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Why should you care?
You see me, you think happy thoughts.
You see me, you see laughter.
You want me to go up on that stage and put on a smile and
laugh and joke and make you forget your worries and your
problems and the things that upset you when I'm not providing
a distraction. You don't know that the mask
comes off when I'm not up there.
You don't know that the happiness I'm giving you
comes from my deepest supplies,
the ones I store away for days where I can't deal with life.
You just want me to make you laugh or comfort you or fuel your
pity or tell you everything will be better. Even
though, for me, there is no "better". There
is only "not as bad." So smile!
Laugh!
On the outside, I'm a clown.
I'm a comedian.
I want to hear your fucking laughter
So I'll know that somewhere in this world there will be
happiness. Laugh, damn you. Just
because I'm not happy doesn't mean
that you shouldn't be.
Isn't that why I'm here? I bring light into
your life.
I'm the little smiling fucking sun that brings bright rays
into your life and makes you smile and laugh and drives the
dark clouds of anger or depression or anxiety away. Never
mind that on my own.
behind the mask I wear for you,
I am darkness.
When you are the sun,
Your world is black. Nobody can light it up,
For your own light, going out, blocks out theirs, coming in. But
smile!
Laugh!
Let me hear that fucking laughter
That I give myself to create.
If ever I feel alone, I want to be able to close my eyes and
hear, off in the distance, the sound of that fucking laughter.
-Ryan Smith
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