. The most notable of those friends being the sons and daughter of, very old and once dear friends of my parents, during my early childhood. Later their mother was a student aid at my highschool.

On campus at the college, now some 40 years later, there was a connection to this man, arriving there at the college by way of one of the vendors, and aconnection through staff and Security staff at the school, and at the bi monthly tag sales put on campus by the student life office.

Later as I headed into Queens NYC, apartment hunting, and to try to visit other family friends from mu home church group, I spotted this man, from the shelter, driving near where I was, followed I another car, by the head of FIT’s security; the security Chief and Security advisor to the College President, wife of the, then NYS Comptroller, who ran for Governor, but who was Comptroller going back as far as my early entrance in to recovery. It was in classes at this institution where everyday, I suffered harassment at the hands of their teachers. Some with admitted connections even into Westchester County, who have mentioned NA members names in class. None of it was coincidence. Much of my harassment has been politically motivated, and centers around much of the big business related to the federally funded ends of recovery, and this states firm position on it. This is the billion dollar supportive services, industries. I believe it is important that the connection to the previous Attorney general’s office and the Comptroller be known. This is the Attorney general who in SMART Recovery literature didn’t like SMART upsetting the state applecart, in regards to recovery. Step oriented recovery is the mainstay of treatment and recieves billions from medicaid each year.

Since then I have found other sites, on alternatives and step group/system harassment like the 12 step coercion watch, eharassment.ca, and more revealed .com, along with sites, devoted to a method of harassment called group, gang or multi stalking.

The Orange Papers, and of course alternative methods of Recovery sites are there to provide support for individuals who have been victims of 12 step harassment, and coercion also. See the 12- step_ coercion_ watch site.  

 The thought of the 12 steps being a CULT, and a dangerous one, not the benign one, as it is listed under cults of Australia on the net, and acting the way other notorious cults do, hadn't occurred to me at all. I not only had been programmed to think the way the 12 step groups do, but the imagery created in my mind by the public relations departments of the 12 step groups, as it is in most people, still thought that it was a bunch of over the hill old ladies sitting in a room telling drunkalogues, or war stories, and wiping the nose of poor drunken souls.

The dictionary defines a cult as: CULT> noun 1 a system of religious worship directed towards a particular figure or object, as in the cult of Apollo. 2. a small religious group regarded as strange or as imposing excessive control over members. 3. something popular or fashionable among a particular section of society This is the cult of Bill Wilson one of AA’s founders.

The definition of a religion is: religion> noun 1. the belief in and worship of a superhuman controlling power, especially a personal God or gods. 2. A particular system of faith and worship 3. A pursuit or interest followed with devotion. The line between a religion and cult seems to be a very thin one. There is a definition here which seems to be a condensed version of others, which describes briefly some of the techniques used by cults, or fanatic groups, to indoctrinate members. Recent court decisions in many states have given the 12 step groups, by using the Establishment Clause of the Constitution’s First Amendment, the status of a religion, thereby starting to negate, many of the collaborative, coercive methods used by some of the supportive services, centering around the law enforcement community, and addictions treatment services, which have forced people into 12 step groups against their will. This starts to expose and helps negate some of the seamy acts perpetrated by thiscollaborative community at large.

This I believe has given rise to, although the techniques might have been in place anyway, a quieter covert way for elements of this step oriented community, to act on individuals which they deem undesirable, without due process or any process at all.

Then it takes on the proportions of vigilantism and revenge, a mob mentality.Harassments may vary in degree of application, form targeted individual to targeted individual. Crank phone calls seem to be one method. This string went on for quite awhile, along with the other types of harassment.They may follow anyone anywhere,and the thing about it is that there are some kinds which won’t even be looked into, at all. Here in 2006, having been at one location for awhile, the calls started happening again, some hangups, after being traced were, explained to me as coming from advertising and marketing firms. Some others more recently haven’t been explained

Finally, as I grew away from all the 12 steps, I was forced to wake up, and realize that I was actually fighting for my life, and health, against a therapeutically based and organized, and connected group of, therapeutic program designing terrorists, a therapeutic Star Chamber, of doctors and other personal, acting at times, if you will, with others in the system. There are also others who don’t like, the religious and politically connected 12 steps, comprised of 12 steppers, and their connections to, and in the supportive services areas, which operate for the dollar profit, but depend on Federal funds and contracts with Federal or State agencies, to receive such Federal monies, right in my home town. In plain English, I am saying that in small towns many therapist and doctors know each other, are on staff together at many of the same hospitals, and collaborate with each other, against other dissenters. This piece at leastshows the names of some doctors which I have dealt with, a simple cross referencing with other webs, and a little research on the reader’s part, of area hospitals will show some connections to each other and to outside therapeutic, rehabilitative agencies, and to college campuses. This is the top and best of the therapeutic supportive services community where the process known as gang-stalking, began to take place. Many of them are connected to each other and to others within AA, NA and the community at large.

Some subordinates of theirs at the time, may not be listed here on the site, but show up in strategic places else where. For instance one physical therapist’s, at Burke Rehab, name doesn’t appear here, but a doctor associated with her and one step above her, appears on my college campus, and they didn’t mind showing themselves to me there either. Some names have been shown here in the links, however since litigation may be involved, and the groups are numerous and large, I felt it necessary to describe the events, actions, and places where it all took place, in order to not persecute innocent individuals or prejudice any litigations which I or others care to bring. The technique is simple. On a day when I have to be on campus she a friend of my physical therapist in physical rehab, just shows up there. She has to be there for a reason. The rest of the figuring out or, research is up to me. The reason might be legit, but the gangstalking and harassment has been going on for awhile so it pays to check, records, only to find her boss holds a post there also and harassment contimues. Her husband, the former patient of my own smoking cessation therapist, and alcoholic CAC, AA member shows up again in my Recovery life. Funny the people you meet in recovery along the way in a small community in a county.

My own former methadone councilor’s wife also appears at this college in a professor’s capacity. Another member of his staff, after many legal, battles with County appears as an author in SMART literature, and is connected to Westchester SMART Recovery, and of course my own therapist at that time. I saw her later at a meeting with SMART director, and other therapists in the area. After the MMTP lost many of its court battles with County, they fired most of their staff including her, without back pay, for the time served there for no salary. I might see this as an ax to grind with them and me.

Contracts, with different state agencies, earn these people their bread and butter, it pays the rent and vacation, and the therapists or drug rehab and aftercare centers, run by boards of directors, with therapists in their employ, stay greedy with the good image which they feel obligated uphold and protect.

The addictions treatment area itself also draws from this, the lowest and seamiest sides of existence. People who enter it, and it is anonymous for that reason, and can stay clean, should feel proud of themselves. They know what their lives were filled with when they were active.. This arena also includes hospitals, and a community of therapists, which treat the addict, who depend on those outside agencies, to survive. They have, service contracts, with government agencies in order to provide services and collect monies as service providers. These services combined including places like churches (who even charge the 12 step groups rent and almost every church in the US has 12 step meetings), hospitals, doctors, therapists, drug Rehabs., aftercare centers, shelters, and even the prison system are a large part of what I will refer to as or what I have defined as: supportive services.

Before my entrance to drug Rehab I had been dealing with some of these therapists, they and their cronies ran rehab units at area hospitals, aftercare centers, and treated addicts, in one form or another for years, not the least of which, was a clinical psychologist, a PhD. who, I saw in person for smoking cessation hypnosis weekly and used his instructional, hypnosis tape recordings, complete with post hypnotic suggestions, at home, between sessions; in an effort to give up smoking, and let some acquaintances of mine listen to this, a waitress, not to mention who ever had access legitimately with a key to my apartment, and be privy to this fact, that I was in smoking cessation hypnotism therapy. I believe they, all of them, are tied in with the hospital Rehab I happened to go to, through several areas, and took part in the actual campaign which I am in the process of writing about.

Smoking, even at that time had, given me extremely serious health problems.Life threatening, and quality of life, threatening, problems to be exact. Self hypnosis tapes, like any other relaxation, or post hypnotic suggestion tape is supposed to be used or administered by a competent therapist, with consent and a licence, in their office, with competent direction .

All health care professionals are supposed to act in a responsible manner, towards their patients, and for some insane reason, maybe it has to do with the kind of medical personnel I was familiar with as a child. I just took it for granted that they all were and were above reproach, at all times. Even though when they were members and staff of my old methadone service provider community, I had seen them all in actions considered by the political and law enforcement community to be less than scrupulous, and they were closed for some of it.

Some of the other therapists in my general community were what I felt were, clinical pill pushers, we when I was addicted along with friends, used the then head of one aftercare center in his private practice for pills, he also had other affiliations with such 12 step oriented Rehab and aftercare programs, some of whose methods have been questionable, and legally questioned for years, and who in a small community, are on staff at different hospitals, and are definitely connected to the drug Rehab business community, and who are, at the least, familiar with each other, if not actually doing business together. It was during the time that I was in this level of treatment that, trouble began for me.

These health care professionals still feel they are elite, and wish to give the impression that they are above reproach, in a middle class community.

Several therapists in my community had gone through their own legal battles, with each other, and with the powers that be, in the community, who oversaw most of the supportive services, which I had previously had to deal with. My own clinic was closed down, after the DEA padlocked the door, and confiscated medication and equipment, and one court battle after another and several of those therapists stayed in the community, some are acquainted with alternative methods of recovery, others stayed in business for themselves, and were adverse in the 12 step style traditions. Some of these stayed in contact with each other. Certain elements of the contract services provider community have resentments about this era today. After they lost the rights to be medicaid service contractors.

I, during the time that I was getting clean, was transferred along with most of their other patients, to a city clinic found my way again on recommendation from my old councilor, to one of these now in private service, state contracted service providers, for the therapy and smoking cessation hypnosis. I noticed a connection between some of that therapists patients, the rooms of AA, meetings which I attended, and an insecure premises for therapy, where building staff or almost anyone could walk in off the street and listen at the door. I even noticed years before, this therapists office partner sitting near us, as we had our morning coffee, and plotted to scheme our way through the day.

