by Arren
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ear Andy, Slim and Jonesy,
Well, it is almost over
now. The trial has lasted more than two
weeks and it finally looks like it will be over in a day, maybe two. You know I still cannot talk about it, but
the lawyers are coming to an agreement that should have us adjourned by the end
of the week if all goes well.
I have missed you all a lot
and I even miss the work we do every day.
You never realize what a good life you have until you are forced into
doing something that you really do not want to do. What I would not give some days to be outside in the sun, riding
with you out to the fences and digging holes rather than sitting for hours on
end in a cramped and dark courtroom.
Even at night they won’t let us go out for fear that we will get into
trouble and not come back. I never saw
the like.
I really am looking forward
to seeing Bitty’s puppies, Andy. I’ll
bet they are a lot of fun. Too bad they
cannot stay little and cute.
Everything has to grow up. I
just hope that they and you do not grow up too much before I get home.
Jonesy, the food here is not
awful, but it cannot hold a candle to yours.
The hotel serves the same thing each day of the week every week. What I mean is, if it is Tuesday you can
count on lamb stew. If it’s Friday, it
will always be Shepherd’s Pie. I reckon
they do not count on people staying as long as I have had to. I am not complaining really. I know I am obliged to do this and will see
it through.
Please keep writing to me
when you can. I look forward to your
letters and read them over and over.
Sometimes that is all I have to do.
They will not let us read newspapers and you know I ain’t much for
books. I have read a couple since I
been here though. Don’t laugh,
Slim. I read that book you wanted me
to, Robin Hood. Turns out one of the
other witnesses had it in his bag and gave it to me when he finished. It was good and I liked it, but was kind of
hard to read that old way of talking.
The other book was a Mormon prayer book. You can see how desperate I was, so keep those letters coming!
I will sign off now. I hope this finds you all well, as I
am. Do not worry, Andy, I will be home
for Christmas for sure.
Sincerely,
Jess
Andy gazed again at the
well-worn and oft-read letter through watery pools of tears. He didn’t mean to cry, but sometimes just
thinking about Jess being so far from home this close to Christmas seemed so
sad. A big sloppy tear ran down his
cheek and plopped right in the middle of the letter and smeared the ink of a
few words. He quickly wiped it off and
re-folded the letter along the deep creases that were already etched in it from
the hundred or so times he had unfolded it and refolded it during the two weeks
since Mose brought it to the house on one of his regular stage runs. The date at the top of the letter was over a
month before and there was no word since that.
Jess’ promise to be home by Christmas seemed less and less likely every
day.
Slim had been so worried
that he telegraphed Porterville for some word of the trial, and of course,
Jess. Two days later the brief reply
came: Sherman <stop> Trial over<stop> Laster convicted<stop> Escaped<stop> Killed three<stop>
Harper present-hurt some-went after Laster<stop>Last
known<stop>Marcus Wisely-City Council.
Three other telegrams back
and forth had established that the sheriff and two deputies had been killed and
Jess was shot in the arm but was not hurt seriously. Most of the men in town had families and were frankly happy to be
rid of Laster. Jess and the other
material witness, a Frank Porter, a distant relation of the town’s founder,
were the only ones to go after Laster.
That was the last anyone in that miserable little town knew of
Jess. That last part was Slim’s
editorial as he was telling Andy and Jonesy about the latest telegram from
Porterville.
Slim had made Andy go on to
bed after that, but Andy could hear through the door that Jonesy had a few
choice words for the good folks of Porterville, Kansas. He listened at the door as Jonesy and Slim
discussed their options. They decided
that it would be no use for Slim to ride for Porterville. At this late date the trail was too cold,
and it would take him almost a week to ride there. Jess could be anywhere by then.
There were no trains to that part of Kansas nor anywhere nearby either.
The next day Jonesy had
started a letter writing marathon. He
had Mose deliver a letter to every stop he made and made sure that from there,
they were passed on to other drivers down the line. Letters went out to every town, settlement and wide place in the
road for a hundred mile radius around Porterville, Kansas.
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hat was five days ago. No answers had come back yet. Andy shoved the folded letter in his shirt
pocket and jumped down from the paddock gate.
He swiped a hand under his eyes to wipe away the telltale wetness,
turned and headed toward the house.
It was dusk, and it was
getting too dark to see anyway. Lately
Andy had taken to coming out here after supper and sitting to watch the road. Twice in the last week he had stood up on
the fence because he had seen a rider in the distance, but both times it turned
out to be Mort Corey come out to see if there was any news. Mort, like Andy, had developed a new after
dinner ritual. His was to ride twelve
miles out to the Sherman ranch, have a cup of coffee, shoot the breeze and ride
back home.
