9/1/02

I can think of a thousand ways in which I feel the pain

The gnawing of a thousand demons driving me insane

I wonder why it is this way in which I have to feel

As something deep inside of me makes it seem too unreal

But then I wonder why does this ancient feeling still remain

Waiting, slowly waking then, inside my lonely brain

And though you let me down as thus, I miss you even still

As no one seems to want to step into your spot and fill

Yet I sit here and tell myself just how much I hate you

But still, inside I know that not just any girl will do

What you and I had should have been sacred but now it's gone

As I pray for special someone, silent, waking in the dawn

I long for nights of dancing and holding someone close

But feeling being wanted is what I long for most

Though as I lie in wait painfully I realize every day

That wishing, wanting, hoping won't make this go away

But to a brand new dream girl, for you I watch and wait

Another sleepy dreaming about you in my current state

And so I long to meet you and tell you how I feel

But once again sometimes it seems a little too unreal

So come to me my beautiful or I’ll find my way to you

I'll treat you right through thick and thin, do all that I can do

For lo, we'll be inseparable and never be apart

Or at least, that's what I wish and hope, and long for in my heart...