His building staff, which included the doormen and maintenance, could listen at his other door. The trouble at first almost always seemed connected with the therapists, and the building that I lived in, with building maintenance being the cause. Now I just couldn’t say that my building maintenance was giving me problems, alone. At first it was as if the events, which were going on between me and the maintenance at my building was passed to my therapist’s office. If a repairman was fixing my apartment door, I’d arrive at therapy, to find my therapist, standing with his maintenance fixing his door. This was nothing radical at least at first, just something to be chalked up to coincidence, and it irked me that things which were going on in my building, were going on being recreated at my therapist’s office. To end this segment, during hypnosis he used a post hypnotic suggestion. I won’t state what it was, but it was similar to, “When you hear a phone ring, you will feel gay.” That did it for me, I did my time in rehab and didn’t go back. I reported him to the office of professional discipline, which deals with Clinical Psychiatrists. The whole complaint isn’t here and the post hypnotic suggestion is best kept confidential. It is on record.

This for me was the beginnings of, learning the techniques of multi stalkers, or gang stalkers, and the topic known as the gang stalk. Something didn’t feel right about the events which were happening to me, but nothing to base any legal action what so ever, on at the time..

It only seemed like landlord harassment, at first and complicity between building maintenance and the therapist, at best. and I complained, to my building agent. All I had was my gut instinct to go on. People who I had trusted for years with my life, life story, drug dealings etc, now were starting not to look so good.

Things like this continued, and as I voiced my opinion or related to my therapist that this was going on, he seemed more smug about it, rather than indignant, angry at me, or even sympathetic to me. I went to the department of buildings after trying to hunt down agencies in White Plains. I filed and was sure that there would be action taken. After a month or two I received my answer. The answer being no action could be taken. Why because it didn’t involve harassment based on religion creed place of national origin, or sexual gender. Had I insisted that the super’s gay friend did it because of his homosexuality I might have gotten over.

This was it the beginnings of my recognition of the techniques used in multi, group or gang stalk. I didn’t even know the name for I until a year or so ago. I didn’t know how to describe it in a coherant manner which would seem to make sense. For the gangstalked, the one word sums it up.The word is staking, period. Then it all makes sense.

I even noticed that one of the main office’s building managers, for my building had an acquaintanceship with a building, in which another acquaintance of mine, from my clinic lived in. During our split with our old clinic, my friend and then running buddy found a syringe in his car in his bible, and had no explanation for how it got there. This is nothing really concrete yet, one of his sons might have been involved with this or the use of his car, but it freaked him out at a time when we were both detoxing. He didn’t make the detox and as I got clean we grew apart. We didn’t hang anymore. I saw him once or twice more, he wasn’t well after this. Later I heard that he passed away. Over the years several more of my acquaintences passed away, some from my small breakfast club. Some friends made a big thing about it. I hesitate to name names here also, and might keep it this way. Much later after I moved to NYC and ended up on Wards’ Island, I might have seen this old running mate, and another member of my old methadone MMTTP. A little while before I thought I had seen another of this breakfast club, alive and well, and have since seen her here in NYC. Always at a distance. I imagine that there is nothing wrong or illegal in passing the word’s through friends that you have passed away. When it hits the street, even the police might not look around anymore, although they might if looking check through other means. Since then I think that I have seen several more. Why here in NYC? The drug market and HIV treatment. I tend to leave it be, and let it rest, until one of the former MMTP patients showed at Ward’s Island and I saw hime speaking with maintenance staff there, who seemed to moonlighting from a day job at FIT, SUNY, NYC. Then over the crisp cool relatively quiet night air I here this old acquaintence’s voice, wafting in, on the breeze.

Other patients of our old clinic started to speak about having similar experiences to mine in the buildings where they lived. Only they had those experiences slightly before I did. One of them, used to hear sounds of machinery coming from in between the walls, of his room in a local Social Services Hotel, diagonally across from my apartment building and he would swear someone had or was, entering his room moving things around. Not stolen just moved around. We, his friends or acquaintances, considered this nonsense at the time.

Another of my therapists patients, and clinic friend, living at a different location, swore that someone entered their apartment, frequently. They either moved items around or even damaged personal belongings, of theirs, as did he. Not one of us made any sense of it either. Why, because it sounded stupid, bazaar, and we were on drugs, period, and used to being hustled around by, and hustling therapists, and each other. They were doctors.

This is part of, what I believe now is part of, a building maintenance technique, for harassment,whether it is on their own, or as part of something larger.

Similar things started happening to me, in the same vein, only more of it, which also made me wonder exactly how long this had been going on, and that I was just too stoned to notice. Did everything that I misplaced in my apartment during the past few years have its root causes in all of this? This is the beginnings, which start doubt, in your own powers of reason and observation. Coincidently, later in my recovery, my sponsor who is a property owner told me that even they, have ways of harassing tenants.

Electronic technology has gone even farther today, in the methods for delivery of subliminal messages, even farther than a therapist, could perpetrate, with electronic media being the means. Noise levels don’t have to be loud to annoy neighbors. One doesn’t have to come home to, hear music blasting from a neighbor’s apartment who they can’t stand, in order to be or feel harassed.

Regular sound technology, as used today, now, can even allow for people to harass and extract revenge at long distances, and it can almost become imperceptible, and difficult to identify and catch. It can almost be below the auditory range of normal hearing. On the previous small recording you can hear the name of the former Westchester County District Arrorney, Jeanine Pirro, along with my own and a nickname. Another nickname for me has been abused by the entertainment industry also and will be looked into. If I haven’t stated this earlier I was losing my infatuation with the step groups around then. But much of the input into my life was due to harassment techniques like this or worse done as I slept. I have come to believe that there were sources both inside and outside of the 12 step recovery area, who didn’t like me, or recovery, and maybe some, who didn’t like me in Recovery where I would eventually reveal my life story, in my written fourth step. All I can say is that I was set up for an accident, which then involved a case of mistaken identity, and someone else was injured, and that it took more than one person to set it up. Naturally recovery doesn’t wish for this story to be told in any form. The Cox case had brought enough adverse publicity to Westchester County Recovery. As this story went unshared outside the group, with not too much said within meetings, except the basics of my experiences, the message was passed through friends and I have been the victim of gang-stalking ever since, being extremely ill, with almost no chance at all for recourse. The neighborhood went nuts.

 I had given my sponsor a carved African Shaman, as a house warming gift for he and his wife. My therapist kept a similar one in his office. This one had white eyes on a black body. When the gang-stalking started, one man a black drove by the apartment building with white under his eyes, similar to the way football players have black reflection block under theirs. One female NA AA member drove by wearing a fake beard, and in the Latin neighborhood I lived in, some young women started to walk by the apartment wearing war paint, like a native American. I found a clothespin doll out in front of the building, and the super reported that a dead cat was found in our basement. People were screaming obscenities directed at me from the street during the middle of the night. There were undeciferable messages left in the lobby on the wall in charcoal. These small things can not be unlessI go back and ask, be substantiated. But the documentation which I have produced is a start, and a help for other step, or gang-stalking victims.

With a true subliminal it can be hidden outside the range of auditory perceptions, behind music, or most any sound. It takes some work, but someone may make a tape or CD, and through a network of friends, have it played somewhere near you, while they sit right in front of you so you hear their voice in the background, talking with someone, yet there they are right in front of you..It is strange but try it. It freaks people out.

The first time that I heard my voice coming from an answering machine, at the home of someone that I never met, was quite an experience. It happened on a canvassing job. All it involved was someone there, calling my home and taping my voice, and playing it back when I came to their house on my route. Try it on a friend, it’s freaky, and is part of the gang-stalking repertoire. On this job things were said at many of the houses that I canvassed, and when running into this technique at first, I didn’t know what it was. As I found connections to both AA and NA, there and in my building I began to put it together. Again this is gang-stalking, and its roots at least with the job are connected to the canvassing group, the town of Yonkers and its NA, and of course with the Hospital’s unit 3 South Sleep deprivation and research employee who lived below me and began her stalking..

 Almost everyone has seen or heard smoking cessation tapes, or personal empowerment tapes, sold in your local health conscious stores, or has heard of large department stores using subliminal messages to prevent shoplifting by staff, or using subliminal messages in theaters to sell candy and pop corn, or even in a Presidential race. SO WE ALL KNOW THAT SUBLIMINALS EXIST. Listen again to the applause track This is an example that someone might not hear or skip over. When dealing with people or large scale harassments it becomes difficult because of the sizes and scope of the groups involved.

Later on, I found this type of thing, or action, was not relegated to the small community, or even the small therapeutic community in which I lived.

A brief look into WEB SITES on Non-Lethal technology, sound technology, sleep hypnosis, and brainwashing, plus some personal experience and some small knowledge of digital electronics gave me, some small answers, on this, and what was happening to me, and how it was done.

How, as a person sleeps, he or she can be told what to say or do, or even what they should think about or feel. To make it simple an individual can be told what images to see or fantasize about during daydreams, at another time of the day. To moderate behavior, against our will, or without our knowledge. People, as most parents find out, can be talked to, or questioned during their sleep. A person’s free associations can be changed, by similar techniques. If a person will not, or can’t be forced to do something which isn’t in his nature, or which is against his will. A person may be told or asked to wear a certain piece of clothing. Once a positive result is seen, then whoever may see fit to continue.

An example would be, I don’t wish to give up smoking, but have to, I like it, and although it is doing me harm I don’t want to let it go. So a hypnotist through suggestion tells you that, the cigarettes you love, will when you light one up, taste fierce and foul, and when it does, you will want to put this foul tasting thing down, right away. My thera[ist’s technique for smoking cessation was different, but it involved positive talk, in hte relaxed hypnotic state. This is simple to understand.

It is possible to change a persons will or free associations. We all know that. As a side note, it has been said that a person wouldn’t do under hypnosis, anything which they ordinarily wouldn’t do. A person wouldn’t ordinarily kill, but if he or she believed someone was out to injure them, they would be operating under a new point of reference. A new integer in their lives, even if imaginary. The possibilities are endless.

I will state that it is possible to rearrange a person’s free associations, in order to put his psyche in another mind-set, then it is possible to get him to do something which he ordinarily wouldn’t do, to act irrationally. In other words through the use of constant suggestion, make a person feel his life is in jeopardy, positively reinforce this suggestion, by any number of techniques, and the subject acting off of this new frame of reference may be made to act in an irrational manner. This doesn’t have to be done in a doctor’s office. It can be done right through a neighbor’s wall.

Now at least I had a starting point, I had found out, enough to start with, in order to be able to put some pieces together, in some sort of logical framework, not only for myself, but because I have seen too many others who have fallen victim, also. Some of those have, according to friends passed away, and others are still unaware and if not confused remain at risk, from outside sources practicing this style harassment.