A dejected Andy shuffled
back towards the lights of the house dragging his heart in the dirt. Slim came out of the barn carrying a lantern
and met Andy in the middle of the yard in front of the house.
“Almost time to hit the
sack, pardner.”
Andy’s chin was on his
chest, “Yeah.”
Slim stopped and stooped
down in front of the boy and set the lantern on the ground. He wrapped his big hands around both of the
boy’s arms and looked him in the eye,
“Andy, I know how you feel.
Believe me, I’m as worried as you are.
I can’t really say anything to make you feel any better, but I want you
to know you’re not alone.”
The lump in Andy’s throat
grew exponentially and the floodgates opened.
He lunged toward his big brother and wrapped both arms around Slim’s
neck. “I’m sorry, Slim, I just miss
him.”
Slim held him close and
rubbed circles on the boy’s back. “I
know, Andy. Me too.” Slim couldn’t say anything else, so he just
held on. If the truth were known, he
felt like crying too, but since he knew that would upset Andy more, he decided
the more practical thing to do was to carry on as if all was normal. Well, not normal, but as if he expected Jess
back any minute. He had kept up the
chores and the repairs, with less vigor than usual, but he had made a good show
of normality for the boy, but in the back of his mind, he was contemplating the very real possibility that he may have to hire some help. That could wait for now. It had to wait. He couldn't think about that now.
After a moment, Andy stood
back up straight and wiped his eyes on his sleeves. Slim stood, picked up his lantern, and with his arm around Andy’s shoulders, they both
walked to the house. In the darkness
they couldn’t see in the shadows of the porch, but they could hear Jonesy. He was muttering and rocking his chair on
its back legs and letting it bump against the house.
Since the last telegram from
Porterville, Jonesy had developed his own peculiar set of rituals. He cooked every meal as if he were cooking
for four instead of three. Every
evening he set Jess’ place at the table as if he expected Jess to walk in, hang
up his hat, sit down and start eating with both hands. Slim and Andy never said a word. They each had their own way of coping.
As Slim drew closer, he
could see that Jonesy was shelling peas and throwing the husks violently into a
bucket on the floor. “Andy, I left that
last piece of pie on the table for you iffen you want it.”
“Thanks, Jonesy, but I think
I’ll go on to bed.” He looked from his
brother to Jonesy and back again.
“G’night”
“Goodnight, boy.”
“Goodnight, Andy.” Slim and Jonesy had spoken at the same
time. Andy reached for the doorknob,
but stopped and turned around. He
looked back out toward the road, trying to see through the darkness for any
sign. Finding none, he turned back to
the door, opened it and went inside. He
closed it softly behind him with a quiet click.
Slim sat on the porch
rail and swung one leg up to rest it on the rough wooden beam. “Reckon I’ll go out and cut a Christmas tree
tomorrow.”
“Take the boy with you,
Slim. Should be good for him.”
“I will, Jonesy.” Slim crossed his arms and put his hands
under his armpits to warm them. Even
with his leather gloves, the air was chilly.
“What do you think, Jonesy?”
“About Jess?”
Slim didn’t answer, just
gave a quick nod.
“Well, Slim, I reckon if
there was anyway on God’s green earth that Jess could be home right now, he’d
be here. He ain’t one to disappoint
Andy and you know he’d rather be here than…wherever he is right now.”
“I know. “ Slim swung his leg down and rocked forward
with his arms braced on the crossbar.
“He also knows I’ll kill him if he…”
He didn’t finish the sentence.
After a moment he continued,
“Well, think I’ll turn in too.
Don’t stay up too late. You got
Christmas Eve cookin’ to do tomorrow.
You know Mort's comin’ don’t ya?”
“Yeah, don’t worry, Slim, everything’s
gonna be fine.”
Slim knew that Jonesy wasn’t
just talking about tomorrow’s dinner.
He stood up, brushed off the seat of his pants, and stepped toward the
door. He looked down at his friend affectionately. “Goodnight, Jonesy.”
“Night, Slim”
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ess couldn’t remember the
last time he had been so tired. The
heavy blanket of exhaustion had settled on him and weighed him down in the
saddle to where he couldn’t sit up straight.
He hadn’t seen another soul in over three days, and could only guess at
what the date actually was. He figured
it was near enough to Christmas that he shouldn’t -- he couldn’t -- stop. He had ridden all day and all night the
night before, and again all day today.
He had dozed off and on in the saddle and had woken with a start several
times. Each time he fixed his position
in relation to home, pointed his horse in the right direction and plodded
on. After a few hours of nodding off
and jerking awake, Jess finally fell into a deep sleep.
