It was the Wednesday before All Hollows Eve, that a man I had met a few weeks prior at Metropolitan Community Church, had come to Tryangles with a couple of friends of mine after we'd gone for coffee at the local Heinie Brothers at Bardstown and Longest streets. Little did I know at the time, that the very man I had been pursuing for some time from church was conspiring with the new guy to get me interested in him. They didn't know that I'd been interested in the new guy for almost as long as I'd been in Chaz. I was just trying to do things the most appropriate way and pursue Chaz since I had begun pursuing him first. I didn't want to make myself look as if I couldn't make up my mind.

Anyway, There wasn't room for me in Chaz's car because he was already giving two people a ride to Heinie Brothers. I had to ask the new guy whose name I couldn't even remember. I felt very uncomfortable riding in his car with him. The first thing he did was lay his hand across my leg. I knew then what he was wanting to have happen later. We came to the coffee shop and there was no parking available. I showed him a place where he could park that was not far away. He got out before I did and opened the door for me. That was the first thing that gave him my favor. The next thing I knew he was putting his arm around me and we walked to the coffee shop arm and arm. I didn't know it just yet but I was falling in love with him already.

I'd been trying to attract the other guys attention for a few weeks at that point and getting nothing but conversation out of him. This guy ( whose name I later found to be Foggy) was going after me with minimal effort on my part; none really. What was I to do; I thought. Do I keep going after Chaz who is not expressing much interest in at all, or allow myself to look like I don't really know who the Hell I want by going with Foggy? I was so confused that night it wasn't even funny. Foggy wouldn't lay off and I really wanted him but I also didn't want to look like an indecisive idiot who didn't know who he was really interested in. That wasn't to mention the fact that this guy was yet another whom I'd have to tell my HIV status to and risk the same bull shit rejection again that I'd had to deal with so many times from many others. I didn't really want to deal with that either. I figured though it would be the best way to start things and if he was worth knowing; he could deal with it.

First I had told him that I was interested in Chaz and had been pursuing him for a few weeks already. I didn't thin k it was appropriate for me to take him home with me under those circumstances. He stopped for a while coming on so strong. It wasn't until after he'd told Chaz what I'd said, and Chaz told him to take me home and rape me; because he didn't really care; then he started it all again. It was then that I told Foggy that he thought he was interested in me; but there was something he didn't know about me, that would probably change his mind as fast it always did everyone else's. So I told him, I `m HIV +; now do you still want me? I didn't think so!

He kind of ignored me for about an hour and then I asked if he would take me home; I had to work and I was already up too late. I never expected in a million years that he would start coming on to me again. He put his hand back on my leg and then I knew he'd made up his mind. We kissed for hours as I explained to him, that I wanted to do things the right way this time, and date. The more he kissed me tongue on tongue deeply, gently sliding down our throats the less I could resist him. He was so loving, so passionate and sensual.

I had left no choice but to succumb to his wild passions; for he had swept me off my feet.