For awhile I stayed pretty much in the areas around where I lived, but grew farther away from the 12 steps. I was beginning to be isolated from the 12 step groups, by friendships with other people, through, some of the group, who I had let listen to some of my therapists take home tapes, and whose friends, had some dislike of the same therapeutic community which I was involved, the step community, and who, allegedly knew some of the the same group from my drug rehab, hospital. This is a small community, where people know each other, grew up with each other, and now whose sons, daughters, and grandkids grew up with each other. They went to the same schools, worked in the same fields etc.

I started to use an alternative method of Recovery, and enrolled in adult education received a GED, and decided to go to work, and went on to college, without making many of the 12 step meetings. All the time not being aware that a member of my Drug Rehab Hospital staff, from another psychiatric unit had, moved into my building into the apartment below me. That individual was an employee from a, sleep deprivation and research unit.

 What you are reading here is, a story, centered around me and my relationship to, this abusive 12 steporiented, therapeutic, institutional, and educational community connected together, with each other.

They teach step program only. It is not group therapy, although there are places, and times to dump, program rhetoric, the 12 steps and twelve traditions, are the word of the day. Meetings are held in the shelter, and half way houses, and in most churches across the USA..

Part of it is surrender, surrender to a sponsor’s and group’s will, and to not depend on your own will. THIS TYPE OR STYLE WHICH FOCUSES ON CONTROL INSTEAD OF A PERSONAL EMPOWERMENT, OR AWARENESS OF A MORE POSITIVE ATTITUDE IS STEP SPEAK ONLY. IT IS ONLY SEEN IN THE STEP COMMUNITY. IT IS PART OF STEPISM.

It is almost a crime, and an insult to have someone tell you that you or anyone else, “took their will back.” A favorite topic is: one human being taking his will back. Our “thinking was stinking”, so we are not fit to control our lives.

WE all heard the word “WE” used a lot throughout the steps and traditions, the we of the group is first and paramount, above any and all individuality. This is repetitively hammered into everyone, over and over, as cult indoctrination or the 12 step form of remission. They tell you that you suffer from a disease. This is the disease concept of treating addictions. It is meant to help remove guilt. Now we aren’t bad people just sick suffering from the disease..

This is the beginnings of my examination into the cult behavior and methods of recovery. The bizarre events which started to happen to me, and have been described to the best of my ability, fall under the category of a relatively new and defined category of stalking. For many others who have been a target of the step groups or any group, it is confusing, and extremely debilitating, but now has been documented in a book by Richard L Lawson, and is called “GANG STALKING”.. Today People are involved and asking for legislation. I started writing to Congress persons about my case years ago, without many results. Today there is, thanks to staunch advocates, proposed legislation in this area, and in electronic harassment sitting on Senate desks. What makes it extremely difficult is the fact that I belive much of Congress is aware of the electronic harassment situation in the USA. In my case there is some involvement between me, and a one time aid to Congresswoman Nita Anne Lowey. This former aid was involved with acquaintences associated within the drug world, and possibly in recovery also. This involvement has me wondering if there aren’t more connections with them and to the whole of my gangstalking problems and coercion by the overall step community also.

The statements, which I have made here are alleged.

The story here is, not unlike many others, some of which became ground breaking Federal Court cases, some of which, started in Federal Correctional Institutions, and have been used to set precedent, in Federal Courts throughout United States. These winning Federal cases are about, such coercive, and abusive methods used by different agencies connected to many, of supportive services, which treat the addicted. Prisons too, believe it or not are, supportive services of a sort, which violate human and civil rights, surrounding the questionable if not illegal methods of harassment and forced participation, used by this type of a 12 step recovery oriented, community. There has been a different reaction and set of circumstances which go along with the stalking or multistalking, and sound harassment.

Prisons and Departments of parole and probation are often connected to treatment services, social services hotels, aftercare etc. Prison is a familiar place to many recovering alcoholics and addicts.

Even though other people were involved in this harassment campaign they, almost all, were connected to this whole community, some of them finally resented being hustled around and hustling for this type of religious conversion program and community, and they refused to go into treatment or the 12 steps.

 I believe at this point some of those even in and around certain areas of recovery, were the origins of the gang stalking in my life. Acting on ill feelings for me and the 12 steps, I was put in the position of looking like I wasn’t doing the right thing by the step groups. The steppers took over from there and as I moved away from those groups into the State education areas at two state Universities, my harassment and stalking seemed to follow as if passed through a network of friends of Bill W. What I discovered for myself is a large connected network of harassing agencies, some of them steppers, some of them not..

Alternative Methods of Recovery, have been picked apart, by supporters of the 12 steps and I have seen one founder branded a megalomaniac for daring to brand the 12 steps in the manner that he has. He calls it The STATE RELIGION. Which is his and your right. I, in light of what I have discovered call it an active CULT.

I am experiencing most of what he has written about first hand, now, and my ongoing harassment like the 12 step groups has been an ongoing, connected, a politically connected process, for years. To most it would seem that what is happening now to me has no relation to the original harassment, twenty miles and ten years ago, and away. It does, though, directly. If something happens to me I want the connections shown and action taken.

People, I have found, seem to think that AA and NA are organizations that are filled with businessmen or people who go out on a Friday to Friday bender and whose work suffers so much that they have to go to, or end up in AA or NA. It’s about excesses, of the human equation, taken by individuals, to the max, sometimes. This behavior pervades every strata of society, and it is very similar types of behavior, from the sleazball junkie, sex freak prostitute, and pimp, to the highest areas of show business and even in to the halls of Congress, where 12 step meetings are held in the Capital rotunda.

The 12 step’s message is also carried into prisons, and according to an alternative method of recovery’s literature: Then Attorney General of the state, Dennis C Vacco didn’t like these alternative methods of recovery, and their Federal Court cases were upsetting his office’s applecart, in regards to the 12 steps. This was taken and paraphrased from a SMART Recovery news letter

The fact of the matter is also, that, many of the staff members of, the participating social agencies, surrounding the poor and the addicted are, active users now also, of some sort, either drugs or alcohol themselves, but who, for whatever reasons, take on the responsibility for engaging in, coercive, almost covert therapeutically designed methods, by that I mean psychiatric methods, not therapy, but mind games meant to cause emotional distress, rather than an outright overt physical attack, used to coerce. By this I mean that workers are nasty enough to make your records disappear, on a good day. By this I mean, using deliberate acts, usually based on personality profiles gathered over the years, from different areas, including law enforcement records, psycho-therapists, educational records and, even a 12 step program’s, fourth and fifth step or written, and read life story, from which law enforcement, or anyone in or near a human resources, or social services line of businesses, allegedly may try to gather evidence, or pass along evidence or information about you or your friends, illegally, on your past activities, or associates, to be used in a personal terrorization program designed and tailor made just for that individual.

This type of covert politically connected behavior, which I naively thought would be curtailed after the Nixon years, or relegated to the political community, and is worse than dirty politicking, because it involves regular people, would and can be done without: proper written authority, signed release forms, written or verbal consent, search warrants or Miranda rights being observed. Again this would be done in order to trigger negative responses, or to cause someone to act out in anger or confusion, to force an action based on emotional duress, which might then put someone under such duress that they might revert to committing such an illegal activities again, a situation which they ordinarily wouldn’t have participated in, under ordinary circumstances, if treatment had been allowed to continue. In plain English, a set up, with many modes used to attack, a personality in order to try to force errant ex - 12 steppers, back to, some sort of servitude to, and to force others into this form of institutional servitude to: 12 step oriented recovery, or if someone won’t go back, or who might wish to engage in whistle blowing, to, cause them to use again, which to my way of thinking and the 12 steps own indoctrination literature means death when they use.

To my way of thinking, this kind of stalking of individuals connected with recovery is tantamount to attempted murder. This might be as simple as a counselor suggesting or telling someone to work off the books, which can at the least be used for blackmail, or traded upon to law enforcement by that same counselor for any slight or imagined insult. This is another part of this connected hook up, between all groups concerned, Information gathering, or harassment.. Why? Because we were once engaged in anti social acts. Some more heinous than others, and no matter what, need to be kept in line.What better place to find information than in the written fourth step, which is usually the life story of the12 stepper.

In my case now, it is because I am aligned with only alternative methods of recovery and have, now made it a point to present to the public all the garbage which goes on in this arena. One of the first acts of this nature, was, after my first spine surgery which was unsuccessful, to see, as my sponsor and I walked to his car, another vehicle come to an abrupt halt as we neared the corner, a male passenger jumped out of the passengers side of the vehicle, slammed the door, and moved directly towards me in a threatening manner, then just kept on walking past me. There were quite a few incidents a day..

For outsiders or witnesses, looking on it wouldn’t appear as anything unusual happened. This individual ran to the other side of the street, stopped, turned, and walked back to the vehicle. This is only one technique used in the phenomenon called group, gang or multi stalking. Street theater designed to convey a message, while having the appearance of normal behavior. These techniques are used primarily to intimidate, to induce a feeling of fear, anxiety or paranoia.

 I also noticed around the same time that some of my other friends in Recovery, who I recommended to my smoking cessation therapist, were in some trouble, and it came from some of the same areas of this type of therapeutic harassment, which I have just previously mentioned.

It came according to several sources, after they threatened to report a child abuse case, to a child protective agency. To be a little more succinct, these continued deliberate acts of harassment are meant to, cause rises and falls in one’s emotions. To cause them to think and act irrationally. The emotional highs and lows, which most 12 steppers, have been taught to look at as, bad for them, or something to monitor, lest they use again. There is an old saying in the 12 step organizations, it is pounded into you early on. It is that you, yourself, set yourself up to use again weeks before you do.

Many people who do use again don’t come back, literally. I and others are of the opinion that it is in part, the way the 12 step literature is worded itself and is also a contributing factor, which is programmed into you, from the very beginning and tells you that, if you leave us, the 12 steps, you are doomed to use again, and if you use, you are doomed to life in an institution, or death, and the obstinate beliefs of the 12 steppers themselves, and of course the surrounding medical and therapeutic community who treats these people for profit, and their sympathizers in public employ in those areas. All just plain friends of Bill W.

The dangers in using today are self evident., The dangers of the general public, going unawares that this type of behavior goes on today (see the invisible third world war) within the confines of anonyminity, and then passed on to friends is even more evident and dangerous. (I take some net sites with a grain of salt, and I put this link here only to be used as an example).