Jess had slept in the saddle
before. Years of riding trail had left
him with certain skills that he’d never shaken. He could eat jerky for days on end, sleep on hard rocky ground
and wake at the breaking of a twig. He
could ride through storms so fierce they’d make most people dive under the
bed. The skill that served him well
this night was sleeping sitting up, and not falling off. Traveler had been with him for all of that,
and stood him in good stead tonight.
The big bay knew where he was going.
They were close enough to Laramie now that he could smell it. The familiar south trail was as welcoming as
an old friend and Traveler knew that at the end of it was a warm stable and
fresh hay and oats. He plodded on
steadily and determined as if knowing that the man on his back was counting on
him to get them both home.
The lights of Laramie glowed
at the bottom of the twisting road that led into town from the south. Traveler stepped carefully in the dark, and
made his way through the quiet streets, attracting only the occasional glance
from passersby. Traveler had been to
Laramie hundreds of times, and lots of those times he had pulled up directly in
front of Mort Corey’s office. Out of
habit, that’s where he headed.
Mort Corey was just
finishing a late supper at Maudie’s Café.
He’d eaten dinner at the Sherman’s place that afternoon, but went for a
late supper before bed anyway. He
stepped out onto the boardwalk and rubbed his hands over his too full
belly. Glancing up the street, he
noticed a familiar outline against the big lighted window of the saloon across
the street. A big bay horse with a man
slumped in the saddle.
Mort stepped off the
boardwalk and into the muddy street, tossing away the toothpick he’d held in
his lips.
He walked up to the now
still horse and craned his neck to try to see the man up top. “Jess?”
He touched the leg nearest to him.
“Jess, is that you?”
Hearing his name being
called as if from a great distance, Jess raised his head and looked blearily
around. His blue eyes settled on the
figure standing on the ground just below him.
Mort’s face broke into a
wide grin. “Boy, you sure are a sight
for sore eyes.” He slapped Jess’
knee. “We’ve all been plumb worried to
death about you.”
“Howdy, Mort.” Jess managed. “Long time, no see.” He grinned
in the dark.
“Where you been, Jess? Slim and Andy have been worried sick.”
“You mind if I tell you
about it some other time, Mort? Right
now I just wanna go home.”
“Sure.” Mort took off his hat and swiped his hand
through his gray hair. “Sure,
Jess. I understand. They’ll be mighty glad to see you. If you’ll wait a minute, I’ll ride with
you.”
Jess shook his head. “No, Mort.
I want to go alone.”
“But, Jess, you look…”
“It’s alright, Mort. I’m fine.
I’m just tired, but that won’t stop me from getting home tonight.” His deep voice betrayed the tiredness that
was hidden on his face by darkness.
Mort smiled up at Jess. “I’ll just bet it won’t.” He returned his hat to his head. “Alright, Jess, you go on. And take it easy, huh?”
“You bet, Mort.” Jess prodded Traveler gently and started off
again with renewed energy. He was only
twelve more miles from home. After a few
steps, he pulled up and turned in the saddle, “Say, Mort. What day is it?”
“Why it’s Christmas Eve,
Jess. Merry Christmas.”
Jess smiled. He’d made it after all. “Merry Christmas, Mort.”
Jess prodded Traveler one
more time and turned west toward home.
Outside of the lights of town, the trail was blacker than the bottom of
a well. There was no moon so the going
was slow. Traveler took the familiar
trail with care, needing no guidance from Jess.
Not wanting to fall asleep
again, Jess turned his thoughts to the first time he’d ridden this trail out
toward the turn off to Baxter’s Ridge.
The day he rode into, and out of Laramie, in a big hurry. The day his life had changed.
He had found his new life
that day. He had put away the old
endless days on a trail that lead nowhere without so much as a glance
back. Oh, the old days caught up with
him sometimes. He’d left sometimes, but
he’d always come back. It took him
awhile to learn that he could count on Slim to stand by him, to help him out of
any jam. At first he didn’t trust that,
didn’t trust himself either. It was a
gradual, growing process, but he had come to realize that there was nothing
that he had done, or could ever do, that would shake Slim’s trust, or undermine
Slim’s friendship. The day he
understood that, was the day he found peace.
Jess didn’t understand what
he had done to deserve Slim and Andy and Jonesy and their friendship. After awhile, he stopped trying to figure it
out and just concentrated on preserving it.
Andy was as much his little brother as if he’d been born on that
run-down old farm in Texas right along with Jess. And Jonesy…well, Jonesy was just Jonesy. The first few weeks with Jonesy were a
little rocky. The old man didn’t trust
easily. But once you earned his trust,
his loyalty was unassailable, and Jess treasured it.
