I awake in a cold sweat
from a dream of profound intimacy
as I passionately held...
in desperation
the beautiful form of man...
suddenly disappearing...
slipping from my grasp...
transforming into a longed fantasy...
memories...
of romantic interludes
perversely coursing through my fleshly limbs...
of me and you...
my potential lover
the one I fatuously let slip away...
Heart burning...
emotions wounded by the
painful fire of realizing...
the one I desire...
the one I admire...
has flown away
leaving my blood cold...
tears flowing...
wishing for the day my heart
will indulge in romantic ectasy...
With unspeakable admission...
you were my heart...
wanting you mind, body, and soul
was it an illusion or
fact I could not endure...
stupid of me...
leaving...
was my choice not yours
Selfishly...
unaware of what I had given up...
not ready for what you proposed...
has brought me to this...
waking up in a cold sweat
longing for the opportunity to
love you once again...
(c) 2004 Lacretia Johnson