So many of us believe today, that it is the 12 step group wording which sets you up, to go out and use, just by programming you to, believe that way at first. All that is needed are the triggers, and pressure applied from within and without this 12 step oriented kind of community, and to be honest about it, any kind of community. With a new unexpected twist being added, which involves an actual network, much like any other ordinary network, who can pick up a phone, or two way communications devise, like the police department, or any number of security guard companies two way, hand help broadcasting devices, commonly know as walkie-talkies, or telephones, to communicate miles away from where a person originally lived. This all centers around those social services, and supportive services areas, surrounding Recovery, plus the twelve steppers themselves.

This is the basic theory or premise, which I am basing my allegations on and, These are part of, the acts of:

Refunding Your Misery !

In order for me to be able to describe exactly what happened to me, and make it more clear to the public than just some words on paper; I first, found it necessary to point out exactly who was where, and who did what. To be able to define who, THEY were.

If mind control exists, as stated by Charles Buffe, in “Alcoholics Anonymous, Cult or Cure”, in relation to the 12 steps, and I believe it does, I have come to the opinion that the Webster’s dictionary definition alone, defines the parameters of what the 12 step business organizations, with their surrounding service communities are, a CULT in every sense of the word. I also know now, after listening to many angry individuals, that before speaking out, against a very large, politically connected community like this, who operate off the premise of confidentiality, and anonyminity, it is always wiser for an individual to define exactly who or what you are dealing with, or you might find yourself out on the street, on a soapbox screaming obscenities at everyone, not being able to get a handle on what has gone on behind the scenes. Or why these people would be out to, do you physical harm.

 It now becomes good common sense to start to define, and try to chart who they are and to try to back it up with some hard copy evidence. All to often the word “THEY”, in many peoples conversations, and especially people who have or are involved with the addictions treatment community, seems to be synonymous with “GOVERNMENT”or the police department. The “GOVERNMENT” is out to get me. This sounds all to general and paranoid. But even paranoids have enemies, or so they say. So I found it better to be more specific. I hope this might define it also for others who have difficulty explaining events which fall under the heading of gangstalking.

This for me now, has become a thing to do, an added chore or everyday routine, which shouldn’t be thrust into anyone’s life.

Is it the Federal, City, or State government, which is involved, or is it a private group policy. Maybe a combination of both. For people who feel abused, ask yourself that! Exactly which branch, what department, who is the supervisor, where did it happen and how can I document it, in order to prove that I have actually been abused. One slip of a doctors scalpel can kill you, months down the road. I’ll add one more point of my own, which I feel is the definitive factor, in defining CULT behavior. “THEY”, being a member, or members of the particular group, or groups in question, with ties to the community in question, acting in concert, within each separate community, with ties to other like minded communities, will come after you.

 For the public, however, it might be you, the average citizen or 12 step members who might be able to also see the common sense in a statement, like this, or be familiar with some of the events which I have outlined here, and might respond to a request for first hand information based on the events depicted here, in order that justice might be served.

 A group of therapists word, under a protective cloth of confidentiality, if they chose, probably could and would stand a better chance in a court of law, than your average user or ex users word, at least up front. So if undocumented abuses happen, and no action is taken, or therapists lie, who stands to look the stupidest? Did I say stupidest? Until one starts to unravel and present the facts.

The question is here: Who would seem to have the most credibility? This isn’t even taking into account, or giving a motive for their actions. This is just going on the premise that abuses happen, and the medical community will lie about it. In a therapy oriented community, where therapists do enjoy that privilege of confidentiality, each of whom are on staff at many different hospitals, who in a community know each other, who have been in a so called position of responsibility in the community for years, but whose methods border on illegalities, with reputations they do not want tarnished, and who are backed by law enforcement, to a degree, can almost operate in secrecy, to carry out by almost any means, illegal or otherwise, activity which could include injury, break ins, harassments, and even more gross violations of civil rights, all the whileacting with the collusion of, most of the health care community at large, not just the anonymous insiders who participate in the 12 step loony bin, where over the years the loonies actually got to take over and run the whole asylum, and with their nasty attitudes run it this way.

If this type of behavior does go on, it would turn out to be premeditated and deliberate acts which caused injury at that, and the people singled out for whatever reason, would never know what hit ̃em, because it is all dealt with in house, and done over an extended period of time. I had to ask, whose house did he mean, when he started talking about in house medical rehabilitation problem. Here I reported, a private apartment building, harassment infraction, by its staff and a staff member of a local hospital. This was plain tenant harassment. And this commissioner is talking about, “IN HOUSE MEDICAL PROBLEMS” I can only surmise that he was talking about the overall situation with the community and its recovery backed operations. What else could it be?

This is the cloak which these people hide behind, and this is the premise upon which I will base my presentations to you, the general public. ANONYMINITY, and coverup. If it happened to me it can happen to you.

 Over thirty years ago, as a patient at this hospital, at which I spent time on a ward for addictions treatment, only to return thirty years later for a 12 step oriented drug rehab.

 At the height of the counter culture revolution, of the 1960's, I heard a psychiatrist from the only drug rehab hospital that I was in, chastise a woman, who would not speak out during our group therapy. He literally browbeat her with the argument, that her lack of interest in sharing her life and problems with the group, was actually based on the criminal code of“Omerta” (silence). After living through what I consider therapeutic harassment and terrorism, involving staff of that very same place, and their coverup of all the facts about those events, I am pleased to say that this is what this 12 step oriented community was and is about. SILENCE!

This type of behavior was and is not exclusive of small towns, local law enforcement, and a good amount of the actual community of therapists, which include ALCOHOL COUNSELORS drawn right from the hard core ranks of the rehabilitated, who worked their way through the ranks, and found their spots in the therapeutic community, and I am of the opinion that if they hadn't found their spots working there they wouldn't be able to be employed anywhere else or by anyone else.

This type of group has been known to: include Clinical Psychologists, Psychiatrists, MD's, Dentists, and teachers, and even sociologists who deal with the poor and addicted and, this also includes the kinds of places which house and feed the poor and addicted, and also, the places where 12 steps rent their space, such as churches and church groups . In other words these are all the groups sympathetic to the 12 step organizations, and who also have seen fit to try and upgrade the lifestyles of.. which is a noble thought, until you look closer at what you are dealing with and methods used by the therapeutic community.

This is the “THEY and WHO” of notoriety, who are mentioned so often in casual conversation, as inTHEY are out to get me, by paranoids, conspiracy buffs, and husbands going through a divorce.

SO...

.........HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO FOR YOUR SOBRIETY.........

This is a common slogan type, phrase used in AA and the Drug Rehab circuit. This question was put to me as I neared my discharge from Rehab. Lack of sobriety wrecked your life and this sobriety is the number one thing in your life now, exactly what would you do to keep this. Will you completely surrender to their version of 12 step teachings? Stayed in control is the operative word here. CONTROL, which was important enough to hospital staff, for them to make notes. It is pure step speak only. It denotes lack of the willingness to surrender, even when I already had the important sponsor, other members of the thersaapeutic community insisted on going against him and recovery’s own teachings.. Since I had a sponsor, it was clear that I had surrendered, already. These old stubborn arrogant old AA women CACs just wanted it their way, and don’t mind using antagonism, harassment or lies to get it. I became amazed that the harassment stays. It is not just to keep you going to meetings, but has becaome a relatively new Phenomena.

The problem for them was that, as it was stated to me, was that I wanted to retain control of my life, as seen in the previous link to my hospital files, and when you check some other links, to alternative methods of recovery, and or recovery 12 step trials, you will see that these acts may well fall into the parameter, on which one federal case may be brought, back then. The suggestion was made to me by staff, there and then, for me to give up my apartment, which I had resided in for 20 years, give up my cat, give up my furniture, although God knows how, and move into the men’s shelter, near my home. Simply stated according to these old hard liners, my thinking is stinking, and I should turn over my free will into the hands of someone else. Even though the CACs and I worked out, together an amicable discharge treatment plan. This is where I should and would put myself into the hands of the men who worked there, some of whom were CACs who, I already knew from years ago, and who are presently in the 12 step organizations.

This is one place where 12 step meetings took place once a week also.

This I should do, despite the fact that I had attended meetings for over a year, and already had the ever important necessary sponsor, one who would instruct me in the 12 step way of life. This was not a good suggestion and one not based on common sense, and would have interfered with a sponsor that I already had.

Another slogan goes, whatever suggestions you don’t take you will pay for. It’s a benign sort of statement not to be taken literally or acted on literally. The counselors I had were adamant at the time, and in my community this subculture is large, a moneymaker, connected to each other, politically connected, and knows it all, because it believes it is the only treatment for addictive behavior.

 I refused to do this, move into a shelter, and give up my apartment, but went for aftercare interviews. anyway.

The hospital actually told the aftercare treatment center that I abused cocaine. I was addicted to valium, methadone, clinical meds, extra methadone, Placydil, and much of the diazepam family, only. Coke was never a part of the repertoire. The two contradicting diagnoses put me in a precarious state, with aftercare treatment and with the department of DSS. It was easy to see who was the head physician at this aftercare treatment center. He was a psychiatrist who I knew to deal in what I used to use. This is their community. I had to straighten them out, and finally it was discerned that there was no thought disorder present, and still besides the fact that I had step affiliations, they still recommended step oriented aftercare. I declined, until the DSS department demanded it, with a threat of sanction, if I didn’t attend. I went for the usual intake interviews. The records of my visit and consultation are not available. Not for lack of trying on my part to acquire them They couldn’t find them.

The aftercare center refused to treat me, though, stating they only treated people with cocaine problems, not pills and methadone. My records stated I had the necessary alcohol and cocaine dependency, I stated that didn’t. I knew they were lying about treating only cocaine dependent individuals, , but happily accepted this. No one from my rehab, informed me that this was their treatment program or position on treatment, yet they recommended me to this aftercare, knowing up front that in the end I would be rejected. . This foul up got me sanctioned, by DSS for non attendence to an aftercare treatment program, and almost put me in a position where I could have been evicted from my apartment, now that funding was cut off. . How could a hospital make such a mistake? I also found out the then current head of this aftercare treatment center was a psychiatrist who saw others from my MMTP. He was a Placydil connection for one of them. They didn’t make a mistake. This was a deliberate manipulation, between the department of social services and the aftercare, al done by staff affiliated with the supportive services community which cares for addicts. This foul up I believe is indigenous to this mental health community, if not a deliberate act, whereby one might be manipulated into a position whch they have decreed. This makes it psychiatric, or therapeutic head games. Within the whole of the political system of a community. An individual is targeted, but in this case there si supportive documentation for my allegations, and the fact that I noticed it and spoke out.