Sometimes he felt like he’d
brought nothing but trouble to his new home.
He had left to protect them more than once. Slim had always convinced him to come back. Whatever trouble he brought, be it from his
past, or in the present, they would stand against it together. So far, things were working out just fine.
Jess smiled to himself and
sat a little straighter in the saddle.
The twelve miles to the ranch never seemed this long before. He must have dozed off again because the
next thing he knew, the steady rocking motion had stopped. He opened his eyes and found himself in a
place darker than the trail, with not even stars above him.
It took him a minute to
realize that he was in the barn at home.
The familiar smells enveloped him like a comfortable blanket. Leather, hay, horses, liniment. He took a deep breath and swung down from
the saddle. He patted Traveler’s neck
and then began pulling off the saddle and harness.
After rubbing his horse down
and giving him some fresh hay and oats, Jess took his lantern and made his way
to the dark house. The front window was
closed and the curtain drawn. It was
cold out, but not freezing. There was a
faint warm glow of light from the fireplace inside. Jess stepped up on the porch and quietly opened the door. The house was quiet. Both of the front bedroom doors were closed.
It must have been after
midnight he guessed. Curiosity overtook
him and he quietly stepped over to the mantle and held the lantern up to the
clock. Twelve o-nine. Merry Christmas.
Swinging the lantern toward
the kitchen, he saw a Christmas tree blocking part of the passage to the
kitchen where the steps to the roof stood.
It was a little taller than he was and had ornaments hanging from every
branch. The ornaments were homemade,
some looked very old, some newer. There
were pinecones and cinnamon sticks tied with ribbon. There were several carved wooden figures, mostly of people, but
some of horses, dogs, birds and what looked like reindeer. He reached out and touched an orange with
cloves stuck into it. It was rough, but
very aromatic. The entire thing was
draped in a rope of popcorn and cranberries.
Jess stood looking for a few minutes.
He hadn’t seen a Christmas tree, at least not up close, in probably
eight or nine years.
The bone-deep weariness was
beginning to overtake him again. He lowered the lantern and walked back over to
the leather couch in the corner under the window. He’d pull off his boots and spurs before going to bed, so he
wouldn’t wake up Slim.
Jess sat on the edge of the
couch and set the lantern on the floor at his feet. He pulled one leg up and yanked off his boot, leaving his sock
on. The other one came off as
well. As if the effort was too much,
Jess slumped forward and closed his eyes.
After a minute, he laid down and was able to swing one leg up onto the
couch before falling asleep.
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onesy had heard a noise in
the living room. In that half-awake
half-asleep haze he assumed it must be Santa Clause since he’d just been
dreaming about that very thing. A second
thump brought him out of the haze and he was fully awake in an instant. He reached over and raised the wick of the
oil lamp on his bedside table, swung his feet down and slipped them into his
slippers by the bed. He stood up and
cautiously and quietly made his way to the door. He opened the door and peered out. He could see part of the dining room from the door, but wasn’t
able to see into the living room past the Christmas tree.
He quietly stepped out and
closed the door behind him. Holding the
lamp high, Jonesy tip-toed out to the living room. He scanned the room, comfortable with all the familiar shapes and
shadows. Finally his gaze rested on the
light colored lump on the couch across the room. Instantly he knew who it was and was not afraid. He hurried over to the couch and his eyes drifted
over Jess from head to toe, holding the lamp high over him.
Jess was sprawled on the
couch, one foot on the floor, one arm flung over his head. He was deeply asleep and breathing noisily. Jonesy looked for blood
and not finding any, relaxed and set the lamp down. He moved over to the chest in the corner behind the front door
and pulled down a big woolen blanket.
He returned to Jess, bent down and raised that one foot to the couch,
and then covered him with the soft brown blanket.
The sudden comfort and
warmth made Jess stir. He grunted
softly and turned on his side, settling in to a more comfortable position. Jonesy smiled, nodded and, picking up his lamp,
turned to go.
Jonesy couldn’t have been
happier if it were Christmas every day.
Jess had kept his promise to Andy, and nothing could be better than
that. Oh, it looked like Jess had paid
dearly to keep that promise. He’d lost
about ten pounds, the dark circles under his eyes were noticeable even in the
dim light and the old rag tied around his left arm signaled a wound, probably
the gunshot from the prisoner escaping.
Jess would have a long and
interesting story to tell, but tomorrow morning, no one in this house was going
to be happier than Jonesy was right now, just knowing that his family was all
under one roof again.
He bent low over Jess and
whispered, “Merry Christmas, Jess” and
then turned and went back to bed.