but this purging feels so good;
like a virgin to the dark side of the world,
I never understood.
And still I am naive, you know.
A few words won’t bring me up.
The choice word would fit here,
but you’ll have no such luck.
I won’t be using them now,
you never have seen them at all.
You were NOT the witness
to my forsaken fall.
This all started in the bathroom
where I considered a start
and thought about some more things,
like where to put my heart.
I’m sorry, God, so sorry.
I hate what I have done.
How I have left You completely
and trampled on Your Son.
I can’t believe I did this,
but maybe it’s the best.
I shouldn’t do it again now
and I need to get some rest.
My purging is complete now.
I think I’ll finally sleep.
I’ve nothing else to say except
I hope you press delete.
--12/15/02