Word went back directly to Social Services, of my non attendance at this aftercare treatment center. I was allowed to state to them that I attended and that they turned me down for treatment, I didn’t balk.. SSI disability came in, and I walked away from the whole affair.

The recovery world is a small anonymous subculture affiliated with the larger DSS systems, which even houses, treats and places addicted individuals, in homes, hotels, and halfway houses. . This rehab was staffed in part by women as is much of the supportive services industry, that I recognized as being part of AA or NA, affiliated with the same groups, that I attended. Staff at the top knows and works with staff below, sometimes both are 12 steppers. It is the invisible community. The pshychiatric community at the top in most localities are, aligned with the County’s or States official policies on drug rehab, and treatment. The squeaky wheel of corporate treatment big bucks, gets the grease, and operates, silently with almost impunity, as a subculture within society. This idea of 12 step treatment pervades all areas which deal with the addict, the poor, and the poor addict. Sober Houses, shelters, and mental health facilities have risen around the 12 step premise, not necessarily the whole of recovery premise, and they receive Federal funding. These are the corporate, only for profit wheels already in place. This has become a large network. Big business. With anonyminity, silence, and doctor patient relationships, being a cloak in which they hide.

I enjoyed my time over the Christmas Holiday in Rehab as much as possible. I had been in withdrawal for a few years, because I was on so much medications, and abused so much extra, and I managed to detoxify alone on the street, slowly. Before my release we, hospital staff and I worked out a discharge treatment plan, an aftercare treatment plan, for me. We agreed, which is in direct conflict with the suggestion made to me not go back to my apartment, and move into the shelter on the next block. Rehab for this step community which is entrenched so deeply into our system, is not enough. This is part of standardized treatmet and is taught about the same every where. It is not just a followup but a thorough indoctrination to and introduction into what has become a cult, in America. There should have, with the 12 step literature, written the way it is, a place for me or anyone. I call them Bill W.’s 12 opinions and 12 other opinions.There is a total of twenty four declarative statements, not unlike the, ‘Thou Shall Nots” of the ten commandments, but here you have, or the writers felt obligated to supply fifty pages of explanations for each declarative statement, in the twelve steps and twelve traditions, which should describe all twelve step behavior. Each step is nothing but 12 step loopholes, all of them. There was no reason for hospital connected, or12 step trouble. What came next after I grew away from the 12 steps was a version of mind control similar to the Manchurian Candidate, allegedly just because I had walked away, and in retaliation for the fact that the people involved from my building had been caught, by me in the act, then forgiven because I had come to believe that I deserved to be in Rehab, and almost grateful for it, and not a citizen with constitutional rights, and that they had acted illegally, and they were all connected to both the hospital and to acquaintances in the 12 steps, law enforcement, and my building.

THE ONLY FACT WAS, AND IS THAT I, REFUSED TO COOPERATE WITH THE RECOMMENDATIONS OF THIS PARTICULAR THERAPEUTIC ARM OF THE INDUSTRY.

THIS WAS THE BEGINNINGS FOR ME, OF A WELL CONNECTED NIGHTMARE, AND A SYSTEM OF THERAPEUTIC ABUSES, PERPETRATED BY THIS POLITICALLY WELL CONNECTED COMMUNITY, WHO ARE CONNECTED WITH EACH OTHER, ALL OVER THE WORLD.

To my amazement in this community, you had doctors on one hand, giving out pills, legally in over abundance, in their private practice, while on staff at outpatient drug Rehab. Here they seem to bring both worlds together, and make a dollar at both ends. This is the lay of the green. Most know each other, and most are smart enough to be able to pick up a phone and communicate with each other.

This is how networking is done, and how 12 steppers work; they use the phone constantly, and they come from all walks of life, and finally after a bit of time, enter all walks of life. Some have been abused, which goes right along with their abuses, and are seriously disturbed, and never will resolve many of their problems, cultural or otherwise. Many are ex offenders.

 In this town the 12 step groups is, a subculture, and you run from meeting to meeting. As long as there were those, two white, hand bill type boards, with the 12 steps and 12 traditions, hanging on the wall. It basically didn’t make a difference to me, whose placards hung there AA or NA and for the first time I met hundreds of new people. Some of whom I became close with, because we shared the common pain of being stigmatized all our lives. For me though it wasn’t so much that. I had gotten so high for so long in public, I didn’t worry about public opinion too much. Maybe once in awhile, when even I could tell, that our behavior crossed some boundaries of decency. It was only when I started to grow away from the meetings, and live my life, that the trouble began again. This time it was worse than the original mind bending therapeutic harassment perpetrated by myHYPNOTIST therapist, and members of my community, in my own building.

This included post hypnotic suggestions of a sexual nature, which could be acted upon, in the community, outside his door. Post hypnotic suggestion to be acted upon in the community. When you hear a bell, you will cluck like a horny old chicken! When I left the office the bells did go off! He had trouble with hypnosis for my smoking cessation program, for awhile. But on my entrance to rehab during a relaxation class I noticed a similarity between the relaxation tape, and my home version of his smoking cessation session. The difference was the relaxation tape, was in a woman’s voice and had music to go along with it. I, during the playing of this relaxation tape, in drug rehab class, was almost unconscious. The inputs done in my building continued after that, without my knowledge or consent.I awoke early one morning in drug rehab to find staff questioning me, during REM period of sleep. I found staff questioning me in my sleep.

This time, it was long after, I was clean, which is another federal case making parameter, employees of a SLEEP DEPRIVATION AND RESEARCH UNIT, at a local Rehab and hospital started, along with some of my original harasses, even my own therapist, an ongoing scheme to, cause injury. It was then, and would soon lead to a larger, therapeutic community nightmare, which included the super, and maintenance help of the building in which I lived, again and, members sympathetic to the 12 step way of living, working in every government agency in this small town, which are in more than one way, connected to all the supportive services previously mentioned. It spread outward from there, even into the private sector, through the same people in the same supportive services in the form of brutal harassment, even to this hospital workers friends at my job, many from her home town, and at least one associated with NA in that town. This took on the form of personal harassment, by loss of prime territory on the job, some small verbal abuse and loss of customers and pay. The employee from the hospital followed me to the job, spoke with workers there who I have traced to the 12 steps in another town, and to my own NA home group.

I was harassed everyday as we went house to house, as part of the job. A lot of this probably passed from neighbor to neighbor. I went to the door in a neighborhood that I had never been in before, and heard as the doorbell was answered, in my own voice, my message from my home answering machine, on the house answering machine there. One woman with her toddler age son greeted me and her son turned to her, and stated, Mommy he wants you to suck his penis? This style harassment went on every day, at almost every location, and it was not just relegated to just one house or individual on my route, and not just one incident a day.

This ongoing scheme of harassment or multiple stalking, or GANG STALKING, finally led to the alleged stealing of, or reading of my 4^thstep life story, which was passed around for purposes, of an ongoing therapeutically designed type of harassment. These steps, especially the written fourth and read fifth, by 12 step standards, or rules are never, to be repeated, anywhere any time, by anyone.

It was only later, I realized that this attitude and kinds of behavior, goes higher and deeper into the political network of, the county I lived in. It was even later that, I realized it goes even higher into the political system of New York State, and it always seems to take on the same forms of harassment, through the same lines IE: The medical community, politicians, and law enforcement, the social services systems, the Churches, which rent to AA, and NA, and affiliated 12 step programs; hospitals who give medical support to the poor addict with Medicaid, shelters who feed the homeless, and, are all involved with the supportive services systems surrounding the poor and addicted, not just the poor addicted; for profit. Some of these organizations receive matching Federal funding to run their businesses.

During my early recovery, after I got out of drug rehab, 12 step oriented aftercare was recommended. It is common, and there are numbers of aftercare centers to chose from. I declined, to participate. I had continued going to meetings, called my sponsor daily, took phone numbers and used them, daily, in order to discuss what was going on in my existence. I was called in to DSS and told that I had to go into aftercare, or I’d lose funding, I chose an aftercare, which was recommended to me by the hospital, and went for an interview. I was asked what drugs I had used in the past, naturally I told the therapist. This was part of my record. I spoke about the drugs I abused with friends, given to another friend, by a local psychiatrist. I was asked to wait outside, and I noticed all phones in the secretary’s office got busy. The psychiatrist that I had mentioned during my interview, turned out to be the head psychiatrist of this aftercare program, also. They turned me down that day, and a week later I lost my meager funding. A sanction, it’s called, for not attending this aftercare center. The DSS office received an attendance sheet from this aftercare center. I was sanctioned for my non-attendance. I explained that I had attended, it was they who turned me down. Now, eviction was coming my way, I was headed for the shelter, down the street, which was discussed in rehab by the drug rehab units head CAC, as something which should be done for my sobriety. Give up my apartment, and move into the men’s shelter, to be around other people in sobriety, which most of the residents weren’t. Even though we as part of the recovery process, on paper designed a different discharge treatment plan. This type of drug treatment actions show a lack of common sense, at the least, and open the door for more covert type of abuses. A day later, after visiting this social services mandated 12 step oriented aftercare treatment program, I was declared because of, physical injuries, and illness disabled, and received funding from Social Security. The reason I was told that this aftercare center wouldn’t take me was that, I had used pills and methadone. They only took alcohol and cocaine heads, which I knew to be a lie, having met other members of that aftercare treatment program, but my records show only methadone addiction. . The hospital files sent to this aftercare center clearly show, a wrong diagnoses, which was never discussed with me as I tried to prepare to go to aftercare followup treatment and cult indoctrination.. All officials at the hospital had to know the parameters for admission to this aftercare program, and knew up front that I would not be admitted, either that or the program outright lied, about their admissions requirements. The hospital had been doing business with each other for decades. This was about the first time I witnessed an actual connection between the H.R.A. (DSS) and a private concern like a drug Rehab, as in a connected 12 step professional network. If I hadn’t been able to get to my files, I would have never known or seen the behind the scenes manipulations and mechanics associated with the 12 step therapeutic arm of the industry, designed up front in advance, to put them in the position whereby they had a means to cause injury to me for not responding with anything less than enthusiasm, to aftercare or anything else. The DSS mandate to a specific aftercare to place in 1993, which is three years before any NYS Court cases citing the Establishment Clause of the First Amendment, stating that no one may be mandated to a 12 step oriented program. It is coercion.

If I hadn’t seen and recognized law enforcement officers from my old area, going on to the campus at a college more that twenty miles away, where I reside now, in plain clothes I wouldn’t be able to even think or gauge the politically motivated interference in my life, or that this ongoing harassment at least had another County involved the State University’s further input.

Although these tactics , which were supposed to be kept in house and under the cover of anonyminity, as I found out later, are used against anyone who goes against the 12 step movement, accepted way of life. There are those lines of law enforcement who are tired of dealing with the active addict, there are the unions whose pension funds have made investments into the real estate market, directly connected to housing and supportive services for the poor, and addicted. Even the Church has investments centered around housing for the poor and addicted. This is where immense amount of profits are generated. And of course to all 12 step nurses, nurses aids, doctors etc. The rationale being only that, AA and NA do good.

This style of harassment has been carried out miles from where it all started for me, in a new city, by the same means, by people who I might be able to literally, connect together, with my old home town services there, and maybe even to people with the 12 steps from the town where I grew up, on both ends. This is, the friends of BILL W., people I call 8^th traditionists for lack of a better term. This trail allegedly leads to and through the many Social Services Systems, or Human Resources Systems and the groups it gives treatment contracts to, in part, to treat or house the addict whether active or not, this goes as high as the educational systems, and some unions which run through it all. Which means that through building maintenance unions harassment can take place and follow a person. Once the word gets out these people get vindictive.

It was later, after all the drug rehab experiences, that I was asked, during an interview, with a college campus head dean and his head of security, if one of my landlords had contracts to rent apartments to any type of recovery oriented businesses or groups. Allegedly they did, but I wasn't one of those apartments and had no knowledge of any deals between the management and any Recovery connected businesses. So again I'll ask in whose house, was this medical problem to be, taken care of?

At the time that I was questioned, I didn't understand the questions or responses, and the advance knowledge this high ranking security officer at the local two year community college had, as we were discussing, my inquiries about threats made to me, by a staff member of my apartment building, right on campus, or the possibility of those facts being of major importance later on, and also how they received this information, here on campus. This man had been questioned on campus by school authorities, and appeared on that campus later. Yet school authorities who were asked to keep me apprised, of the situation didn’t, beginning a campaign of gangstalking, multistalking or group stalking as it has begun to be known as and called today, on that particular campus..

This very specific type of harassment had continued by the same agents from my building, who I reported, as threatening me in the building back then, now allegedly coming after me on campus, standing in the library, on entrance testing day, screaming , “I shall not let him destroy all these lives!” He would stand outside my apartment door, and say things like, he now thinks he wants to marry Mrs L., or any one of a dozen snide remarks. This how the phenomenon starts.

Now I was stuck with a college President knowing facts like, dates of my hospital drug rehab entrance, from people who had poked their nose through my records.

Instead of this individuals entrance to my campus being reported to me, as I had asked, so that I might at least be on guard. Here, my ongoing harassment and runaround, by officials, continued, all stemming from that earlier harassment forcing me towards addiction treatment, in my building. Now on campus in a new area, over twenty miles away, it has happened again, in almost every class. The place appears to be so politically connected that almost everywhere I turned, I found a connection and a coverup. I even found members of my old home towns, both of them, connected to campus, and to members of my immediate family also, and my NA home group, and there seemed, at least until it’s coeoberated, input from them, used in more of a similar type of harassment.

On one occasion, in recovery I called an old acquaintance who was in the hospital dying from her body’s rejection of a transplanted liver. We went back to the 1960's at this hospital, where my parents had made an effort to isolate me from my friends then in an effort to stop my using. The hospital didn’t have any 12 step affiliations back then. She had asked me to walk her to my first 12 step meeting 30 years later. We went our separate ways in recovery, she, staying with the Gay and Lesbian groups, and I moving on.

I had heard later that she confessed that on a trip, she took a sip of beer. They wouldn’t let her keep her clean time, and when we spoke about it she was livid, and had other problems. When I called the hospital here in NYC I asked if she was up for visitors, she said no, but she let me know that, she knew these people had been going back over our records over twenty years. She wouldn’t give me any names. There had been something said early on in our recovery, about someone trying to take her on some sort of Billy Jack type of Shaman trip also. A man named Brian. I knew it was hospital staff, who had my thirty year old records.

Now these people were out in the open, almost all of them, but now, they were able to pass the message through friends, while letting me know, that the message is coming directly from them.

 A letter from that major hospital Rehab that I spoke about, stated that, the woman from the sleep deprivation unit, who allegedly, had worked with staff from my building, followed me down to my new job, on her own, engaged in conversation with staff there, who was connected right into the Yonkers, NA group that I attended. I had a meeting to bring to this hospital, it was my NA commitment there on Saturday nights, so she had to be reported. Even though she was let go, and this was kept within the medical house, between staff and me, and members of the step groups, it presented me with the problem of trying to gain more information from the place at a later date, or at all. The new job which I started earlier, had several connections to this Yonkers NA group, and I was harassed on the job also, daily.

 I then called her home to ask about her affiliation with this company. She, as were several others who worked there, were also was Yonkers’ residents, while growing up. She replied by calling the police and denying It Stating that I tried to date her.She had lied, blatantly covered up this beginning harassment, in which she worked with the building maintenance. I had to respond to it. She accepted mail at her apartment for a staff member at my job. Someone had put the letter, after being delivered to the wrong mailbox, out in the open, up on top wedged next to the wall for me to see the connection.. She and her brother followed me down to this new job, and spke with a man my supervisor. Then the message passing started, sexual harassment, the stealing of canvassing areas, and even remarks by citizens on my route.

She harassed me daily, burned me in the shower by diverting cold water, stalked me as I left the building everyday, and entertained staff members from my job, at parties under my apartment etc. Other staff members at the job visited her also. One woman coached to say the least came out with her toddler son. As I approached the house for a signature on a petition, her son asked her, “Mommy he wan’t you to suck his penis!” There were dozens of remarks made to me daily, with AA and NA starting to look like the originator of this harassment.

When she appeared in the building, to move in, she was a staff member from that drug detox rehab hospital’s sleep deprivation and research unit 3 South, and not employed by this company that I had worked for.

Yet staff members of this environmental canvassing outfit, , females were seen by me and another resident of the building in my building, as well as visitors to NA..

I never tried to date her. She failed, to intimidate, and was let go from employ, and then left the building. This allowed staff from the hospital to refuse to investigate any further, and they used confidentiality, to not release any more information.

Part of the crew who I worked with at that, canvassing job would wait outside my physical rehab, where my doctor sent me for treatment of an injury, just to aggravate me, by showing up early in the morning, waiting until I walked to physical rehab and then buzzing by in the 4x4, with their lights on. They stalked me on the job also, had definite connections the Yonkers’ 12 step group, plus that hospital drug Rehab, and into my Castle Heights home group, through friends, where this kind of sometimes silent harassment comtinued.

Another door seemed shut to me, by this community. Cooperation would not come easy, because of laws surrounding Doctor patient confidentiality, and hospital confidentiality.. Apparently this extended to staff also. Allegedly, this woman still had an affiliation with that same hospital, and as I did my weekend commitment there, I was now repeatedly harangued by members of the NA organization I chaired the meeting for. I was stopped by grounds security almost every time I appeared on the grounds, which was something new. For years after I was being assaulted by harassing phone calls. And still am. This is all part of the network scheme and the original stalkers are present today and operating through friends.

They finally ceased to a degree. But all I could do was talk it up within the 12 step community, as I and many others had been taught to do, and what is said here may not stay here, but unless it is discussed outside this community it will never go anywhere else, just round and round. Then I realized that everyone was basically connected if only by, Region Area, to this and every other hospital. This is important to realize, and to realize that this is not supposition. Staff at these institutions know each other, sometimes working at more than one place, have been friends for awhile, and when many leave one post they go to other areas of emply within the treatment system. Although many are Recovering addicts, they run the system, and have been around the game a little longer.

Right before landing this job I had gone back to highschool, literally,in order to pick up some learning skills, and a GED. Even at my age, did it with enthusiasm. MY diploma won’t be needeed here. I did it with the aid of an organization named OET-JPTA. There I just had the usual bureaucratic nonsense to contend with. Contend I did, but after all the trouble began I F.O.IL.E.D my records. There was some trouble in class about the kind of program the school was running, and my professor, MR G. Told us to complain about it, to talk it up. I went as instructed to the JPTA head. The trouble started to come back, she called the school and gave them hell about it. The department gave MR G hell, and he gave me hell, in class. There was nothing to be done, the OET had instructed us all to bring complaints there. After going through my F.O.I.L. Records I saw that they the JPTA, had been keeping track of me, silently, and the contact was a company superior.

She the worker, and a department head, was seen by me in my community, at AA. She the worker had informed me up front that they could act on my behalf at any school or job that I went to if I was being harassed, all the while silently keeping track. There was plenty of harassment at this job, and no replies to any of my inquiries. Much later while trying to gather documentation from several areas I had to try to deal with this agency again. It is part of the supportive services network, so I wrote it again, and received the letter back unopened, my letter, without a postage due, or wrong postage, addressee unknown, or return to sender was mailed back unopened. It means we don’t wish to cooperate, not to even acknowledge that you exist, or to be held accountable for knowing about or not acting on any complaints. When we get caught we cover up. I have several of these types of letters.

Many gang-stalked have alleged a Post Office connection to their goings on, and I do also, however, this letter was returned unopened. Take it for what it is worth. She and her organization are supportive services surrounding addictions treatment, she was AA, also and other connections at the job were NA. They were in the business of harassment. My first experience with job training school and work were with AA covert stalkers as managers in political position at this federally funded and backed organization in Westchester County, now that they had cleaned up their acts to a degree and had those jobs they felt that they could strut their stuff, manipuate people and events.

The police started to stop me in the street, just to ask for ID, on my way to noon Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. On my graduation day from those Adult Ed courses, or the day before, a couple I knew slipped out of town under duress, because of similar harassment circumstances, and trouble with people in the rooms some connected to this JPTA outfit. Now I was being given trouble, anonymous trouble. I was targeted now.

I was having trouble breathing, and ran to the hospital ER, only to find two police officers stationed outside my room, talking about some couple in a rented van being injured and killed as they crossed state lines.

This couple who had left town, had been confiding to me that, they knew of an anal baby raping, an ongoing one, for a period of over one year by a family member, a son, the child’s brother, and that when she threatened to report it, someone told her that, if she did they would go to certain social services agencies about, her and her husband, and the press. She also came to me to let me know that she was under investigation, for not reporting the whereabouts of her childrens father to DSS, who lived with her in the same house. He worked, and she collected from a certain welfare program the WIC program. They decided to leave town. They just picked up, rented a truck and left town fearful now that in the future they would or could face arrest. There is a connection between the child abuse case, their case and the group where I saw my old JPTA company worker at. The JPTA is a job skills training program, and its head was somehow connected to the mother (an AA member, of the alleged raped child). And now I found myself being harassed.

Hearing these officers talk about this right outside my emergency room, made the pulse, and vital statistics readings on my machine go off the boards. While I was in the ER two officers took up a post outside the door and within earshot of me started to talk about a van accident in which a couple was critically injured while crossing state lines into Jersey. This was just another day in what the supportive services recovery community, had become and would degenerate even worse to later, a connected gang-stalking unit out to deliver emotional injury.

Even in NYC today, occasionally an officer will say something as I walk by, or something will be broadcast with my name on it over the police radio, it is a benign, non physically aggressive type of harassment but infuriating and there is a lot of it, hence the new terminology. Instead of just stalking, it is called gang or multistalking. . This type of harassment may never be proven, by some and is extremely difficult to catch in action. If it becomes ongoing, as in my case, one may later be able to substantiate that it exists. It involves a lot and may also involve threats of physical violence. I am of the opinion that the couple hadn’t done anything, which many other 12 steppers continue to do to this day. I was even asked or advised by this JPTA head to find off the books work once. It is a common practice, but once known between step friends, may be used later against one if necessary. Again I was kept track of. Even if they had a legal right to this women kept an eye on me. They are there to see to it that if I was ever harassed they could look into it, at my request, not to keep track. I was harassed there on the job also, not only by staff members but on my route at certain houses. Not once but every day there was harassment in some form.

Members of some of the 12 step groups after one meeting in particular, drove all the way back to my apartment, from his home town, rang my bell, and started screaming obscenities at me, over my intercom right after a successful NA meeting at my hospital commitment. Harassment got so loud out in the street that one couple moved out of the building because of people standing out on the corner at night, in the dark screaming obscenities, about me and the whole situation.

I wanted to take a cat from a litter of kittens in a local Bodega, the meat market .An employee lived in the building.. We spoke about it, and I waited until the kittens were supposed to be weaned. I went in to the store to find the kittens gone one day. That night, I awoke to look out the window, over to the lighted store window where the cats used to be, Only that window was lit up, nothing else and someone screamed, GET OUT! During the middle of the night someone had waited up just to see me look out the window, in order to do this. This brings this out of the rooms of AA, and step workers in public employ, right into the public square, out into the street, literally..

I started to write about my experiences with them, the people from the neighborhood, and the 12 steps, keeping my writings at home in my apartment, like I did with my written fourth step

My physical therapist was the wife of an alcohol councilor, who had once been a patient of my own smoking cessation therapist. On one occasion I arrived at physical therapy to hear another physical rehab therapist, there speaking on the telephone, as she spoke, the words, nightmare of recovery were, repeated, in front of me out loud. I freaked inside. Someone was in my apartment, and looking through my papers, read the title of the story, and very likely was speaking with her about it at that moment.

There had been a direct order from my doctor to the physical therapy department to, not give me certain exercises, however my therapist gave me the exact exercises which had not been prescribed. This written orderwas ignored, causing excruciating physical pain for weeks. She allowed others even some form that G&L room of AA, to come into the physical rehab area, to watch me while she put me through these tortuous paces. I couldn’t walk for more than approximately fifty yards, without having to stop. The pain had gotten so intense, that I discussed having a joint replacement, operation with my surgeon, to alleviate the pain.

The pain actually was from another part of my body, the spine and passed through the nerve pathway going down throughout the leg area. She, my therapist the wife of a, CAC, ex patient, of my hypno therapist, and AA member, sprayed something particularly noxious to me, near my face because of my lung disease, knowing because of my severe illness, I would be in pain, and she made it clear that I would be back to see them soon enough. They also treat emphysema there at this Rehab. I believe the Will Rogers Institute is on those grounds also. These were deliberate attacks on my physical being, done in response to information gained by the entering of my apartment, going through my writings (my written life story, 4^th Step, NA and AA) and pssing the message along to affilliated frineds within the medical supportive services community. The hardware titanium stabilizing rods came years later, but are the result of previous injury, surgery and degenerative disc disease.

One of those rehabilitative, physical therapists, a colleague of hers showed up at my college campus, I couldn’t say too much about it, either. People can go where ever they wish, and in the scheme of things it looks as if normal business is being conducted, but upon scrutinization of college staff records, I found the name of the doctor, who was head of that particular physical therapy rehab, that I have just spoken about. So for victims of a group stalking, who is to say, the players will almost always have an excuse for being where they are in relation to you.. One factor involved is that, there are nasty or bizarre things said to or about the targeted individual, within earshot of the individual, and a lot of them, and the little street theater scenes happen with a regularity, which exceed the normal boundaries of chance.

When I say it all seems bizarre, I mean strange. I walked out of my building one afternoon, to see two people from one of the 12 step groups, driving by the apartment building. They didn’t wave or even stop the car to say hello, and these were just two of my first experiences with street theater,, at least one of them was a relatively close friend of mine. We not only up until then had a good relationship, we shared the same sponsor.

He, Bob, as usual wore his beard, which he shaved every once in a while during the summer, but this time so did she. The woman with him wore a beard. RIDICULOUS? IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE RIDICULOUS!

! Recovering from a not too successful spinal surgery, at the time, after weeks spent going to a physical Rehab where now they knew I was writing a book on step experiences, and started to study Diamond appraisal at home. Our women with the beard’s exhusband an AA, NA refugee also had a similar certificate, and hustled jewelry on the side. This little bit of street theater happened as I hit the lesson plan on polishing diamonds.

When the circumference called the girdle of a stone is polished small chips or feathers happen on the edge of the diamond. This polishing is called the bruting process. The stone is damaged during bruting. So another message is passed. Or she might have been acting as a beard, (a term in that community which describes a woman who gives a gay person of a different gender legitimacy, for the man she was riding with.)

This is the trouble with street theater. It is meant to harass, confuse, convey a message, or make the target think there is a message, which sounds off the wall when you try to describe it. It is meant to. It is meant to occupy the mind, rent space so to speak, at all times and even to act as a diversion, and keep one preoccupied with the street theater and not focus on how the information was garnered, or focus on what else they may be capable of.

I had sent a house warming gift to my first sponsor. A carving of an African medicine man. It resembled one which my hypno therapist kept in his office, bought at a flea market. Its eyes were painted white. Here I am leaving the building, and an unknown driver comes by, an Afro American male with white under his eyes, similar to the way football players use dark grease under their eyes to block light reflection. As to the woman with the beard. Another cronie of ours, a woman form the same group, was the make up woman on a NY soap opera, and all of them, alleged ex porn stars, and or hookers, most with histories of lesbianism, and arrests now with middle class live in suburbia, with husbands, neighbors, children etc. and I had seen their pictures, in magazines thanks to a fellow 12 stepper, and been privy to the fact that they were talking about doing some x-rated business again. Now they don’t wish to show their colors.

Recovery is a place, at least it is touted this way, it is for getting better. For leaving the way of life we had.The saying goes “Change or die”.

Recovery is a noble place at times, and sometimes even with the low success rate that it has, it can literally save a life, even if the methods employed aren’t correct. When coercive tactics and violence is employed in order to keep someone from whistle-blowing, or to ruin a member’s recovery, then something has to be done.

It is impossible, on a web site of this size, to even begin to describe the day to day, or minute by minute activities of a group stalk like this. There isn’t enough space. A’ll I can say is that it pervades the system and detracts from all recovery, mostly from my recovery with malice on their part.

The legal - plan here is to, go after people who perpetrate, 12 step affiliated, abusive crimes, with law suits, now, based on your experiences, relating to any kinds of abuses, directed towards you by this political machine, CONNECTED NOT ONLY TO THE 12 STEPS, BUT TO, ALL THOSE SUPPORTIVE SERVICES AREAS ALSO, when connected to the 12 steps and your addiction.

As this RECOVERY LEGAL PLAN website gets developed, the details,(in detail) will be exposed, with a certain amount of supportive documents, in order to let the buyer beware and to stop all the abuses.

Our M.O. will be: criminal, and civil litigation when or if possible, with this being a forum to relate your experiences to and ID with. Those old promises of the 12 and 12, can be replaced, with more litigation against the recovery movement itself, and perhaps other areas and institutions involved in supportive services, and the individuals involved, who may be held liable.

The fact that others know of your plight, might afford you and I a little more peace and safety from those types of people, who act within your community..

As an older wiser acquaintance, Vincent L Fox, who was conducive to, a more eyes open, approach to treatment of habituation told me, after we had discussed this particular event in White Plains Recovery, about my demand for recourse. He said Don’t do it for the money only. This is for JUSTICE.

It is one thing for me, and, or anyone else, to write, in a vague, or even in a detailed way about how some 12 stepper, or group of 12 steppers, connected through out the areas of public service type of employ, had a grievance against me, you or anyone else, or about how a police officer, pulled me over for a Breathalyzer test, or even how some minor politicians, had it in for me, because some of my friends in AA threatened to report an ongoing anal baby raping of a two year old, by a family member, of an AA mother, or that the same groups of people who went after that family because, they threatened to report it, came after me, by using the police to play or take an active part in an ongoing emotional terrorization. because I was made aware of it too. It won't be enough to just say that some of these middle class girls in recovery were allegedly running a sex menu, type 1-800 number and did not want it revealed. It isn't enough to say that I had people from all these groups ringing my doorbell screaming obscenities at me all hours of the day and night, en mass. What is enough will be to, fill certain legal parameters in regards to these acts in order to be able to litigate successfully, and finally to be able to legislate into law, the means whereby this type of abusive behavior, en mass or even by one individual may be put to an end. To give the public more education, about it and a legal recourse, if it ever happens to them.

 THE PROOF

The substantiation of facts here and in a court of law, has become a necessity, in order to bring the professional ethics, and personal conduct of these individuals, to the public eye, in order to remove, once and for all, from the area of addiction treatment, all therapeutic abuses, done under the guise of, their common good, which has become their group conscience, where I am concerned. If litigation can not for whatever reason be forthcoming, right away, the telling and substantiating of this story is a must, in order to help keep me a bit safer today.

For most of the general public, who believed the 12 step organizations exists as they have been portrayed for years, it isn’t enough to hear about, or read some words. The general public almost never does read about things of this nature. When cases are brought into court, it all goes on the shelf or in the archives of some courthouse. Most of the time people are kept uninformed about tragic events connected with these 12step organizations, such as the Cox case in New York State. Because it brings too much adverse publicity, and WEB sites like this are usually reserved for persons in search of another outlet, to speak out about their own therapeutic abuses. If crime is committed in the rooms of the 12 steps by 12 steppers, and it makes the newspapers, the names of the 12 step groups these people attend, is never mentioned. In certain areas of the system when people die, it isn’t even noticed. It now has become important for the general public to know that these abuses are real, and usually do, go unnoticed, and when these abuses are discovered, they are sometimes very difficult to substantiate. This is why nothing gets done. People are injured permanently in this manner.

                                                Here in NY, in Federal Court some of the 12 step groups have been declared religious in nature , andthat in NY State, you may not be court mandated anymore, to a 12 step organization. It isn’t enough to read how, in time over the years, they, the whole therapeutic community, and the political process which surrounds them has grown corrupt, because this makes new 12 steppers at least intent on being clean and sober, and a snookered taxpaying public, very irate. After all, the public relations departments of these groups, always, has been shown in the media as giving a helping hand to the suffering and needy. So even if, you are not from Missouri, I will have to take you by the hand and show you.........

........ Exactly, as much as the law will allow, so as not to undermine any litigation processes, which might be taking place, picture by picture, step by step, document by document, what all these words mean.

I mean to, try to define by picture in document form, where the public's tax money goes, in relation to the Recovery Movement, and how these coercive methods as defined, really take place. This mob mentality, led to house break ins, to illegal electronic surveillance, stalking, harassment, and the possible use of, illegal electronic subliminal direction. When I say this I mean that, even if just once a subliminal post hypnotic suggestion was used by an incompetent therapist, it would lead anyone right into a courtroom.

RECOVERY - LEGAL PLAN, NEEDS YOUR INPUT

This web is in progress, I hope it will grow from my story into a more definitive perspective on the 12 step organizations themselves. My difference of opinions with the 12 step organizations are philosophical also, and are not just politically or legally motivated.

. LAWYERS and more CITIZEN support NEEDED.

EYE WITNESS ACCOUNTS WANTED

The events, led to campus at one of this city’s formerly prestigious, fashion design institutes, directly from sources on campus in my former town.

In class gangs-talking continued, names from my old town were thrown in with comments about my past life, and its connection to Recovery, in conversation and as part of the class lesson plan, as well as taunts by homosexual teaching staff, with even more sexual harassment by other staff, and stalking, including women teachers, along with selected students, as part of class lectures. One example is a professor stated during his photography lecture, about a black female student, “If you stick your finger up her ass, don’t lick it.” Connections between college staff, higherups within the democratic party, and staff and residents within the NYC shelter sytems, started popping up connected as a large network of Multistalkers. Capable of using stalking tactics and sound or electronic harassment from long distances.

 What is needed here, also are factual statements, from students or staff, here in NYC pertaining to my ongoing harassment, both in and out of class, by staff, students, and security. Any accounts of their collusion with each other, and collusion with staff of the shelter supportive services system which I have had to reside in. First hand knowledge. The school's political connections to the former and current administrations are well known, as the college president’s husbands campaign for Governor of NY failed, and it seemed easy enough for the husband of the President to bring his and his wife’s personal hate campaign against me to the public. Through the media and through their security staff. Any information as to staff’s involvement with any family members of mine or interviews with old acquaintances will be greatly appreciated. He, the Presidents husband, although not sitting on the Board of Directors or Trustees, referred to college staff as, “our teachers”, and why, he let “our teachers” go after me.

Any first hand accounts, by students of conversations with staff will be greatly appreciated, also. Any statements from the parents of students formerly enrolled will also be appreciated, before charges may be brought against staff and students.

In regards to Westchester County, AA or NA’s involvement in any harassment at all, through friends of or any source connected with all the supportive services area, including County officers; eyewitness accounts from people willing to step forward, are wanted also.

Any input to the use of the names Geshe Roach Lee, or Shadow Willowist, in the media, is wanted also.

Input as to the use of sound or air time on campus to broadcast over the loud speaker system is wanted.

RECOVERY’S / Legal Plan, NYC is, interested in pursuing, and litigating against all systematic harassment, of individuals, by the 12 step organizations, and any affiliates engaged in this type of activity. It is difficult to document, and after that put into categories, which can be defined, under current laws, and then turned into prosecutable cases.

 We are interested in hearing from attorneys who will be of assistance to people who contact us, and to help us to build and improve a database based on, case law and precedents. There’s one case that I sent to Federal Court, based in part, on what I feel is harassment by the supportive services housing system, in regards to fair housing, which is directly related to the 12 steps, and the overall relationship to the political machinery involved. The case was dismissed, and I never recieved a copy of the dismissal. So I will have to include this amongst my failures, and make it part of the ongoing story. The case without a response was terminated.

I asked before about a housing crisis in my life, whose house the problem fell in. That it wasn’t a medical problem, but housing. I found this is a larger house, which I live in now, and today it now has become anin house medical problem, not to be kept within the step oriented politically backed house. But in and around the whole of the supportive services medical therapeutic community which deals with addictions, including the therapeutic alternative treatment programs.

 This is a story which, at many intervals, has been reported to enough public agencies, to warrant an investigation into all these public agencies, not only for their ineptitude. But for deliberately trying to divert any and all means of me finding, and securing documents, or using any correct due processes, which are in place and already legislated for, in order to alleviate the problems, and bring the issues to public domain. It is a story, because of the political, and of course the police dept connections involved, at least the ones from my old home town, it seems that the media doesn’t want to touch upon the story as a whole. It has been and is ongoing, so it is breaking here now.

Being aware of the COX vs Miller, court case decision, and other decisions involving of AA, already in, or having been through the Court system, I have found, it is necessary to do this also. This is and has been, cruel and unusual punishment. Perpetrated by staff with the aid of selected students, whose parents, now have to foot the bills, all of them, with not too many prospects of profitable employ. One of my classmates, appeared in a village voice interview, about debts incurred, on college campuses. These union teachers, who operated without benefit of contracts, with the college for approximately two years, like their security, and several other unions in NYS, have gone to an amazing amount of trouble to inflict emotional pain, twenty four hours a day.

A lot of this has been passed, through the same sources as it was in my old home town. through building maintenance departments.

I recently saw an old Broadway show tape of mine which I picked up at the show, back in 1996-7. On it, from the audience, electronically contrived in the applause track, I heard, my name associated with a nickname, and it stated, exactly where I'd be living five years down the road in the future, along with the name of, the then Westchester County District Attorney, Jeanine Pirro. Here is a letter from that District Attorney’s Office. I had contacted them about the goings on in my building, the sleep hypnosis, the harassment on the job related to this girl and NA and more. This was the answer at the time.

Based on the information about me my lifestyle, my degree of illness here makes note of the documentation that I had caught, in this day and age, Tuberculosis, caught we think, in the shelter system even after my complaining to staff that I shouldn’t, be near the TB medication unit, with my level COPD. It along with their and other’s interference, it proved enough to close down certain paths to me, while trying to show shelter supportive services complicity, in the acts of manipulating me physically, in order to get me to a predetermined location. The TB wasted me. The tape of the sound byte, turned out to be an accurate prediction, about where I would be sent to in NYC, which involved manipulation and the act of, assigning to me a fraudulent diagnoses of AXIS I, which would have gone unnoticed, by me and most others, if I hadn't actually arrived here, at the location I am at now, asked for my records, kept track, and decided to make it all public and picked up on the subliminal type emssage on the sound byte. This title or diagnoses comes under the heading of NY/NY and was used in order to get me here at this specific location as specified in this specific soud byte taken from a show years before.-(Sound Byte) Naturally I wouldn't have been aware of the building I was sent to, or who runs it, the Catholic Charities or its location, or the actors associated with it, Joyce Randolph and Joe Mac Doughna, or have been aware of the means or ways they manipulated me here, and the whole thing wouldn’t have been noticed if I hadn’t finally found it on this tape, which is a product of some sound technology department, some where within the whole of the entertainment media.. The link sound byte was done by professionals connected to show business years before. Even prior to the fire which originally displaced me from my apartment of twenty plus years. Prior to my thinking about going to NY to study.

When possible I'll try to put live tape footage on the WEB page, along with the school presidents message to me, in the 12 step politically connected nightmare, and ongoing harassment. Their ongoing actions have and continue to, put my health and life at risk. This will take time. But listen to the sound byte already on this page, and go to www. Blip tv: type Looking for the 12 steps and check out the few second vlog. More live real tv later. As the will to do, and health allows.

Early on in my recovery, I began to see flaws in the logic of the 12 steps. They were numbered and ordered logically, and some of the statements were valid enough, and had a logic to them. You might even say that at times exhibited some common sense. Early on I was told that they were the way, in Rehab, by councilors, Doctors etc. They were there to see that the 12 steps only were taught, and they kicked your rear end doing it. AA always remained the dominant one, in Rehabs over NA. Alternatives there weren’t discussed, or even doing any commitments.

We all have, common sense, contrary to the your thinking is stinking, philosophy of the 12 steps, we just don’t always use or exhibit it, in our lives, at all times. After reading papers like the Orange papers and More revealed, I have just this to say.

With the 12 steps and 12 traditions, you have a total of ten declarative sentences. No matter what language they are written in, if you understand the language, you can understand what the particular declarative sentence means. The ten commandments are self explanatory, no one had to explain the meanings of each of those declarative sentences..

So are the 12 steps and traditions, declarative sentences. They don’t need ten or twenty pages, of convoluted or ill conceived logic, loopholes if you will, to describe the meanings of each step, or tradition. If one even has a general command of the language that they are written in.

This is the flaw, which leads to an illogical irrational system based on faith, in the steps, which are written as a program for the treatment of addictions

RATIONAL RECOVERY

http://www.morerevealed.com/

Something on REBT

Http://www.orangepapers.org/

seven weeks to sobriety

http://www.recoveryindex.com/

Alternative methods of recovery

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Contact: whiteplainz@msn.com

To all interested parties: I am grateful to others who have been of assistance to me along the way, towards litigation against the organizations mentioned. I am particularly grateful to Lois and Jack Trimpy for their help, in allowing me to put and adapt their legal point program on my page. Thanks again!